Suicidal thoughts

[millionsofdeadcats]

That sounds awful.  A slave to your own anger.

Have you ever been suicidal?

No.  I direct my particular brand of inner blackness outwards onto others rather than myself.  I am surprised I am not sitting in prison for aggravated assault.  It sort of takes a lot to get me mad but when I do lose it I totally flip the fuck out.

[Antidote]

I think about suicide on a weekly basis.

Internet forums will only further your depression.

Currently, I'm trying to push myself over the edge.

Earth is about to be refurbished, your only chance to survive is to COME WITH ME.

[RisiR]

Please don't kill yourself. You grew on me and now I quite like you.

I'd miss you, if you were gone. 

You're wasting you life spamming this place with nonsense.  Why?

That was a honest post and you portray me as a monster.

Thank you very much.

Don't just ignore me. 

[equanimity]

Please don't kill yourself. You grew on me and now I quite like you.

I'd miss you, if you were gone. 

You're wasting you life spamming this place with nonsense.  Why?

That was a honest post and you portray me as a monster.

Thank you very much.

You're not a monster, but you seem so lost.  Don't you have things to do?  People to hang out with, a job to attend?

That sounds awful.  A slave to your own anger.

Have you ever been suicidal?

No.  I direct my particular brand of inner blackness outwards onto others rather than myself.  I am surprised I am not sitting in prison for aggravated assault.  It sort of takes a lot to get me mad but when I do lose it I totally flip the fuck out.

That's awful.  Guess we each have our own cross to bear.  I'd much rather be suicidal than someone mean and spiteful.

I think about suicide on a weekly basis.

Internet forums will only further your depression.

Currently, I'm trying to push myself over the edge.

Earth is about to be refurbished, your only chance to survive is to COME WITH ME.

what.

[millionsofdeadcats]

Don't just ignore me. 

Your avatar looks like he is reaching down to touch himself.

[millionsofdeadcats]

That's awful.  Guess we each have our own cross to bear.  I'd much rather be