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Title: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 03:31:39 pm
Been going in circles lately.  Before this I was doing amazingly well, kicking ass and being lovely.  But some shit went down.  I'm not gonna get into what the shit was because I'm honestly not that much of an attention whore.  Fell to pieces, though.  Was no good.  And now this suicidal ideation is kind of ruling my life.  My life fell apart once more, as it tends to.  I've been spending my days on like mental health themed forums trying to convince other depressed and possibly suicidal people that they've got a lot to live for.  People like that really seem to appreciate my empty words but they're obviously starved for affection.  Don't think much help can even come from people via this medium.

I don't want to say I'm suicidal because yeah.  Running circles around myself.  But there are those moments, where you're so lost in your head it crushes your lungs and you can't breathe.  Right?  We've all been there.

But it's fucking exhausting.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 03:41:30 pm
"I'm gonna fucking do it this time!  Take all the pills, hang myself, whatever.  I'm gettin' out!"

Whoa just chill out.  You don't want to kill yourself; that's crazy!

"Fuck you!  You're crazy!"

Clearly... :facepalm:
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 03:47:51 pm
there are those moments, where you're so lost in your head it crushes your lungs and you can't breathe.  Right?  We've all been there.

But it's fucking exhausting.

No.  I haven't been there.  I have no idea what you mean.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 03:50:44 pm
You lie.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 03:53:33 pm
You lie.

Why would I lie?  To look cool or something? 

I just have never felt the feeling you describe.  I have a different way of being a fuck up, like I get so frustrated when things go wrong, I almost gnaw my own hand off from sheer rage.  But unless I am drunk as fuck or smoking crack, I have never been 'lost inside my own head or whatever'
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 03:57:40 pm
You lie.

Why would I lie?  To look cool or something? 

I just have never felt the feeling you describe.  I have a different way of being a fuck up, like I get so frustrated when things go wrong, I almost gnaw my own hand off from sheer rage.  But unless I am drunk as fuck or smoking crack, I have never been 'lost inside my own head or whatever'

Rage... hmm.  Sounds intoxicating.  I suppose I should count myself lucky.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 04:01:59 pm
Heh every house I have ever lived in has fist holes in the walls in at least two places.  I am also well known for throwing my phones through windows during heated business discussions or disputes with women.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 04:03:21 pm
Please don't kill yourself. You grew on me and now I quite like you.

I'd miss you, if you were gone.  :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 04:04:07 pm
Heh every house I have ever lived in has fist holes in the walls in at least two places.  I am also well known for throwing my phones through windows during heated business discussions or disputes with women.

That sounds awful.  A slave to your own anger.

Have you ever been suicidal?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Eli on September 22, 2014, 04:04:15 pm
just off urself already...

Spoiler
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide_bag
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 04:05:11 pm
Please don't kill yourself. You grew on me and now I quite like you.

I'd miss you, if you were gone.  :)

You're wasting you life spamming this place with nonsense.  Why?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Eli on September 22, 2014, 04:06:34 pm
Please don't kill yourself. You grew on me and now I quite like you.

I'd miss you, if you were gone.  :)

You're wasting you life spamming this place with nonsense.  Why?

nvm you make good post
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 04:06:45 pm
just off urself already...

Spoiler
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide_bag

Great, thank you.  Maybe I will.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Eli on September 22, 2014, 04:09:11 pm
I take back that statement.

ur vehicle isn't ready to be abandoned yet
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 04:10:36 pm
Please don't kill yourself. You grew on me and now I quite like you.

I'd miss you, if you were gone.  :)

You're wasting you life spamming this place with nonsense.  Why?
That was a honest post and you portray me as a monster.

Thank you very much.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 04:11:50 pm
That sounds awful.  A slave to your own anger.

Have you ever been suicidal?

No.  I direct my particular brand of inner blackness outwards onto others rather than myself.  I am surprised I am not sitting in prison for aggravated assault.  It sort of takes a lot to get me mad but when I do lose it I totally flip the fuck out.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Antidote on September 22, 2014, 04:13:48 pm
I think about suicide on a weekly basis.

Internet forums will only further your depression.

Currently, I'm trying to push myself over the edge.

Earth is about to be refurbished, your only chance to survive is to COME WITH ME.

Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 04:17:09 pm
Please don't kill yourself. You grew on me and now I quite like you.

I'd miss you, if you were gone.  :)

You're wasting you life spamming this place with nonsense.  Why?
That was a honest post and you portray me as a monster.

Thank you very much.
Don't just ignore me.  :'(
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 04:17:49 pm
Please don't kill yourself. You grew on me and now I quite like you.

I'd miss you, if you were gone.  :)

You're wasting you life spamming this place with nonsense.  Why?
That was a honest post and you portray me as a monster.

Thank you very much.

You're not a monster, but you seem so lost.  Don't you have things to do?  People to hang out with, a job to attend?

That sounds awful.  A slave to your own anger.

Have you ever been suicidal?

No.  I direct my particular brand of inner blackness outwards onto others rather than myself.  I am surprised I am not sitting in prison for aggravated assault.  It sort of takes a lot to get me mad but when I do lose it I totally flip the fuck out.

That's awful.  Guess we each have our own cross to bear.  I'd much rather be suicidal than someone mean and spiteful.

I think about suicide on a weekly basis.

Internet forums will only further your depression.

Currently, I'm trying to push myself over the edge.

Earth is about to be refurbished, your only chance to survive is to COME WITH ME.

what.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 04:18:20 pm
Don't just ignore me.  :'(

Your avatar looks like he is reaching down to touch himself.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 04:22:29 pm
That's awful.  Guess we each have our own cross to bear.  I'd much rather be suicidal than someone mean and spiteful.

I am not mean and spiteful, just volatile.  And I would much much rather be volatile than suicidal.  Cannot imagine that sort of mindset.  Sounds like hell on earth, and it is also morally wrong, because life is actually a divine miracle rather than some sort of cursed meatworld like some of you seem to dwell in.  When you kill yourself, you kill one of gods creations, and that is pretty much an evil act.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 04:31:22 pm
I have abandoned society and live of my indescribably huge wealth which I have attained through.... things.

I've volunteered in a hospital to make up for my former lifestyle but that made me hate humanity so nowadays, as a broken man, I just hang out online, do drugs sometimes and workout a lot.

I'll maybe get a job as horticulturist, soon. Work with plants is relaxing.

Thank you for asking.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 04:34:57 pm
That's awful.  Guess we each have our own cross to bear.  I'd much rather be suicidal than someone mean and spiteful.

I am not mean and spiteful, just volatile.  And I would much much rather be volatile than suicidal.  Cannot imagine that sort of mindset.  Sounds like hell on earth, and it is also morally wrong, because life is actually a divine miracle rather than some sort of cursed meatworld like some of you seem to dwell in.  When you kill yourself, you kill one of gods creations, and that is pretty much an evil act.

hmm.  dunno what more to say about the mean thing.  hopefully you're never truly spiteful; i've known some ugly people in my life.

You're so right about suicide being morally wrong.  It's sort of like you're torn between your own desire to end your pain and that natural survival instinct... with all this other shit thrown in all over the place.  Delusional insanity, the knowledge of what it feels like when someone close to you commits suicide, legal stuff, your life falling apart around you.  I dunno.  It's... no good.

And yeah, it is totally evil.  My life is a blessing and I try to remember that.  But here I am...
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 04:36:05 pm
I have abandoned society and live of my indescribably huge wealth which I have attained through.... things.

I've volunteered in a hospital to make up for my former lifestyle but that made me hate humanity so nowadays, as a broken man, I just hang out online, do drugs sometimes and workout a lot.

I'll maybe get a job as horticulturist, soon. Work with plants is relaxing.

Thank you for asking.

I hope that all goes well for you.  Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to become like a live-in sex slave to some depraved rich guy.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 22, 2014, 04:37:42 pm
Your entire fictitious post is ridiculous and no one that isnt cracked-out believes it. If you had abandoned society you wouldn't be shitspamposting all the fuck over the place for one thing
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 04:38:15 pm
I have abandoned society and live of my indescribably huge wealth which I have attained through.... things.

I've volunteered in a hospital to make up for my former lifestyle but that made me hate humanity so nowadays, as a broken man, I just hang out online, do drugs sometimes and workout a lot.

I'll maybe get a job as horticulturist, soon. Work with plants is relaxing.

Thank you for asking.

I hope that all goes well for you.  Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to become like a live-in sex slave to some depraved rich guy.
Thanks for the offer but I'm fine.  ;)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 04:40:45 pm
Your entire fictitious post is ridiculous and no one that isnt cracked-out believes it. If you had abandoned society you wouldn't be shitspamposting all the fuck over the place for one thing
It's the truth and nothing but the truth.

"indescribably huge" was an exaggaration, though.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 04:42:22 pm
I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 04:44:11 pm
I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.
I think you just need some love.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 04:45:32 pm
I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.

You know, lithium occurs naturally in the environment, and in groundwater.  Maybe you can find a natural source of lithium that would help ease your symptoms yet still doesn't dehumanize you.  Or whatever.  Fucking hippies.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 04:49:25 pm
I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.
I think you just need some love.

You know I don't understand love.

I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.

You know, lithium occurs naturally in the environment, and in groundwater.  Maybe you can find a natural source of lithium that would help ease your symptoms yet still doesn't dehumanize you.  Or whatever.  Fucking hippies.

It takes massive doses to kill those thoughts.  Like nearly 2000mg each day.  With lithium they require regular blood work because therapeutic doses can be very very dangerous.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 04:54:06 pm
2000mg

Two. Fucking.  Grams.  Of lithium.  A day.  Your brain really is broken or something?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 04:55:12 pm
Get some Phenibut from Amazon but be super careful. It's addictive as fuck. Helped me a lot with social anxiety and depression, though.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Tokolosh on September 22, 2014, 04:59:40 pm
I've been spending my days on like mental health themed forums trying to convince other depressed and possibly suicidal people that they've got a lot to live for.

These words of support you're supplying to other people, do you not believe you can apply the same advice to yourself?

I bet you're setting this groundwork for other people but not making your own foundation from it. It makes you feel good helping other people, and whilst that's swell and shit, a more fulfilling venture would be sitting yourself down and conforming to your own guidance.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 05:00:47 pm
2000mg

Two. Fucking.  Grams.  Of lithium.  A day.  Your brain really is broken or something?

Actually just 1.8g a day, but yeah.  If you want to end serious thoughts of suicide this totally worked for me in the past.

Get some Phenibut from Amazon but be super careful. It's addictive as fuck. Helped me a lot with social anxiety and depression, though.

I really want to believe in that shit.  Supplement with all kinda of stuff, or did before all of this happened.

now idk.  i just want to cry in bed and hate myself.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 05:01:28 pm
I've been spending my days on like mental health themed forums trying to convince other depressed and possibly suicidal people that they've got a lot to live for.

These words of support you're supplying to other people, do you not believe you can apply the same advice to yourself?

I bet you're setting this groundwork for other people but not making your own foundation from it. It makes you feel good helping other people, and whilst that's swell and shit, a more fulfilling venture would be sitting yourself down and conforming to your own guidance.
+1

Good advice.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 05:02:24 pm
I've been spending my days on like mental health themed forums trying to convince other depressed and possibly suicidal people that they've got a lot to live for.

These words of support you're supplying to other people, do you not believe you can apply the same advice to yourself?

I bet you're setting this groundwork for other people but not making your own foundation from it. It makes you feel good helping other people, and whilst that's swell and shit, a more fulfilling venture would be sitting yourself down and conforming to your own guidance.

:/

I don't think I was helping anyone at all, except maybe to masturbate.  I'm cynically depressed.

lol

.... :(
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 05:03:34 pm
Quote
just want to cry in bed and hate myself

Then do that for a while and when you feel a little better take some goddamn drugs.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 05:05:22 pm
Another good advice: Stop that victim shit ASAP. Let a God dance within you.

Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Soso0 on September 22, 2014, 05:07:23 pm
I can't go a day without having suicidal thoughts... I guess the only way to deal with it is to keep your mind occupied. I guess whats mainly kept me from just killing myself is that I am already on this earth so I might as well stay here since I might not get another chance.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 05:08:09 pm
Let a God dance within you

Your sig line indicates that you let a gay dance within you.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 05:14:24 pm
yeah.  i guess.

im going back to bed.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 05:37:14 pm
Let a God dance within you

Your sig line indicates that you let a gay dance within you.
You sig is a Tacho quote......

....
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 05:38:01 pm
yeah.  i guess.

im going back to bed.
Sweet dreams, babe.  :-*
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 05:39:58 pm
You sig is a Tacho quote..........

Yeah I harassed the fuck out of that nigger, and caught him plagiarizing and other underhanded shit.  The quote is directed to me, after he was irritated that I made him look like the jabbering monkey he is in front of the whole zoklet clique.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 05:41:22 pm
You sig is a Tacho quote..........

Yeah I harassed the fuck out of that nigger, and caught him plagiarizing and other underhanded shit.  The quote is directed to me, after he was irritated that I made him look like the jabbering monkey he is in front of the whole zoklet clique.
It is what it is....
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 05:46:40 pm
It is what it is....

Yeah, it got to where he just wouldn't post when I was online, and carefully avoided any threads I was in.  He pretty much stopped posting before zoklet closed, because he couldn't handle everyone making fun of him with thomas the tank engine and stevie from malcolm in the middle jokes.  I wear my sig line like it was that niggers scalp, yo.

So what's the story with your sig line, and the positive affirmation of life that it appears to be, and how it makes me question your sexuality?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 05:48:47 pm
Good times.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Jedi Moped on September 22, 2014, 06:00:34 pm
It is what it is....

Yeah, it got to where he just wouldn't post when I was online, and carefully avoided any threads I was in.  He pretty much stopped posting before zoklet closed, because he couldn't handle everyone making fun of him with thomas the tank engine and stevie from malcolm in the middle jokes.  I wear my sig line like it was that niggers scalp, yo.

So what's the story with your sig line, and the positive affirmation of life that it appears to be, and how it makes me question your sexuality?

What is your ceaseless obsession with other men's sexuality all about there Kokomo?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 06:01:57 pm
Komokazi says: Niggers.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 06:02:36 pm
What is your ceaseless obsession with other men's sexuality all about there Kokomo/

Well, since I am surrounded by faggots like you, no wonder I am mentioning the subject alot more lately.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Jedi Moped on September 22, 2014, 06:21:26 pm
What is your ceaseless obsession with other men's sexuality all about there Kokomo/

Well, since I am surrounded by faggots like you, no wonder I am mentioning the subject alot more lately.
So are you trying to tell us if you accidentally found yourself in a gay bar you would likely suck a dick?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 06:25:40 pm
So are you trying to tell us if you accidentally found yourself in a gay bar you would likely suck a dick?

No but I sure would be calling people all kinds of faggots and shit, just like if I was at the lake, I would probably be talking about geese and chipmunks or whatever.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 06:27:12 pm
I have abandoned society and live of my indescribably huge wealth which I have attained through.... things.

I've volunteered in a hospital to make up for my former lifestyle but that made me hate humanity so nowadays, as a broken man, I just hang out online, do drugs sometimes and workout a lot.

I'll maybe get a job as horticulturist, soon. Work with plants is relaxing.

Thank you for asking.

You know how you could make up for your former lifestyle?  By sharing your money and drugs with me.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 06:43:14 pm
No.

:laugh:
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 06:53:29 pm
Stingy mother fucker!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 07:04:23 pm
God fucking dammit you guys.  You're all awful.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 07:08:08 pm
God fucking dammit you guys.  You're all awful.

Sometimes I think that this vessel is only holding me back.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 07:13:51 pm
God fucking dammit you guys.  You're all awful.
What's your problem now?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 07:15:26 pm
God fucking dammit you guys.  You're all awful.
What's your problem now?

lol

you turned my pity party into a fag fest.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 07:21:29 pm
I am the constant in a storm of chaos.  I part the sea of dissonance wherever I go.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 07:25:34 pm
God fucking dammit you guys.  You're all awful.

Heh best post in this thread ^^^^
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 07:29:06 pm
God fucking dammit you guys.  You're all awful.
What's your problem now?

lol

you turned my pity party into a fag fest.
Welcome to &Sanctuary.

You could end the fag fest and show us your pussy. Like this post if you agree.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 22, 2014, 07:43:44 pm
God fucking dammit you guys.  You're all awful.
What's your problem now?

lol

you turned my pity party into a fag fest.
Welcome to &Sanctuary.

You could end the fag fest and show us your pussy. Like this post if you agree.

Don't be begging for the pussy when youre the biggest faggot around

Take your own advice and show us your pussy
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Jedi Moped on September 22, 2014, 07:44:40 pm
God fucking dammit you guys.  You're all awful.

Heh best post in this thread ^^^^

Heh worst post in this thread ^^^^
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 07:53:18 pm
Maybe I'm just in a bad mood, but seriously guys.  I'm like contemplating hanging myself and even I'm not posting useless bullshit all over the place.  You're all plenty capable of not being idiots, so why are you presenting yourselves as such?

"You're a fag!"

"No, you're a fag!"

"niggers"

That actually happened.  Here, in like the psychology forum.  This kinda thing has got to stop.  'Cause if it doesn't, do you know what will happen?  Arnox will decide that we need more rules and more moderators to keep us all in line.  And then we're back to being Zoklet, and we're all banned!  I don't want to be banned.  It's lonely.  Please don't ban me.

Can we maybe pretend we're not pointlessly aggressive morons?  At least when we're outside of the general forums?  Sometimes?

I'm trying to feel sorry for myself here.  Why would you come in and interrupt that? :'(
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 07:57:28 pm
pointlessly aggressive morons?

I am what I am.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 07:58:46 pm
manchildren.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 08:00:07 pm
Perhaps you need to develop more pointless aggression and then you wouldn't have as much time to sit around feeling sorry for yourself.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 08:00:38 pm
Fucking crybaby bitch. Go fuck yourself.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 08:01:52 pm
Apparently none of our pointlessly aggressive antics are cheering this one up.  I am outta this thread.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 08:02:55 pm
Instead of feeling sorry for the fact that life sucks and sitting around boo hooing and it's not fair...  You should instead get angry that life sucks and use that anger constructively to do something about it.  Or, at least try.  I think life sucks too.  I can't wait for it to be over.  But, in the meantime.  I'm mad as hell and I'm not gonna take it!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 08:03:56 pm
Your threads are shit.

(http://i.imgur.com/hRhH11f.png)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 08:04:53 pm
Your threads are shit.

(http://i.imgur.com/hRhH11f.png)

That looks like me after shaving my face with a straight razor for the first time last night.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 08:06:40 pm
Instead of feeling sorry for the fact that life sucks and sitting around boo hooing and it's not fair...  You should instead get angry that life sucks and use that anger constructively to do something about it.  Or, at least try.  I think life sucks too.  I can't wait for it to be over.  But, in the meantime.  I'm mad as hell and I'm not gonna take it!

"Constructive anger" is an oxymoron.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 08:09:04 pm
Instead of feeling sorry for the fact that life sucks and sitting around boo hooing and it's not fair...  You should instead get angry that life sucks and use that anger constructively to do something about it.  Or, at least try.  I think life sucks too.  I can't wait for it to be over.  But, in the meantime.  I'm mad as hell and I'm not gonna take it!

"Constructive anger" is an oxymoron.

No, it's called finding a constructive outlet for your expression. 
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: bling bling on September 22, 2014, 08:09:07 pm
attention whoreing
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 08:15:43 pm
Instead of feeling sorry for the fact that life sucks and sitting around boo hooing and it's not fair...  You should instead get angry that life sucks and use that anger constructively to do something about it.  Or, at least try.  I think life sucks too.  I can't wait for it to be over.  But, in the meantime.  I'm mad as hell and I'm not gonna take it!

"Constructive anger" is an oxymoron.

No, it's called finding a constructive outlet for your expression.

ITT:  OP implies she is unfamiliar with and dislikes anger, then 3 pages later becomes an expert on anger, then proceeds to tell us how wrong we are about anger, even though some of us live with it every day.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 08:23:57 pm
You're arguing with a person who does this

(http://i.imgur.com/hRhH11f.png)

Throw all logic out of the window, take on your pirate hat and dance, dance for your life.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 08:25:04 pm
Instead of feeling sorry for the fact that life sucks and sitting around boo hooing and it's not fair...  You should instead get angry that life sucks and use that anger constructively to do something about it.  Or, at least try.  I think life sucks too.  I can't wait for it to be over.  But, in the meantime.  I'm mad as hell and I'm not gonna take it!

"Constructive anger" is an oxymoron.

No, it's called finding a constructive outlet for your expression.

ITT:  OP implies she is unfamiliar with and dislikes anger, then 3 pages later becomes an expert on anger, then proceeds to tell us how wrong we are about anger, even though some of us live with it every day.

Unfamiliar with anger?  It's a human emotion we all experience.  That doesn't mean it's something worth indulging in mindlessly.  Or even if you do, you could be creative and interesting about it instead of calling each other fags.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 08:26:30 pm
You're arguing with a person who does this

(http://i.imgur.com/hRhH11f.png)

Throw all logic out of the window, take on your pirate hat and dance, dance for your life.

So what?  Even the crazy person thinks you're all being stupid and destructive.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Jedi Moped on September 22, 2014, 08:28:26 pm
Instead of feeling sorry for the fact that life sucks and sitting around boo hooing and it's not fair...  You should instead get angry that life sucks and use that anger constructively to do something about it.  Or, at least try.  I think life sucks too.  I can't wait for it to be over.  But, in the meantime.  I'm mad as hell and I'm not gonna take it!

"Constructive anger" is an oxymoron.

No, it's called finding a constructive outlet for your expression.

ITT:  OP implies she is unfamiliar with and dislikes anger, then 3 pages later becomes an expert on anger, then proceeds to tell us how wrong we are about anger, even though some of us live with it every day.

ITT SpectraL lets his DaGuru hang out.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 08:28:37 pm
You could be creative and interesting the next time you mutiliate yourself and carve some beautiful pictures in those legs instead of just cutting yourself like a faggot. How about that?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 08:29:51 pm
Unfamiliar with anger?  It's a human emotion we all experience.  That doesn't mean it's something worth indulging in mindlessly.  Or even if you do, you could be creative and interesting about it instead of calling each other fags.

you said mindless, not me.  And how would you know who is capable of using anger constructively and who is not? 

Just because you feel a certain way, does that make it true for everyone? 

If that was the case, why have I never been suicidal, yet I like to break stuff, while you think that breaking stuff is stupid yet you mope around and want to die?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 08:31:33 pm

Unfamiliar with anger?  It's a human emotion we all experience.  That doesn't mean it's something worth indulging in mindlessly.  Or even if you do, you could be creative and interesting about it instead of calling each other fags.

Calling each other fags has nothing to do with anger.  That's just a social bonding experience.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 08:33:34 pm
Okay.  I'm sorry for saying mean things to you guys.  My head just isn't quite where it should be right now.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 08:33:35 pm
Calling each other fags has nothing to do with anger.  That's just a social bonding experience.

It is also personally satisfying to call you guys fags.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Tokolosh on September 22, 2014, 08:34:21 pm
:/

I don't think I was helping anyone at all, except maybe to masturbate.  I'm cynically depressed.

lol

.... :(

Eh, I've only just realised who I was responding to.

Makes sense now, it's quite common for people with your disability lifestyle choice to be severely depressed.

Your highly confused temperament is probably pre-programmed for perpetual dissatisfaction or something.

Yeah.

*leaves thread*
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 08:36:25 pm
Okay.  I'm sorry for saying mean things to you guys.  My head just isn't quite where it should be right now.
Be submissive how you're supposed to be and it's all cool.

Pick a fight and get dehumanized. It's that easy.

Apology accepted.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 08:36:33 pm
:/

I don't think I was helping anyone at all, except maybe to masturbate.  I'm cynically depressed.

lol

.... :(

Eh, I've only just realised who I was responding to.

Makes sense now, it's quite common for people with your disability lifestyle choice to be severely depressed.

Your highly confused temperament is probably pre-programmed for perpetual dissatisfaction or something.

Yeah.

*leaves thread*

What are you even talking about?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 08:37:28 pm
I'm going to get some ice cream, because I'm sad and fuck all of you :(
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 08:38:58 pm
:/

I don't think I was helping anyone at all, except maybe to masturbate.  I'm cynically depressed.

lol

.... :(

Eh, I've only just realised who I was responding to.

Makes sense now, it's quite common for people with your disability lifestyle choice to be severely depressed.

Your highly confused temperament is probably pre-programmed for perpetual dissatisfaction or something.

Yeah.

*leaves thread*

What are you even talking about?

I think he is calling you a fag.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 08:40:50 pm
I'm going to get some ice cream, because I'm sad and fuck all of you :(
What kind of ice cream?  :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 08:42:08 pm
I'm going to get some ice cream, because I'm sad and fuck all of you :(

Ice cream always makes me happy.  Do you realize all of the crazy shit that is going on in the world?  We are at a precipice in time.  An historic moment, where anything is possible.  Why the fuck are you sad? I'm the guy at the bottom and I'm grinning from ear to ear.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Sirfearoth on September 22, 2014, 08:44:19 pm
OP if your still breathing and still think of suicide don't be a pussy and use pills, knives, guns, or hanging yourself. Get some gasoline mix it with some styrofoam. You'll want it about to consistency of motor oil. Take some clothes soak them in diesel, and put on the diesel soaked clothes, apply the gas/foam mixture. Then apply some type of ignition source. Don't forget to videotape it, and I wouldn't worry about a note   
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 08:48:14 pm
I'm going to get some ice cream, because I'm sad and fuck all of you :(

What do these two things have to do with each other?  Sad = ice cream?  Fucking women are fucked in the head.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 08:52:07 pm
I'm going to get some ice cream, because I'm sad and fuck all of you :(

What do these two things have to do with each other?  Sad = ice cream?  Fucking women are fucked in the head.
The fat/sugar mixture gives them a dopamine rush while they can self loath and victimize themselves over being fatties.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 08:59:29 pm
The fat/sugar mixture gives them a dopamine rush while they can self loath and victimize themselves over being fatties.

Seems legit.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 09:02:09 pm
I iz ey doctor for se fatbitchology, ay.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 09:06:43 pm
:/

I don't think I was helping anyone at all, except maybe to masturbate.  I'm cynically depressed.

lol

.... :(

Eh, I've only just realised who I was responding to.

Makes sense now, it's quite common for people with your disability lifestyle choice to be severely depressed.

Your highly confused temperament is probably pre-programmed for perpetual dissatisfaction or something.

Yeah.

*leaves thread*

What are you even talking about?

I think he is calling you a fag.

Of course he is :facepalm:

I'm going to get some ice cream, because I'm sad and fuck all of you :(
What kind of ice cream?  :)

Hägaen-Dazs coffee flavor.

I'm going to get some ice cream, because I'm sad and fuck all of you :(

Ice cream always makes me happy.  Do you realize all of the crazy shit that is going on in the world?  We are at a precipice in time.  An historic moment, where anything is possible.  Why the fuck are you sad? I'm the guy at the bottom and I'm grinning from ear to ear.

I'm sad for all sorts of reasons, not that you care.  It's all my fault, but... ugh.  Nevermind.

OP if your still breathing and still think of suicide don't be a pussy and use pills, knives, guns, or hanging yourself. Get some gasoline mix it with some styrofoam. You'll want it about to consistency of motor oil. Take some clothes soak them in diesel, and put on the diesel soaked clothes, apply the gas/foam mixture. Then apply some type of ignition source. Don't forget to videotape it, and I wouldn't worry about a note

....

No thanks, I'll either overdose or hang myself if it comes down to it.  Probably overdose.

I'm going to get some ice cream, because I'm sad and fuck all of you :(

What do these two things have to do with each other?  Sad = ice cream?  Fucking women are fucked in the head.

If you don't eat deliciously bad foods when you're sad then I feel bad for you.  Doesn't have to be ice cream or even sweet, can be like pizza.  Depression brings on unhealthy eating habits in lots of people.  Don't judge.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 09:10:24 pm
If you don't eat deliciously bad foods when you're sad then I feel bad for you.  Doesn't have to be ice cream or even sweet, can be like pizza.  Depression brings on unhealthy eating habits in lots of people.  Don't judge.

No, I try to eat healthy.  Sometimes ice cream, but I cannot understand how emotions coorelate with dietary habits.  When I am sad or upset, I don't want to eat anything, let alone junk food.

I am not judging, just asking, really. 
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 09:10:57 pm
I have no symphaty for people who eat Hägaen-Dazs. Period.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 22, 2014, 09:11:15 pm
You know, I think I'm going to break totse tradition and write a serious reply for you.

My brother has depression as well. Way back when, he used to have a girlfriend that was... Crazy. Also very needy.

Switching tracks here for a second, my parents also had an old house they had moved out of but still had most all of their stuff in it. Very old three story house with a basement and a garage. It had SO MUCH crap stuffed into both it and the garage and basement and they had to sort through it all and get rid of it or store it. My dad had to work so he couldn't go over there, leaving just me and my mom.

The first thing that went wrong was that we went during the winter time, and where the house was, winter's sucked. Incredibly cold... Icy... So there was the first problem. The second was that the house was in some small nothing town in the middle of nowhere. 30 miles to the nearest city where my brother lived. The third problem is that when we last left the house, we poured antifreeze down all the pipes because they had a tendency to crack in the winter time and flood the basement. So we didn't have any running water in the entire house. The only thing that was there was electricity.

For a little bit there, it was just us. Sitting in that godforsaken house in the middle of oblivion, sorting through and packing around an almost limitless supply of junk and old boxes in a crammed house with no water and little heat in the middle of winter. We had to rely on my mom's friend and truck stops in the city for showers. My dad was pressuring my mom to get done as soon as possible because it was draining him to support the electricity bill in that house alone what with the constant use of very energy consuming heaters that we had.

Then, one day, my brother had had it with his girlfriend completely and he had to go. He had to pack up what he could and leave. Leave his nice apartment, his two dogs, even a nice mostly brand new car they were just paying off. He had to leave all that and go. And of course, our decrepit house was the only place he could go now. He didn't even have his license as that was revoked because of an accident he had

As time wore on, the house seemed hardly closer to being finished than it had when we first got there. My mom was beginning to become strained to say the least and my brother was insanely depressed, having lost a huge massive chunk both physically and emotionally to his girlfriend. And now he was sitting with us in the middle of nowhere in the same situation we were in. But wait, there's more.

After my bro was with us for a little bit, my mother almost snapped in half one night. Almost went completely insane with stress to get the house done and also because of some existing mental problems she had which I won't go into right now. We had managed keep her on the level but it took a bit and we couldn't push her any further at all.

But we did get out. It took us about 5 months in total but we finally got it all done and we blew out of there. It seems like an age ago now. But my brother endured it all along with us. And I'm telling you, if he can, you can.

Think about your family or your friends. Anyone who cares about you. You commit suicide, you will tear them apart. They will never be the same again. So remember, if you can't hold on for yourself, you should hold on for the people who care about you.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 09:13:09 pm
If you don't eat deliciously bad foods when you're sad then I feel bad for you.  Doesn't have to be ice cream or even sweet, can be like pizza.  Depression brings on unhealthy eating habits in lots of people.  Don't judge.

No, I try to eat healthy.  Sometimes ice cream, but I cannot understand how emotions coorelate with dietary habits.  When I am sad or upset, I don't want to eat anything, let alone junk food.

I am not judging, just asking, really.

Oh, well.

I'm on myself most of the time to eat really well.  Want to be strong and fit and that makes hardcore sugary treats and other junk foods off-limits.  When I'm sad and seriously considering suicide it's like uh yeah who the fuck cares?  So I'm all in today.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 09:17:01 pm
Of course I care.  I wouldn't waste my time talking to all of you faggots if I didn't care.  I just think the world is fucked up and people need to realize that everything is a distraction.  The world is designed to keep you enslaved, feeling powerless and hopeless.  If you waste your time focusing on how much you want it to end, you'll never have the time or energy to actually attempt to become a god and break free. 
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 09:17:56 pm
You know, I think I'm going to break totse tradition and write a serious reply for you.

My brother has depression as well. Way back when, he used to have a girlfriend that was... Crazy. Also very needy.

Switching tracks here for a second, my parents also had an old house they had moved out of but still had most all of their stuff in it. Very old three story house with a basement and a garage. It had SO MUCH crap stuffed into both it and the garage and basement and they had to sort through it all and get rid of it or store it. My dad had to work so he couldn't go over there, leaving just me and my mom.

The first thing that went wrong was that we went during the winter time, and where the house was, winter's sucked. Incredibly cold... Icy... So there was the first problem. The second was that the house was in some small nothing town in the middle of nowhere. 30 miles to the nearest city where my brother lived. The third problem is that when we last left the house, we poured antifreeze down all the pipes because they had a tendency to crack in the winter time and flood the basement. So we didn't have any running water in the entire house. The only thing that was there was electricity.

For a little bit there, it was just us. Sitting in that godforsaken house in the middle of oblivion, sorting through and packing around an almost limitless supply of junk and old boxes in a crammed house with no water and little heat in the middle of winter. We had to rely on my mom's friend and truck stops in the city for showers. My dad was pressuring my mom to get done as soon as possible because it was draining him to support the electricity bill in that house alone what with the constant use of very energy consuming heaters that we had.

Then, one day, my brother had had it with his girlfriend completely and he had to go. He had to pack up what he could and leave. Leave his nice apartment, his two dogs, even a nice mostly brand new car they were just paying off. He had to leave all that and go. And of course, our decrepit house was the only place he could go now. He didn't even have his license as that was revoked because of an accident he had

As time wore on, the house seemed hardly closer to being finished than it had when we first got there. My mom was beginning to become strained to say the least and my brother was insanely depressed, having lost a huge massive chunk both physically and emotionally to his girlfriend. And now he was sitting with us in the middle of nowhere in the same situation we were in. But wait, there's more.

After my bro was with us for a little bit, my mother almost snapped in half one night. Almost went completely insane with stress to get the house done and also because of some existing mental problems she had which I won't go into right now. We had managed keep her on the level but it took a bit and we couldn't push her any further at all.

But we did get out. It took us about 5 months in total but we finally got it all done and we blew out of there. It seems like an age ago now. But my brother endured it all along with us. And I'm telling you, if he can, you can.

Think about your family or your friends. Anyone who cares about you. You commit suicide, you will tear them apart. They will never be the same again. So remember, if you can't hold on for yourself, you should hold on for the people who care about you.
Cool story, bro.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 09:20:02 pm
Oh, well.

I'm on myself most of the time to eat really well.  Want to be strong and fit and that makes hardcore sugary treats and other junk foods off-limits.  When I'm sad and seriously considering suicide it's like uh yeah who the fuck cares?  So I'm all in today.

Do you have pets?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 09:22:08 pm
You know, I think I'm going to break totse tradition and write a serious reply for you.

My brother has depression as well. Way back when, he used to have a girlfriend that was... Crazy. Also very needy.

Switching tracks here for a second, my parents also had an old house they had moved out of but still had most all of their stuff in it. Very old three story house with a basement and a garage. It had SO MUCH crap stuffed into both it and the garage and basement and they had to sort through it all and get rid of it or store it. My dad had to work so he couldn't go over there, leaving just me and my mom.

The first thing that went wrong was that we went during the winter time, and where the house was, winter's sucked. Incredibly cold... Icy... So there was the first problem. The second was that the house was in some small nothing town in the middle of nowhere. 30 miles to the nearest city where my brother lived. The third problem is that when we last left the house, we poured antifreeze down all the pipes because they had a tendency to crack in the winter time and flood the basement. So we didn't have any running water in the entire house. The only thing that was there was electricity.

For a little bit there, it was just us. Sitting in that godforsaken house in the middle of oblivion, sorting through and packing around an almost limitless supply of junk and old boxes in a crammed house with no water and little heat in the middle of winter. We had to rely on my mom's friend and truck stops in the city for showers. My dad was pressuring my mom to get done as soon as possible because it was draining him to support the electricity bill in that house alone what with the constant use of very energy consuming heaters that we had.

Then, one day, my brother had had it with his girlfriend completely and he had to go. He had to pack up what he could and leave. Leave his nice apartment, his two dogs, even a nice mostly brand new car they were just paying off. He had to leave all that and go. And of course, our decrepit house was the only place he could go now. He didn't even have his license as that was revoked because of an accident he had

As time wore on, the house seemed hardly closer to being finished than it had when we first got there. My mom was beginning to become strained to say the least and my brother was insanely depressed, having lost a huge massive chunk both physically and emotionally to his girlfriend. And now he was sitting with us in the middle of nowhere in the same situation we were in. But wait, there's more.

After my bro was with us for a little bit, my mother almost snapped in half one night. Almost went completely insane with stress to get the house done and also because of some existing mental problems she had which I won't go into right now. We had managed keep her on the level but it took a bit and we couldn't push her any further at all.

But we did get out. It took us about 5 months in total but we finally got it all done and we blew out of there. It seems like an age ago now. But my brother endured it all along with us. And I'm telling you, if he can, you can.

Think about your family or your friends. Anyone who cares about you. You commit suicide, you will tear them apart. They will never be the same again. So remember, if you can't hold on for yourself, you should hold on for the people who care about you.
Cool story, bro.

Really need that Thanks button...
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 09:25:12 pm
You know, I think I'm going to break totse tradition and write a serious reply for you.

My brother has depression as well. Way back when, he used to have a girlfriend that was... Crazy. Also very needy.

Switching tracks here for a second, my parents also had an old house they had moved out of but still had most all of their stuff in it. Very old three story house with a basement and a garage. It had SO MUCH crap stuffed into both it and the garage and basement and they had to sort through it all and get rid of it or store it. My dad had to work so he couldn't go over there, leaving just me and my mom.

The first thing that went wrong was that we went during the winter time, and where the house was, winter's sucked. Incredibly cold... Icy... So there was the first problem. The second was that the house was in some small nothing town in the middle of nowhere. 30 miles to the nearest city where my brother lived. The third problem is that when we last left the house, we poured antifreeze down all the pipes because they had a tendency to crack in the winter time and flood the basement. So we didn't have any running water in the entire house. The only thing that was there was electricity.

For a little bit there, it was just us. Sitting in that godforsaken house in the middle of oblivion, sorting through and packing around an almost limitless supply of junk and old boxes in a crammed house with no water and little heat in the middle of winter. We had to rely on my mom's friend and truck stops in the city for showers. My dad was pressuring my mom to get done as soon as possible because it was draining him to support the electricity bill in that house alone what with the constant use of very energy consuming heaters that we had.

Then, one day, my brother had had it with his girlfriend completely and he had to go. He had to pack up what he could and leave. Leave his nice apartment, his two dogs, even a nice mostly brand new car they were just paying off. He had to leave all that and go. And of course, our decrepit house was the only place he could go now. He didn't even have his license as that was revoked because of an accident he had

As time wore on, the house seemed hardly closer to being finished than it had when we first got there. My mom was beginning to become strained to say the least and my brother was insanely depressed, having lost a huge massive chunk both physically and emotionally to his girlfriend. And now he was sitting with us in the middle of nowhere in the same situation we were in. But wait, there's more.

After my bro was with us for a little bit, my mother almost snapped in half one night. Almost went completely insane with stress to get the house done and also because of some existing mental problems she had which I won't go into right now. We had managed keep her on the level but it took a bit and we couldn't push her any further at all.

But we did get out. It took us about 5 months in total but we finally got it all done and we blew out of there. It seems like an age ago now. But my brother endured it all along with us. And I'm telling you, if he can, you can.

Thanks for the story, Arnox.  Touching :(

Everyone is sad, I know.  I'm nothing special, and you went through this rough 5 months period when both your brother and mother were a little unwell.  So everyone can, right?  Maybe.  I dunno.

Think about your family or your friends. Anyone who cares about you. You commit suicide, you will tear them apart. They will never be the same again. So remember, if you can't hold on for yourself, you should hold on for the people who care about you.

I wish you hadn't said this piece.  It's too true and I hate it.  I've been affected by suicide in the past and I sort of know what it's like.  Really don't want to do that to anyone else, especially not to my wonderful family that has always been there when I needed them.  But I hurt.  A lot.  And I don't like it here.  And I'm crazy, and unloved, and selfish.  ugh

If I do commit suicide, I'll feel guilty about it.  Maybe the only way to manage it is to forget about the people who love me.

How is your family now?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 09:28:23 pm
Oh, well.

I'm on myself most of the time to eat really well.  Want to be strong and fit and that makes hardcore sugary treats and other junk foods off-limits.  When I'm sad and seriously considering suicide it's like uh yeah who the fuck cares?  So I'm all in today.

Do you have pets?

kitties! xD
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 09:29:02 pm
You need professional help. Seriously.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 09:33:22 pm
Send me your computer before you off yourself, because this thing is a piece of shit.  I promise I will use it in your honor to spread awareness of whatever the fuck is wrong with you.  But seriously.  You can't kill yourself.  Who will loves your kitties?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 09:33:25 pm
You need professional help. Seriously.

Have had plenty.  Never did me much good, obviously.

When I cut up my legs I spent a bit in the hospital.  Was gone before the psychologist even had time for me, though I'd seen the psychiatrist twice.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 09:33:58 pm
kitties! xD

You are aware that if you suicide, once you are dead, they will eat you?  They will get hungry with no one around to feed them, they will drink out of the toilet, and they will tear strips of flesh from you, probably from your face, and they will eat you.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 09:35:08 pm
You need professional help. Seriously.

Have had plenty.  Never did me much good, obviously.

When I cut up my legs I spent a bit in the hospital.  Was gone before the psychologist even had time for me, though I'd seen the psychiatrist twice.

I think you just need to take the advice of my sig.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 09:36:55 pm
Fucking Amen!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 09:48:44 pm
Send me your computer before you off yourself, because this thing is a piece of shit.  I promise I will use it in your honor to spread awareness of whatever the fuck is wrong with you.  But seriously.  You can't kill yourself.  Who will loves your kitties?

People would be fighting over who got to love my kitties!  'Cause they're adorable :)

kitties! xD

You are aware that if you suicide, once you are dead, they will eat you?  They will get hungry with no one around to feed them, they will drink out of the toilet, and they will tear strips of flesh from you, probably from your face, and they will eat you.

no.

You need professional help. Seriously.

Have had plenty.  Never did me much good, obviously.

When I cut up my legs I spent a bit in the hospital.  Was gone before the psychologist even had time for me, though I'd seen the psychiatrist twice.

I think you just need to take the advice of my sig.

ugh no.  i don't like weed and sex is so complicated with me.

Sorry, I'm totally just wallowing in self-pity now.  Yep.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 09:50:49 pm
no.

Oh yes.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 09:54:56 pm
Unsubscribe.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 09:55:41 pm
no.

Oh yes.

My cats would never eat my face even if they were starving, and I wouldn't ever let them starve anyway.  I'd probably email someone right before committing the act and they'd take good care of my cats.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 10:02:27 pm
Your cats will die before you anyway. You won't kill yourself you dumb bitch.

Just. Fucking. Stop. Posting. This. Shit.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 10:04:10 pm
Your cats will die before you anyway. You won't kill yourself you dumb bitch.

What makes you so sure?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 10:05:10 pm
My cats would never eat my face even if they were starving, and I wouldn't ever let them starve anyway.  I'd probably email someone right before committing the act and they'd take good care of my cats.

No matter how good you take care of your cats, and how nice they may be, if they were hungry and your corpse was there, they would be eating that shit like fucking fancy feast.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 10:06:54 pm
Your cats will die before you anyway. You won't kill yourself you dumb bitch.

What makes you so sure?
Do it. Do it right fucking now.

See? No guts no glory.

Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 10:08:17 pm
My cats would never eat my face even if they were starving, and I wouldn't ever let them starve anyway.  I'd probably email someone right before committing the act and they'd take good care of my cats.

No matter how good you take care of your cats, and how nice they may be, if they were hungry and your corpse was there, they would be eating that shit like fucking fancy feast.

Uh?  My cats don't eat fancy feast.  They get real food and taurine supplements.  Lightly blended fish and stuff.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 10:09:29 pm
Uh?  My cats don't eat fancy feast.  They get real food and taurine supplements.  Lightly blended fish and stuff.

Yeah, the fucking brand of cat food that your cats eat was the whole point I was trying to make.

 :facepalm:
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 10:10:15 pm
Your cats will die before you anyway. You won't kill yourself you dumb bitch.

What makes you so sure?
Do it. Do it right fucking now.

See? No guts no glory.

I'll kill myself when I'm good and fucking ready, if I even want to later on.  But don't think I'm all talk.  I made a very serious attempt previously, and it's kind of a wonder I'm alive now.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 10:12:10 pm
Uh?  My cats don't eat fancy feast.  They get real food and taurine supplements.  Lightly blended fish and stuff.

Yeah, the fucking brand of cat food that your cats eat was the whole point I was trying to make.

 :facepalm:

Well you're just being stupid.  I raised my cats right; they're not like cannibals.  They're graceful and dignified, even in how they eat.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 10:13:04 pm
Your cats will die before you anyway. You won't kill yourself you dumb bitch.

What makes you so sure?
Do it. Do it right fucking now.

See? No guts no glory.

I'll kill myself when I'm good and fucking ready, if I even want to later on.  But don't think I'm all talk.  I made a very serious attempt previously, and it's kind of a wonder I'm alive now.
Not a wonder, a fucking shame.

I'll pray for your family. RIP.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 10:16:14 pm
Well you're just being stupid.  I raised my cats right; they're not like cannibals.  They're graceful and dignified, even in how they eat.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH holy fucking shit HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Now this is the most hilarious post I have ever read in my life.  Two in one day.  I love it, I fucking love it.

Ok let me get this straight....HAHAHAHAH sorry I cannot help but laugh my fucking ass off.....CANNIBALS?  hahahahahah oh my fucking god.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 22, 2014, 10:19:27 pm
Cool story, bro.

(http://i39.servimg.com/u/f39/14/26/98/51/coolst11.jpg)

Thanks for the story, Arnox.  Touching :(

Everyone is sad, I know.  I'm nothing special, and you went through this rough 5 months period when both your brother and mother were a little unwell.  So everyone can, right?  Maybe.  I dunno.

Think about your family or your friends. Anyone who cares about you. You commit suicide, you will tear them apart. They will never be the same again. So remember, if you can't hold on for yourself, you should hold on for the people who care about you.

I wish you hadn't said this piece.  It's too true and I hate it.  I've been affected by suicide in the past and I sort of know what it's like.  Really don't want to do that to anyone else, especially not to my wonderful family that has always been there when I needed them.  But I hurt.  A lot.  And I don't like it here.  And I'm crazy, and unloved, and selfish.  ugh

If I do commit suicide, I'll feel guilty about it.  Maybe the only way to manage it is to forget about the people who love me.

How is your family now?
Hehehe... A little unwell...

They're alright. We're still getting through kind of a tough time right now but it's nowhere near as bad as it once was at least.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 10:46:01 pm

Uh?  My cats don't eat fancy feast.  They get real food and taurine supplements.  Lightly blended fish and stuff.

Your cats eat better than I do and you're the depressed one?  LOL!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 22, 2014, 10:49:18 pm
Your cats eat better than I do and you're the depressed one?  LOL!

(http://i39.servimg.com/u/f39/14/26/98/51/notsur11.jpg)

Do I have to start white-knighting again?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 10:51:19 pm
You're fighting windmills, bro.

Just let it go.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 22, 2014, 10:52:39 pm
Your cats will die before you anyway. You won't kill yourself you dumb bitch.

What makes you so sure?
Do it. Do it right fucking now.

See? No guts no glory.

I'll kill myself when I'm good and fucking ready, if I even want to later on.  But don't think I'm all talk.  I made a very serious attempt previously, and it's kind of a wondegr I'm alive now.

You should prove all the naysayers wrong and get on with killing yourself in the most gruesome manner possible.  Make sure to post pics
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 11:12:18 pm
Your cats will die before you anyway. You won't kill yourself you dumb bitch.

What makes you so sure?
Do it. Do it right fucking now.

See? No guts no glory.

I'll kill myself when I'm good and fucking ready, if I even want to later on.  But don't think I'm all talk.  I made a very serious attempt previously, and it's kind of a wonder I'm alive now.
Not a wonder, a fucking shame.

I'll pray for your family. RIP.

Why would you ever say something like that to a person?  Shame on you.

Well you're just being stupid.  I raised my cats right; they're not like cannibals.  They're graceful and dignified, even in how they eat.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH holy fucking shit HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Now this is the most hilarious post I have ever read in my life.  Two in one day.  I love it, I fucking love it.

Ok let me get this straight....HAHAHAHAH sorry I cannot help but laugh my fucking ass off.....CANNIBALS?  hahahahahah oh my fucking god.

Uh... what?

Hehehe... A little unwell...

They're alright. We're still getting through kind of a tough time right now but it's nowhere near as bad as it once was at least.

Hmm.  I'm glad to hear they're at least doing better than they were.  Guess those problems never stop coming, right? :(


Uh?  My cats don't eat fancy feast.  They get real food and taurine supplements.  Lightly blended fish and stuff.

Your cats eat better than I do and you're the depressed one?  LOL!

If you're not eating well it's your own fault.

Your cats eat better than I do and you're the depressed one?  LOL!

(http://i39.servimg.com/u/f39/14/26/98/51/notsur11.jpg)

Do I have to start white-knighting again?

He's being serious.  My cats eat better than a lot of people, though they require different nutrients so it's kinda hard to compare...

but yeah you should totally white knight.  i want everyone who's mean to me banned!  thx.

Your cats will die before you anyway. You won't kill yourself you dumb bitch.

What makes you so sure?
Do it. Do it right fucking now.

See? No guts no glory.

I'll kill myself when I'm good and fucking ready, if I even want to later on.  But don't think I'm all talk.  I made a very serious attempt previously, and it's kind of a wondegr I'm alive now.

You should prove all the naysayers wrong and get on with killing yourself in the most gruesome manner possible.  Make sure to post pics

You're just a shining mass of joy, aren't you?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 11:19:29 pm
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I'm so worried about things!  What am I gonna do?  Feel caught between suicide and a hard place.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 11:23:04 pm
Uh... what?

Umm....cannibals eat....their own kind?  Like, they are cats, not people, so if they eat you....they are not cannibals.  Not to mention that no matter what you want and how 'civilized' you think your cats are, if they are starving they will eat whatever meat they can get.  They may not like it, but they will strip your face clean and leave your skull exposed for the emergency workers to take selfies with and laugh at.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 22, 2014, 11:29:00 pm
Uh... what?

Umm....cannibals eat....their own kind?  Like, they are cats, not people, so if they eat you....they are not cannibals.  Not to mention that no matter what you want and how 'civilized' you think your cats are, if they are starving they will eat whatever meat they can get.  They may not like it, but they will strip your face clean and leave your skull exposed for the emergency workers to take selfies with and laugh at.

This is true.  Cats are fierce, majestic animals.  They will eat your face and then no one will want them, because they'll have to wear masks like in The Silence of Lambs and then they won't be cute and cuddly no more!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 11:30:32 pm
Uh... what?

Umm....cannibals eat....their own kind?  Like, they are cats, not people, so if they eat you....they are not cannibals.  Not to mention that no matter what you want and how 'civilized' you think your cats are, if they are starving they will eat whatever meat they can get.  They may not like it, but they will strip your face clean and leave your skull exposed for the emergency workers to take selfies with and laugh at.

Oh, I'm they're mom.  We're family, and eating your own family is cannibalism.  Also I'm pretty sure I've was a cat in one of more recent past lives because I have a crazy kinship with them.  Like we share this spiritual connection of empathetic understanding.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 11:31:21 pm
And wtf guys.  No, my cats are not going to eat me.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 11:32:31 pm
Like we share this spiritual connection of empathetic understanding.

 :facepalm:
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 11:33:48 pm
My best friends are cats...

:(
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 11:36:48 pm
My best friends are cats...

:(

And your cats' best friend will conveniently become a vast amount of meat once she exits this world.  I know, I know, you said someone would take them, but I am just saying, if they could, they would, 'spiritual connection' or not.  I love my dog but if it comes to a survival situation, I will be chewing on a mouthful of 'ralf' with tears streaming down my face.  Meat is meat.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 11:39:09 pm
Like we share this spiritual connection of empathetic understanding.

 :facepalm:
Don't facepalm that. I have the same. I'm the cat whisperer. No shit.

Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 11:39:40 pm
I love my dog but if it comes to a survival situation, I will be chewing on a mouthful of 'ralf' with tears streaming down my face.  Meat is meat.

That's terrible!  I don't even believe you.  You love your dog, you couldn't kill and eat him/her even if your life depended on it.

Never underestimate the power of love.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 22, 2014, 11:43:27 pm
Hmm.  I'm glad to hear they're at least doing better than they were.  Guess those problems never stop coming, right? :(

Not for me, not for you, not for anyone.

He's being serious.  My cats eat better than a lot of people, though they require different nutrients so it's kinda hard to compare...

Actually, I was gonna say to him that people with clinical depression are depressed no matter what their current circumstance and they can't do very much about it at all besides meds.

but yeah you should totally white knight.  i want everyone who's mean to me banned!  thx.
Mmmmmmmm... Why not? *hand hovers over ban button before slapping it away* No! Must resist temptation.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 11:44:55 pm
That's terrible!  I don't even believe you.  You love your dog, you couldn't kill and eat him/her even if your life depended on it.

Never underestimate the power of love.

If I was starving, sure I would.  If I was in a survival situation ever had to go a long distance, I think they call it 'bugging out' or some shit, and I had no vehicle and my dog was with me, I would probably have to shoot him.  There is no way he could keep up with me on foot, dogs just aren't endurance animals.  He would either slow me down considerably, or he would suffer trying to keep up.  Some things just need handled, even if they are unpleasant. 
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 11:45:14 pm
At least ban millionsofdeadcats.  Usernames like that should be against the rules, and he keeps calling people names.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 11:46:40 pm
At least ban millionsofdeadcats.  Usernames like that should be against the rules, and he keeps calling people names.

I think arnox kinda likes me.  Don't ya, arnox?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 22, 2014, 11:47:18 pm
Never underestimate the power of love.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 11:49:35 pm
Not for me, not for you, not for anyone.

:(

Actually, I was gonna say to him that people with clinical depression are depressed no matter what their current circumstance and they can't do very much about it at all besides meds.

Ah... I'm supposedly bipolar, not majorly depressed.  But yeah, same thing I guess.

That's terrible!  I don't even believe you.  You love your dog, you couldn't kill and eat him/her even if your life depended on it.

Never underestimate the power of love.

If I was starving, sure I would.  If I was in a survival situation ever had to go a long distance, I think they call it 'bugging out' or some shit, and I had no vehicle and my dog was with me, I would probably have to shoot him.  There is no way he could keep up with me on foot, dogs just aren't endurance animals.  He would either slow me down considerably, or he would suffer trying to keep up.  Some things just need handled, even if they are unpleasant.

What kind of person even thinks about things like that?  Killing a dog when it becomes an inconvenience in some apocalyptic future.  You're kind of sick.

At least ban millionsofdeadcats.  Usernames like that should be against the rules, and he keeps calling people names.

I think arnox kinda likes me.  Don't ya, arnox?

He's too nice.  Once I'm admin you're all banned.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 22, 2014, 11:52:54 pm
At least ban millionsofdeadcats.  Usernames like that should be against the rules, and he keeps calling people names.

Yeah, he's such a meanie... I'm sorry. :(

I think arnox kinda likes me.  Don't ya, arnox

I would but... How did Hobbes put it? I'm beguiled by her feminine charms. *hand begins to hover over ban button again*
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 11:53:21 pm
Never underestimate the power of love.

I will try not to, as I munch on roasted dog over my campfire.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 11:54:40 pm
*hand begins to hover over ban button again*

*hand begins to hover over my genital region*

I'm about to break out the 'banhammer' myself.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 22, 2014, 11:55:56 pm
At least ban millionsofdeadcats.  Usernames like that should be against the rules, and he keeps calling people names.

Yeah, he's such a meanie... I'm sorry. :(

I think arnox kinda likes me.  Don't ya, arnox

I would but... How did Hobbes put it? I'm beguiled by her feminine charms. *hand begins to hover over ban button again*

Hmm you don't gotta ban him I guess.  Just change his name to uh...

millionsofcuddlycats
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: John Smith on September 22, 2014, 11:57:44 pm
You're Zek, correct?

I've read that the life expectancy for transgender people is around 23-32, but they didn't provide references.

Wouldn't surprise me. Then again many may work in the sex trade or have STDs, so if you aren't in those categories, you could boost your estimate up a bit, but it wouldn't surprise me if most of the discrepancy was due to suicide.

Unfortunately, those who have had a suicide attempt are allegedly 100 times more likely than the general population to have a successful suicide attempt in their lifetime.

Honestly, you're probably to much of wreck and are pretty much a lost cause.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 22, 2014, 11:59:46 pm
Hmm you don't gotta ban him I guess.  Just change his name to uh...

millionsofcuddlycats

Noooooooooooooooooooo

Mmmmmquestions, got time for a story?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:00:27 am
You're Zek, correct?

NO!

Unfortunately, those who have had a suicide attempt are allegedly 100 times more likely than the general population to have a successful suicide attempt in their lifetime.

Honestly, you're probably to much of wreck and are pretty much a lost cause.

I'd read that, too.  Kind of scary.  Factor in the suicides in my family too, and it's all ugh.  Kinda think maybe I'm destined for suicide.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 12:02:23 am
You're Zek, correct?

I've read that the life expectancy for transgender people is around 23-32, but they didn't provide references.

Wouldn't surprise me. Then again many may work in the sex trade or have STDs, so if you aren't in those categories, you could boost your estimate up a bit, but it wouldn't surprise me if most of the discrepancy was due to suicide.

Unfortunately, those who have had a suicide attempt are allegedly 100 times more likely than the general population to have a successful suicide attempt in their lifetime.

Honestly, you're probably to much of wreck and are pretty much a lost cause.
Never underestimate the power of love.

Zek confirmed.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:02:50 am
:rolleyes:
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 23, 2014, 12:03:41 am
Hmm you don't gotta ban him I guess.  Just change his name to uh...

millionsofcuddlycats

Oh gods... The temptation is too much. I give in.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:04:44 am
Hmm you don't gotta ban him I guess.  Just change his name to uh...

millionsofcuddlycats

Oh gods... The temptation is too much. I give in.

omg we need a thanks button so hard.  i love you arnox.

this is a win for the good guys! xD
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 12:06:03 am
argh
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:07:02 am
argh

That's what you get, you animal hating jerk :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 12:08:38 am
Hmm you don't gotta ban him I guess.  Just change his name to uh...

millionsofcuddlycats

Oh gods... The temptation is too much. I give in.
But you didn't accept the deal between Finny and me? I'm disappoint, son. Like whoa.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: John Smith on September 23, 2014, 12:08:48 am
You're Zek, correct?

NO!

Unfortunately, those who have had a suicide attempt are allegedly 100 times more likely than the general population to have a successful suicide attempt in their lifetime.

Honestly, you're probably to much of wreck and are pretty much a lost cause.

I'd read that, too.  Kind of scary.  Factor in the suicides in my family too, and it's all ugh.  Kinda think maybe I'm destined for suicide.

Bizarre, you seemed to have so many similarities. Who are you then and where do you come from?

I too would have destined for suicide without radical intervention. Consider trying an MAOI: www.psychotropical.com
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 23, 2014, 12:08:58 am
omg we need a thanks button so hard.  i love you arnox.

this is a win for the good guys! xD

Yes... His name is so cute and wonderful now. :D
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 12:11:22 am
As entertaining as it would be to accept this deal or others like it, the staff will not be making these kinds of deals with its members at all.

As staff members, when it comes to our jobs, we cannot afford to mess and screw around. We cannot get mixed up in these sorts of things. Instead, we have to be that guy nobody likes. Like the police officers that have to come over and break up a house party because of several noise complaints. Like a dad who tells his kids that they need to eat their vegetables or else they don't get to smoke their daily allowance of crack.

We have to be model posters, above any and all drama and politics that may arise on the forum, and part of doing that means we can't make such deals as this with other members.
FAKE AND GAY!  >:(
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Rowan on September 23, 2014, 12:13:06 am
Had an aunt who after suffering crippling headaches and back problems for many years (more than 10) successfully committed suicide. She had spent at least the last 10 years of her life undergoing rigorous testing and constant medical care and nothing could ease the pain. The headaches were so bad they would nearly blind her and caused her terrible vomiting. Even the specialists were giving up hope they would find a solution for her. After her 3rd attempt she managed to end her life, the family was devastated but we all understood that there is only so much pain a person could endure. She was in her mid 50's with 3 young grandchildren. Although I am not promoting suicide in any manner I think that many people misunderstand it. People do not kill themselves to end their lives. They do it to end their pain.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:13:45 am
omg we need a thanks button so hard.  i love you arnox.

this is a win for the good guys! xD

Yes... His name is so cute and wonderful now. :D

You've done a good thing today.  Cats the world over would be appreciative, if they knew how to read and could post on internet forums.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 23, 2014, 12:15:09 am
FAKE AND GAY!  >:(

It wasn't a deal. It was a request. :)

You've done a good thing today.  Cats the world over would be appreciative, if they knew how to read and could post on internet forums.

Mmmmmmmm... It was. And- Wait, what's going on here? What? What have I done?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:15:20 am
Had an aunt who after suffering crippling headaches and back problems for many years (more than 10) successfully committed suicide. She had spent at least the last 10 years of her life undergoing rigorous testing and constant medical care and nothing could ease the pain. The headaches were so bad they would nearly blind her and caused her terrible vomiting. Even the specialists were giving up hope they would find a solution for her. After her 3rd attempt she managed to end her life, the family was devastated but we all understood that there is only so much pain a person could endure. She was in her mid 50's with 3 young grandchildren. Although I am not promoting suicide in any manner I think that many people misunderstand it. People do not kill themselves to end their lives. They do it to end their pain.

Very good post.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 12:15:48 am
FAKE AND GAY!  >:(

It wasn't a deal. It was a request. :)
Arnox....

You have no idea what you've done.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:18:05 am
FAKE AND GAY!  >:(

It wasn't a deal. It was a request. :)

You've done a good thing today.  Cats the world over would be appreciative, if they knew how to read and could post on internet forums.

Mmmmmmmm... It was. And- Wait, what's going on here? What? What have I done?

:P

FAKE AND GAY!  >:(

It wasn't a deal. It was a request. :)
Arnox....

You have no idea what you've done.

Chill the fuck out.  It's jokes, and fun.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 12:19:05 am
I am so glad mmmmquestions was not here to see this.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:21:12 am
I am so glad mmmmquestions was not here to see this.

We'll be sure to invite him next time.

Oh man, I've been spamming this lame thread all day.  Don't have a life after getting out of the hospital and deciding to quit school in favor of suicide.  It's threads like this that make me hate my post count.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 23, 2014, 12:22:47 am
:P

You tricked me and hypnotized me with your charms. D: How could you?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:27:48 am
:P

You tricked me and hypnotized me with your charms. D: How could you?

(http://www.zoklet.net/images/smilies/cat/helloclap.gif)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 12:28:46 am
This is not over.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 23, 2014, 12:29:37 am
(http://www.zoklet.net/images/smilies/cat/helloclap.gif)
Dawwww... Such a cute kitty ^^

I mean, don't you try and distract me!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 12:30:20 am
Oh man, I've been spamming this lame thread all day.  Don't have a life after getting out of the hospital and deciding to quit school in favor of suicide.  It's threads like this that make me hate my post count.

Mine too.  There is freaking nothing to do in this town, and once I get everything done, I can either walk the dogs, go drive around aimlessly, go to the bar, or shitpost.  I usually choose the latter.  I stay out of trouble that way.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 12:32:18 am
Oh man, I've been spamming this lame thread all day.  Don't have a life after getting out of the hospital and deciding to quit school in favor of suicide.  It's threads like this that make me hate my post count.

Mine too.  There is freaking nothing to do in this town, and once I get everything done, I can either walk the dogs, go drive around aimlessly, go to the bar, or shitpost.  I usually choose the latter.  I stay out of trouble that way.
Dude, fucking kill yourselves together in a huge circle jerk suicide fest. What is this shit?

Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:32:46 am
(http://www.zoklet.net/images/smilies/cat/helloclap.gif)
Dawwww... Such a cute kitty ^^

I mean, don't you try and distract me!

Aww but you being distracted was such a good distraction for me <3

Thanks for hanging out with us for a bit, Arnox.  We should do this more often!

Oh man, I've been spamming this lame thread all day.  Don't have a life after getting out of the hospital and deciding to quit school in favor of suicide.  It's threads like this that make me hate my post count.

Mine too.  There is freaking nothing to do in this town, and once I get everything done, I can either walk the dogs, go drive around aimlessly, go to the bar, or shitpost.  I usually choose the latter.  I stay out of trouble that way.

Guess anything that keeps you off the streets is good for the general public.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 12:39:59 am
Dude, fucking kill yourselves together in a huge circle jerk suicide fest. What is this shit?

Look, you are ruining my setups, let me work on this, it will be funny, I swear.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 23, 2014, 12:43:07 am
Aww but you being distracted was such a good distraction for me <3

Thanks for hanging out with us for a bit, Arnox.  We should do this more often!

o.o I... do want to this more often....

Dude, fucking kill yourselves together in a huge circle jerk suicide fest. What is this shit?

It's people connecting and sharing words in innocent conversation. Not every sentence has to be "ur a fgt" around here you know.

:cosby:
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 12:44:21 am
Ok.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 12:44:59 am
Ok.

Alright.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 12:47:43 am
o.o I... do want to this more often....

Great!  We'll have tons of fun.  My life is still an unholy mess but I don't even feel like killing myself right now.

It's people connecting and sharing words in innocent conversation. Not every sentence has to be "ur a fgt" around here you know.

:cosby:

lol that risir guy is kinda crazy... hot and cold, like a frustrated stalker with a spiteful crush.  it's not a good infatuation...
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 23, 2014, 12:49:28 am
At least ban millionsofdeadcats.  Usernames like that should be against the rules, and he keeps calling people names.

OMG, call your representative for Christ's sake!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 01:21:03 am
I'm starting to feel sad again.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 01:22:14 am
I'm starting to feel sad again.
You deserve it.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 23, 2014, 01:22:15 am
I'm starting to feel sad again.

eat more ice cream.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 23, 2014, 01:22:33 am
Great!  We'll have tons of fun.

Yes... Tons of fun. *hugs gently* I hope you feel better!

lol that risir guy is kinda crazy... hot and cold, like a frustrated stalker with a spiteful crush.  it's not a good infatuation...

Yes, he's completely crazy... He's so mean to you and he needs to grow up!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 23, 2014, 01:24:05 am
I'm starting to feel sad again.
You deserve it.

you deserve a baseball bat stuffed into your vagina
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 01:27:38 am
Great!  We'll have tons of fun.

Yes... Tons of fun. *hugs gently*

lol that risir guy is kinda crazy... hot and cold, like a frustrated stalker with a spiteful crush.  it's not a good infatuation...

Yes, he's completely crazy... He's so mean to you and he needs to grow up!
You.... I'm..... alright.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 01:27:57 am
Not sure what to do with myself now.  It's been fun talking to you guys, but my actual life kinda seems beyond repair.  Messed everything up again.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 23, 2014, 01:28:52 am
Not sure what to do with myself now.  It's been fun talking to you guys, but my actual life kinda seems beyond repair.  Messed everything up again.

youre certainly posting in the proper thread

you know what to do.  stop dilly dallying
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 01:30:32 am
What would risperidone overdose do to a person?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 23, 2014, 01:31:51 am
After all this, I'm trying to hear what the actual problem is, because up until this point, its just been a bunch of random BS ranging from ice cream eating, to cannibal cats, to Arnox flirting with a Tranny.  Like, I don't know what to believe anymore. I'm thinking of killing myself now.  You fucking people! Shame on you all!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 01:34:02 am
What would risperidone overdose do to a person?
Try it you fucking pussy.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 02:10:30 am
What would risperidone overdose do to a person?
Try it you fucking pussy.

Is this really the sort of person you want to be?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 23, 2014, 02:33:55 am
Ich mag schwanz in meinen arsch

most definitely
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 02:52:03 am
What would risperidone overdose do to a person?
Try it you fucking pussy.

Is this really the sort of person you want to be?
No but you force me too. I tried to be nice but than you acted all superior, which you're not so I had to shut you down and FUCK...

Do you want to be the person who contantly cries about suicide but is a huge bitch to the people who try to help her?

I told you not to kill yourself and that I'd miss you and you act like I'm some kind of horrible person.

You get what you ask for and now please shut the fuck up or get the job done.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 23, 2014, 02:54:08 am
Ich verlor meine Jungfräulichkeit anal zu einer Bande von schwarzen Biker , während in der Grundschule

you should write a book. 
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 02:57:00 am
What would risperidone overdose do to a person?
Try it you fucking pussy.

Is this really the sort of person you want to be?
No but you force me too. I tried to be nice but than you acted all superior, which you're not so I had to shut you down and FUCK...

Do you want to be the person who contantly cries about suicide but is a huge bitch to the people who try to help her?

I told you not to kill yourself and that I'd miss you and you act like I'm some kind of horrible person.

You get what you ask for and now please shut the fuck up or get the job done.

What was I doing to "act superior"?  And what did i do to make you out to be a horrible person?  There's a fount of goodness in every person, and of course that includes you.  I thought we were having some fun and then you got kind of serious.  Sorry if I hurt your feelings.  I started some medications recently and am a little emotional and... stuff.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 02:59:52 am
I sincerely hope that equimanity is dead by the next time I log in.

Finny, you'll get banned soon which is basically like being dead to you.


So long. Fuck y'all.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 23, 2014, 03:00:23 am
What would risperidone overdose do to a person?
Try it you fucking pussy.

Is this really the sort of person you want to be?
No but you force me too. I tried to be nice but than you acted all superior, which you're not so I had to shut you down and FUCK...

Do you want to be the person who contantly cries about suicide but is a huge bitch to the people who try to help her?

I told you not to kill yourself and that I'd miss you and you act like I'm some kind of horrible person.

You get what you ask for and now please shut the fuck up or get the job done.

What was I doing to "act superior"?  And what did i do to make you out to be a horrible person?  There's a fount of goodness in every person, and of course that includes you.  I thought we were having some fun and then you got kind of serious.  Sorry if I hurt your feelings.  I started some medications recently and am a little emotional and... stuff.

dont humor that gibbering faggot.  his shitposting doesnt deserve any reply other than derogatory remarks on his long list of ineptitudes and shortcomings
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 03:02:38 am
Fuck your excuses you dumb bitch.

Is there a chance that this new medication are hormones you lying tranny?

I fucking knew it.....
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 03:04:01 am
Oh please make a thread about this "long list of ineptitudes and shortcomings". I'd love to read it.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 03:04:51 am
Fuck your excuses you dumb bitch.

Is there a chance that this new medication are hormones you lying tranny?

I fucking knew it.....
Antipsychotic and mood stabilizer...
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 03:10:26 am
Why do you hate me so much? I tried to be nice from the get go.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 23, 2014, 03:12:44 am
Ich spiele mit Barbie-Puppen und verkleiden sich in der kleinen Mädchen kleidung

i believe it
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 23, 2014, 03:13:28 am
Why do you hate me so much?

you deserve nothing more
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 23, 2014, 03:14:20 am
Fuck your excuses you dumb bitch.

Is there a chance that this new medication are hormones you lying tranny?

I fucking knew it.....

you know all about medications and hormones for trannies

post-op bitch
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 03:15:53 am
Why do you hate me so much? I tried to be nice from the get go.

I don't hate you, or anyone.  Sometimes I can be a bitch but I'm never serious about it.  It's jokes, friend.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 03:16:42 am
Oh please make a thread about this "long list of ineptitudes and shortcomings". I'd love to read it.
Dodging faggot, make a thread.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Infinityshock on September 23, 2014, 03:18:23 am
Oh please make a thread about this "long list of ineptitudes and shortcomings". I'd love to read it.
Dodging faggot, make a thread.

you cant quote yourself you stupid trolling nigger
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 03:21:30 am
Of course I can you dodging scared little weak bitch fart.

Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 03:23:50 am
You claim there's a 'long list of ineptitudes and shortcomings' about me. Post it in a separate thread.

Deliver you nigger.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 23, 2014, 03:25:56 am

Deliver you nigger.

LOL. Since when does that happen?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 02:49:28 pm
So.

Today I'm really feeling awful.  Worse than yesterday.  The reality that I've missed so so many classes by being hospitalized, and then just staying home hating myself, is catching up with me.  My life has been interrupted so many in the past because of my insanity, but I thought things were really beginning to change and I was on my way toward completing school and starting an actual career.  Now that doesn't seem like a possibility anymore, and I'm going to live out my days working low wage jobs while being utterly alone.  A part of me is hoping that I'll hang myself and just get it over with, but that's probably not going to happen.  Not today, anyway.

Where to go from here, I wonder.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 03:28:27 pm
Where's RisiR?  He's supposed to talk me into suicide today.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 03:40:32 pm
I can't do that. I kinda lost my mind yesterday and said the worst things.

I'm truly sorry for that. It was just a bit of a mental breakdown and I pulled you down with it like a bitch. That wasn't cool and I'm sorry for hurting your feelings.

Ugh.... disgusting to feel like I feel right now.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 03:42:01 pm
No, it's okay.  Are you sure, though?  No one would blame you.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 03:45:00 pm
I can't do that. I kinda lost my mind yesterday and said the worst things.

I'm truly sorry for that. It was just a bit of a mental breakdown and I pulled you down with it like a bitch. That wasn't cool and I'm sorry for hurting your feelings.

Ugh.... disgusting to feel like I feel right now.

Your fingers typed it, you didn't say it.  Your hands are freaking the fuck ouuuut, man!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 03:46:56 pm
Will someone please help push me into suicide?  Cats?  You're mean; let's make this happen.  I've got a rope and everything.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 03:49:13 pm
Will someone please help push me into suicide?  Cats?  You're mean; let's make this happen.  I've got a rope and everything.

You expecting words on a screen to be the impetus to leave this mortal coil, is as strange and pathetic as the heaven's gate cult and their mass suicide because a comet was passing by the earth and they wanted their souls to fly to it because it was really a spaceship.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 03:54:45 pm
Will someone please help push me into suicide?  Cats?  You're mean; let's make this happen.  I've got a rope and everything.

You expecting words on a screen to be the impetus to leave this mortal coil, is as strange and pathetic as the heaven's gate cult and their mass suicide because a comet was passing by the earth and they wanted their souls to fly to it because it was really a spaceship.

People can say truly cruel things over the internet.  It would help me.  Has before.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 03:55:22 pm
Mike, you're a good person and I really like you.

Just wanted to point that out.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 03:58:10 pm
People can say truly cruel things over the internet.  It would help me.  Has before.

It is your eyes that move over the words, no one 'says' anything.  It is different in real life, you have no choice but to 'hear' if someone 'says' something.  But over the internet, it is your eyes, that you control, that 'choose' to move over the text.  So no one is 'saying' anything to you.  You are actively seeking to read this material, and therefore there is no 'people' involved.  The internet is like masturbating with your eyeballs.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 23, 2014, 04:01:00 pm

  The internet is like masturbating with your eyeballs.


This is true.  My monitor is covered in eye splooge.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 04:01:44 pm
People can say truly cruel things over the internet.  It would help me.  Has before.

It is your eyes that move over the words, no one 'says' anything.  It is different in real life, you have no choice but to 'hear' if someone 'says' something.  But over the internet, it is your eyes, that you control, that 'choose' to move over the text.  So no one is 'saying' anything to you.  You are actively seeking to read this material, and therefore there is no 'people' involved.  The internet is like masturbating with your eyeballs.

So?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:02:12 pm
Mike, you're a good person and I really like you.

Just wanted to point that out.

this is a first, like ever.  I usually get death threats and corny motherfuckers following me around with outdated insults.  Thanks!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 04:02:33 pm
I can't do that. I kinda lost my mind yesterday and said the worst things.

I'm truly sorry for that. It was just a bit of a mental breakdown and I pulled you down with it like a bitch. That wasn't cool and I'm sorry for hurting your feelings.

Ugh.... disgusting to feel like I feel right now.

Your fingers typed it, you didn't say it.  Your hands are freaking the fuck ouuuut, man!
Figuratively you semantic Jew.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:03:22 pm
So?

So?  You should be aghast with wonderment at my introducing you to such an epiphany.  You never thought about it before, admit it.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 04:04:41 pm
Mike, you're a good person and I really like you.

Just wanted to point that out.

this is a first, like ever.  I usually get death threats and corny motherfuckers following me around with outdated insults.  Thanks!
You see, I'm a new person and nobodies alt. Trust me, it's the truth.   :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:04:42 pm
Figuratively you semantic Jew.

Didn't you just like, break german law with that post or some shit?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 04:05:19 pm
So?

So?  You should be aghast with wonderment at my introducing you to such an epiphany.  You never thought about it before, admit it.

It's nothing novel, and the exact sort of thing I've spent a long time considering.

Guys, come on.  This thread is supposed to be about me and my problems.  I cut my legs up, remember?  What was that even for if no one cares.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:06:15 pm
You see, I'm a new person and nobodies alt. Trust me, it's the truth.   :)

(http://i61.tinypic.com/5o5lle.jpg)

Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 23, 2014, 04:07:16 pm
Figuratively you semantic Jew.

Didn't you just like, break german law with that post or some shit?

Yeah, those Germans are a bunch of Nazis even to this day, lol!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:07:49 pm
It's nothing novel, and the exact sort of thing I've spent a long time considering.

Guys, come on.  This thread is supposed to be about me and my problems.  I cut my legs up, remember?  What was that even for if no one cares.

Would you let us do what we do?  By the time you are done reading 250 shitposts you won't have the energy or mental capacity to kill yourself.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:09:24 pm
I have to go mow my motherfucking lawn.  If you kill yourself before I get back, don't forget about the hungry cats.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 04:09:49 pm
Everyone's ignoring me :(
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 04:11:31 pm
Figuratively you semantic Jew.

Didn't you just like, break german law with that post or some shit?
No, I'm just not allowed to deny the Holocaust, wear Swastikas and raise my right arm in public (Hitlergruß).

:laugh:
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:12:23 pm
Everyone's ignoring me :(

This is you:  'Don't type about that stuff, type about what I wanna read.'

*no one types anything

You:  'Everyone's ignoring me :('
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 04:13:31 pm
So?

So?  You should be aghast with wonderment at my introducing you to such an epiphany.  You never thought about it before, admit it.

It's nothing novel, and the exact sort of thing I've spent a long time considering.

Guys, come on.  This thread is supposed to be about me and my problems.  I cut my legs up, remember?  What was that even for if no one cares.
Exactly, it was pointless. Stop doing that shit.

You are beautiful.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 04:14:33 pm
So?

So?  You should be aghast with wonderment at my introducing you to such an epiphany.  You never thought about it before, admit it.

It's nothing novel, and the exact sort of thing I've spent a long time considering.

Guys, come on.  This thread is supposed to be about me and my problems.  I cut my legs up, remember?  What was that even for if no one cares.
Exactly, it was pointless. Stop doing that shit.

You are beautiful.

Fuck you; you're the beautiful one.  Jerk.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 04:16:09 pm
Well, that is true.  8)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Rowan on September 23, 2014, 04:19:08 pm

  The internet is like masturbating with your eyeballs.


This is true.  My monitor is covered in eye splooge.


You see, I'm a new person and nobodies alt. Trust me, it's the truth.   :)

(http://i61.tinypic.com/5o5lle.jpg)



It's nothing novel, and the exact sort of thing I've spent a long time considering.

Guys, come on.  This thread is supposed to be about me and my problems.  I cut my legs up, remember?  What was that even for if no one cares.

Would you let us do what we do?  By the time you are done reading 250 shitposts you won't have the energy or mental capacity to kill yourself.

(http://i.kinja-img.com/gawker-media/image/upload/s--j8fVLBXn--/nmyyvs1pb3mjuyoneai7.jpg)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 04:24:11 pm
I'm not Snoopy, goddammit.

It's an honor, though. He was a true legend.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:26:36 pm
My motherfucking lawnmower won't start, and I don't even combustion engines.  Fuck it.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:28:18 pm
I'm not Snoopy, goddammit.

See, I start to kind of believe you, and then:

It's an honor, though. He was a true legend.

Snoopy detected.



Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 23, 2014, 04:32:02 pm
  I cut my legs up, remember?  What was that even for if no one cares.

You should take up knitting as a therapeutic hobby instead of cutting up your legs.  You have a lot of passion, you just need to use it for something besides self-mutilation. 
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 04:35:02 pm
  I cut my legs up, remember?  What was that even for if no one cares.

You should take up knitting as a therapeutic hobby instead of cutting up your legs.  You have a lot of passion, you just need to use it for something besides self-mutilation.

I want other people to cut me up instead.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 04:41:30 pm
I'm not Snoopy, goddammit.

See, I start to kind of believe you, and then:

It's an honor, though. He was a true legend.

Snoopy detected.
:laugh:

You'll never figure me out, nigger.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 04:43:11 pm
  I cut my legs up, remember?  What was that even for if no one cares.

You should take up knitting as a therapeutic hobby instead of cutting up your legs.  You have a lot of passion, you just need to use it for something besides self-mutilation.

I want other people to cut me up instead.
Just shut up about it and we will figure it out. Ok?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 04:47:47 pm
I dunno...
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Rowan on September 23, 2014, 04:48:34 pm
I'm not Snoopy, goddammit.

See, I start to kind of believe you, and then:

It's an honor, though. He was a true legend.

Snoopy detected.

If you are not Snoopy then confess who you are....you are very clearly a user that is very familiar with the people in this community and has been a part of it for quite sometime. So....come out of the closet already!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 23, 2014, 04:50:38 pm
If you are not Snoopy then confess who you are....you are very clearly a user that is very familiar with the people in this community and has been a part of it for quite sometime. So....come out of the closet already!

I'm just fucking with him, I know it is not snoopy.  The real snoopy would rather be slowly tortured to death than ever post that I am a 'nice guy'.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 23, 2014, 04:55:34 pm
I'm not Snoopy, goddammit.

See, I start to kind of believe you, and then:

It's an honor, though. He was a true legend.

Snoopy detected.

If you are not Snoopy then confess who you are....you are very clearly a user that is very familiar with the people in this community and has been a part of it for quite sometime. So....come out of the closet already!

That is one possibility.  I'm leading more towards the idea that he has a DB file on every single one of us.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 04:56:52 pm
I'm just a lurker with a good memory. That's it.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 23, 2014, 04:59:48 pm
I'm just a lurker with a good memory. That's it.

Well, then sir, might I congratulate you on your impressive recall abilities!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Arnox on September 23, 2014, 05:00:05 pm
What was that even for if no one cares.

Awwww... I care. *hugs again softly*
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 05:19:07 pm
I'm just a lurker with a good memory. That's it.

Well, then sir, might I congratulate you on your impressive recall abilities!
Thank you.  :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 06:54:48 pm
What was that even for if no one cares.

Awwww... I care. *hugs again softly*

Thanks, Arnox.

Really getting sad again.  It comes in like waves.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 23, 2014, 07:45:05 pm
Just ate a giant bowl of popcorn, complete with all the salt and that disgusting "butter oil" stuff.  If I don't die soon I really am gonna be fat haha.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 23, 2014, 08:02:31 pm
Just ate a giant bowl of popcorn, complete with all the salt and that disgusting "butter oil" stuff.  If I don't die soon I really am gonna be fat haha.
Nah, you'll be fine, beauty.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 24, 2014, 01:01:23 am
As an experiment, I'm gonna try suicide by dehydration.  Starting now.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 24, 2014, 01:12:43 am
As an experiment, I'm gonna try suicide by dehydration.  Starting now.
You won't make for longer than an hour you salty bitch.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 24, 2014, 01:14:13 am
As an experiment, I'm gonna try suicide by dehydration.  Starting now.
You won't make for longer than an hour you salty bitch.

What does salty mean in this context?

Also: I'm more stubborn than you know.  Watch me dehydrate myself to death.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 24, 2014, 01:18:30 am
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: bling bling on September 24, 2014, 01:20:05 am
fucking attention whore thread
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: bling bling on September 24, 2014, 01:20:29 am
attention whore gtfo
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 24, 2014, 01:24:51 am
I'll watch every second of it.

(http://www.reactiongifs.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/02/lol_pepsi.gif)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 24, 2014, 01:26:20 am
Gross soda.  I have highly refined tastes and you won't be tempting me with syrup water.  Post some Evian gifs or GTFO.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 24, 2014, 02:03:36 am
http://www.tc.umn.edu/~parkx032/CY-VD-H2.html

Pretty interesting.  2 weeks to die?  How did I not know this, working in the medical field.  They always taught us that the minimum a person needs to survive is 1500ml water per day, but I guess that's to maintain optimal function.  I was thinking maybe 4-5 days but yeah there's no way I have the willpower to go 2 weeks!

*sigh*
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: bling bling on September 24, 2014, 03:27:19 am
(http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/51JpbNMTgRL._SL500_AA280_.jpg)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 24, 2014, 03:34:28 am
I'll watch every second of it.

(http://www.reactiongifs.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/02/lol_pepsi.gif)

I watched it over and over again.  I was trying to figure out if this was an example of a real man or a homosexual.  I still have no clue.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Ninja on September 24, 2014, 03:39:29 am
http://www.tc.umn.edu/~parkx032/CY-VD-H2.html

Pretty interesting.  2 weeks to die?  How did I not know this, working in the medical field.  They always taught us that the minimum a person needs to survive is 1500ml water per day, but I guess that's to maintain optimal function.  I was thinking maybe 4-5 days but yeah there's no way I have the willpower to go 2 weeks!

*sigh*

Instead of trying to go without water, try to go with only water. 
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 24, 2014, 11:31:40 am
Sent my three closest friends like pseudo suicide notes, detailing exactly what's wrong and expressing this feeling of hopelessness.  Probably selfish of me.  Maybe they'll have the magic words that make everything better.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: mojo4567 on September 24, 2014, 11:35:25 am
Sent my three closest friends like pseudo suicide notes, detailing exactly what's wrong and expressing this feeling of hopelessness.  Probably selfish of me.  Maybe they'll have the magic words that make everything better.
Get a therapist or something. While friends are helpful they shouldnt be your main support
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 24, 2014, 10:40:24 pm
They're not my main support. I'll be a lantern unto myself, if I stop this incessant whining.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Jedi Moped on September 25, 2014, 01:08:51 am

Snoopy detected.

(http://www.thomasathomas.com/images/improve3e.gif)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 25, 2014, 01:11:33 am

Snoopy detected.

(http://www.thomasathomas.com/images/improve3e.gif)

Hah RisiR's wife is bald
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Peace Of Mind on September 25, 2014, 01:11:51 am
Been going in circles lately.  Before this I was doing amazingly well, kicking ass and being lovely.  But some shit went down.  I'm not gonna get into what the shit was because I'm honestly not that much of an attention whore.  Fell to pieces, though.  Was no good.  And now this suicidal ideation is kind of ruling my life.  My life fell apart once more, as it tends to.  I've been spending my days on like mental health themed forums trying to convince other depressed and possibly suicidal people that they've got a lot to live for.  People like that really seem to appreciate my empty words but they're obviously starved for affection.  Don't think much help can even come from people via this medium.

I don't want to say I'm suicidal because yeah.  Running circles around myself.  But there are those moments, where you're so lost in your head it crushes your lungs and you can't breathe.  Right?  We've all been there.

But it's fucking exhausting.

I've never been there but it always gets better dude. Don't do anything stupid.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: mojo4567 on September 25, 2014, 01:13:56 am
Cause when I die fuck it I wanna go to hell cause im a piece of shit it aint fucking hard to tell
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: millionsofdeadcats on September 25, 2014, 01:18:11 am
http://youtu.be/4_nWRVCNwg4
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 25, 2014, 02:27:11 am
Sent my three closest friends like pseudo suicide notes, detailing exactly what's wrong and expressing this feeling of hopelessness.  Probably selfish of me.  Maybe they'll have the magic words that make everything better.

None of them ever wrote back lol.  Think they're tired of me?  Guess I can't blame them :(
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 25, 2014, 02:30:07 am
Been going in circles lately.  Before this I was doing amazingly well, kicking ass and being lovely.  But some shit went down.  I'm not gonna get into what the shit was because I'm honestly not that much of an attention whore.  Fell to pieces, though.  Was no good.  And now this suicidal ideation is kind of ruling my life.  My life fell apart once more, as it tends to.  I've been spending my days on like mental health themed forums trying to convince other depressed and possibly suicidal people that they've got a lot to live for.  People like that really seem to appreciate my empty words but they're obviously starved for affection.  Don't think much help can even come from people via this medium.

I don't want to say I'm suicidal because yeah.  Running circles around myself.  But there are those moments, where you're so lost in your head it crushes your lungs and you can't breathe.  Right?  We've all been there.

But it's fucking exhausting.

I've never been there but it always gets better dude. Don't do anything stupid.

Starting to be better maybe.  Really hope I get to class tomorrow, but I'm so fucking far behind after missing an entire week.  Stressed the fuck out.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 25, 2014, 11:21:00 am
I missed a week in school because I did MXE every morning. Don't get me wrong, I was there, I just wasn't there.

Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 26, 2014, 02:12:15 am
Oh yeah.  I'm not feeling suicidal anymore, even without the lithium.  Still very very depressed, and I haven't done a lick of actual work today.  Made it to class (and yoga!) though.

yay.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Sirfearoth on September 26, 2014, 02:23:29 am
That's good to know, I will sleep easier at night now
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 26, 2014, 02:27:07 am
Yeah, I bet you will.  Pervert  :suspect:
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Peace Of Mind on September 26, 2014, 02:31:51 am
Oh yeah.  I'm not feeling suicidal anymore, even without the lithium.  Still very very depressed, and I haven't done a lick of actual work today.  Made it to class (and yoga!) though.

yay.

I'm glad to hear you're feeling a little better
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 26, 2014, 02:35:30 am
Oh yeah.  I'm not feeling suicidal anymore, even without the lithium.  Still very very depressed, and I haven't done a lick of actual work today.  Made it to class (and yoga!) though.

yay.

I'm glad to hear you're feeling a little better

Thanks!  I really hope it continues haha.  Pretty easy to get discouraged by something small at this point.  Could be back to tying practice nooses in no time :(
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 26, 2014, 12:32:34 pm
Good luck with your crazy life. The PM convos I had with you were some of the weirdest I've ever it.

Keep it up and don't forget to breathe. ;)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on September 26, 2014, 03:02:43 pm
Good luck with your crazy life. The PM convos I had with you were some of the weirdest I've ever it.

I was just joking that entire time, so don't go thinking it was too weird hah.

Keep it up and don't forget to breathe. ;)

Don't forget to breathe.  I think that might be the best advice anyone's ever given me, and that's no joke.  Thanks, friend :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on September 26, 2014, 11:42:34 pm
You're welcome. :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 02, 2014, 05:37:00 am
One of my friends just got back to me today. Of course it took him a while, he's busy working at his fancy university.

I feel so guilty for bothering him with my insanity :(

At least things are continuing to improve.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on October 06, 2014, 09:10:57 pm
Bump for ensuing hilarity.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Obbe on October 18, 2014, 06:28:57 pm
For the past few days I've felt sick to my stomach off and on. Like the sadness and worry have to be physical experiences for my mind to even try comprehending them.

Your weakness is kind of disgusting.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 07:07:48 pm
Your weakness is kind of disgusting.

Guess I've probably been sharing too much of my personal life. But we've all had similar experiences, right?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 07:09:20 pm
Guess I've probably been sharing too much of my personal life. But we've all had similar experiences, right?

no.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 08:44:01 pm
Stop lying so much cats :suspect:
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 08:53:35 pm
Stop lying so much cats :suspect:

Ok, situations where I would consider killing myself:

terminal cancer where I see that my flesh is rotting, and I smell like that smell...anyone who has been around someone with terminal cancer knows what I am typing about

impending brutal torture

.......

thats about it
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 08:59:48 pm
Not suicide.  Sadness.  Normal human emotions!
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:05:48 pm
Not suicide.  Sadness.  Normal human emotions!


Ah, I see.  I thought you were referring to the thread topic when you typed 'we've all had similar experiences'.

I cried when jimmy t died
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:08:16 pm
Ah, I see.  I thought you were referring to the thread topic when you typed 'we've all had similar experiences'.

I cried when jimmy t died

Meant that post Obbe quoted before I managed to edit it out.  Jimmy T?  Some kinda rapper?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:10:27 pm
Meant that post Obbe quoted before I managed to edit it out.  Jimmy T?  Some kinda rapper?

Jimmy t....

right over
<<<<<<<<<<<<<
here.


'some kinda rapper'.....jesus
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:11:08 pm
I tried googling and this is what I got:
http://www.mariowiki.com/Jimmy_T.

wtf
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:13:13 pm
http://www.vindy.com/news/2014/sep/28/jim-traficant-remembered-political-skill-and-heart/
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Proots on October 18, 2014, 09:15:05 pm
There's a reason you're suicidal. Just look at yourself. Seriously, look at yourself and the choices you've made concerning yourself, your life and your loved ones. It would be enough to drive anyone to frequent thoughts of offing themselves. What you can do is take small, little steps in a more positive direction. No big leaps, just little things, day by day. Eventually, you will improve the way that not only others see you - but more importantly - you see yourself.

Or, you can kill yourself. That'd be good, too.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:17:09 pm
http://www.vindy.com/news/2014/sep/28/jim-traficant-remembered-political-skill-and-heart/

Ah.  It's sad when anyone dies.  But you cried when he died?  He was a crooked politician :/

There's a reason you're suicidal. Just look at yourself. Seriously, look at yourself and the choices you've made concerning yourself, your life and your loved ones. It would be enough to drive anyone to frequent thoughts of offing themselves. What you can do is take small, little steps in a more positive direction. No big leaps, just little things, day by day. Eventually, you will improve the way that not only others see you - but more importantly - you see yourself.

We're making progress.  Thanks so much, Proots.  Those small, little steps are how I hope to move forward :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:21:13 pm
Ah.  It's sad when anyone dies.  But you cried when he died?  He was a crooked politician :/

I didn't really cry.  But that guy was pretty cool.  The only democrat politician that was ever worth a damn.  When I was a kid I would see him in my neighborhood all the time and he always, always waved at me.  When I was older my mom worked for him briefly as a secretary.  He was a good man. 
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:22:34 pm
Ah.  It's sad when anyone dies.  But you cried when he died?  He was a crooked politician :/

I didn't really cry.  But that guy was pretty cool.  The only democrat politician that was ever worth a damn.  When I was a kid I would see him in my neighborhood all the time and he always, always waved at me.  When I was older my mom worked for him briefly as a secretary.  He was a good man. 

:(

At least he lived a long and (presumably) full life.  Relatively short prison term.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:26:44 pm
At least he lived a long and (presumably) full life.  Relatively short prison term.

The consensus in my hometown is that he was railroaded because he stood up for john demjanjuk.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:28:05 pm
railroaded

What?

ohn demjanjuk.

Who??
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:33:43 pm
Who??

http://www.vindy.com/news/2009/mar/12/demjanjuk-charged-with-29000-counts-in-germany/

http://www.vindy.com/news/2014/oct/04/traficant-was-my-friend/
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:36:46 pm
That's mildly interesting.  Thanks :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:39:25 pm
That's mildly interesting.  Thanks :)

the second article is better
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:42:08 pm
First article was an error message.  Second I skimmed.  Read like old white guys enjoying a nice circlejerk :P
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:46:27 pm
First article was an error message.  Second I skimmed.  Read like old white guys enjoying a nice circlejerk :P

ytown vindicators website is messed up atm or something
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:47:22 pm
When was the last time you were depressed, cats?  Let's talk about our feelings imo.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:48:24 pm
fucking wikipedia

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Demjanjuk
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:50:31 pm
Wow okay that actually is interesting :)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:50:56 pm
an excerpt from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ivan_the_Terrible_(Treblinka_guard) :

Ivan the Terrible (born c. 1911) is the nickname given to a notorious guard Ivan Marchenko, at the Treblinka extermination camp during the Holocaust.[1] The moniker alluded to Ivan IV, also known as Ivan the Terrible, the infamous Tsar of Russia. "Ivan the Terrible" gained international recognition from the 1986 John Demjanjuk case; however very little is known about Ivan Marchenko, and he is not mentioned in any early authoritative Holocaust literature. John Demjanjuk was accused first of being Ivan the Terrible at the Treblinka concentration camp, but in 2011 he was accused of war crimes as a different guard named Ivan Demjanjuk who served at the Sobibor extermination camp.

---------------------------------------------

Ivan's true identity has not been conclusively discovered, however, throughout the 1970s and eighties John Demjanjuk, a retired suburban Cleveland autoworker of Ukrainian descent, was accused of being Ivan.[1] He was tried in Israel in 1986 and sentenced to death, but the conviction was overturned due to lack of evidence.[14][15]

One remarkable event, during the Israel trial, involved a star witness for the prosecution, Eliyahu Rosenberg. Asked by the prosecution if he recognized Demjanjuk, Rosenberg asked Demjanjuk to remove his glasses "so I can see his eyes." Rosenberg approached and peered closely at Demjanjuk's face. When Demjanjuk smiled and offered his hand, Rosenberg recoiled and shouted "Grozny!" meaning "Terrible" in Polish and Russian. "Ivan," Rosenberg said. "I say it unhesitatingly, without the slightest shadow of a doubt. It is Ivan from Treblinka, from the gas chambers, the man I am looking at now." "I saw his eyes, I saw those murderous eyes," Rosenberg told the court, glaring at Demjanjuk. Rosenberg then exclaimed directly to Demjanjuk: "How dare you put out your hand, murderer that you are!"[16] It was later revealed with great embarrassment for the prosecution, that Eliyahu Rosenberg had previously testified in a 1947 deposition that “Ivan the Terrible” had been killed during a prisoner uprising.[17]

Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:53:37 pm
When was the last time you were depressed, cats?  Let's talk about our feelings imo.

when my ex left me and I quit opiates all in the same week, and while taking neurontin to help ease the withdrawal, I got horribly addicted to that, and went through withdrawal worse than opiates when I ran out, and at the same time I also ran out of syncans and went through withdrawal from that too.....that was the last time I was depressed
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 09:55:22 pm
Oh wow :(

When was that?  Sounds like the worst week ever.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 09:59:06 pm
Oh wow :(

When was that?  Sounds like the worst week ever.

7 months ago or so

I don't really get depressed often, I tend to get bored instead....terminally bored
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 10:00:20 pm
Way more recent than I would have thought.  Kinda curious... do you think you might someday get back together with your wife?  You write a lot about doing stuff with her, and all.  Don't have to answer if you don't want.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: mashleshmash on October 18, 2014, 10:03:18 pm
23 fucking pages are you kidding me?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: RisiR on October 18, 2014, 10:04:44 pm
23 fucking pages are you kidding me?
Yea fucking kick me in the balls, mash. Holy dumb fuckng shit.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 10:06:28 pm
Way more recent than I would have thought.  Kinda curious... do you think you might someday get back together with your wife?  You write a lot about doing stuff with her, and all.  Don't have to answer if you don't want.

Nope... now that I got over her leaving, I sort of opened my eyes and now I see that I don't want to be with her anyway.  I will just fuck bar whores or whatever.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 10:31:35 pm
Way more recent than I would have thought.  Kinda curious... do you think you might someday get back together with your wife?  You write a lot about doing stuff with her, and all.  Don't have to answer if you don't want.

Nope... now that I got over her leaving, I sort of opened my eyes and now I see that I don't want to be with her anyway.  I will just fuck bar whores or whatever.

lol.

Will you ever remarry?  I'm not sure how old you are.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 10:36:30 pm
lol.

Will you ever remarry?  I'm not sure how old you are.

no
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 10:40:54 pm
Wow, so sure.  Why not?  Was she your one and only soulmate? :P
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 10:44:17 pm
Wow, so sure.  Why not?  Was she your one and only soulmate? :P

no, I have not been single for like almost 20 years.  I am done with relationships, I am just fine being by myself.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 10:55:46 pm
Guess whatever works.  20 years of being with someone probably would get sort of old :/
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 10:58:30 pm
Guess whatever works.  20 years of being with someone probably would get sort of old :/

Nah, I mean, I was in relationships for 20 years.  My kids have different mothers.  Seemed like every time I would break up with a chick, another one was right around the corner.  I think the longest time I spent single during that time was two weeks.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 10:59:31 pm
Well that must have been nice.  Never being alone...  How many women?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 11:01:59 pm
Well that must have been nice.  Never being alone...  How many women?

what, in my whole life,?  7....yeah 7.  Thats it.  But I was with three of them for multiple years
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 11:15:08 pm
Somehow I'm sad again.  What makes you want to stay with a woman for years?  Or made.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: starvingniglet on October 18, 2014, 11:22:11 pm
Somehow I'm sad again.  What makes you want to stay with a woman for years?  Or made.

waiting for life insurance to mature....nah just kidding. 

well, obviously if we get along and are both on the same page, it helps...time goes by fast and one day you look up and 10 years have gone by....look up again and the kids are grown and the oldest is going to college...next time I stop and take notice they will both have families of their own and me and my dogs will be old together, and they will curl up on my back deck in the mornings while I drink coffee outside....
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 18, 2014, 11:23:03 pm
:)
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: Tokolosh on October 22, 2014, 06:13:54 pm
:/

I don't think I was helping anyone at all, except maybe to masturbate.  I'm cynically depressed.

lol

.... :(

What did you mean by this exactly?
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: equanimity on October 26, 2014, 01:21:34 am
What did you mean by this exactly?

Depressed people on the internet love attention.
Title: Re: Suicidal thoughts
Post by: mizled on October 26, 2014, 02:07:05 am

I'm cynically depressed.

lol


I appreciate your humidity.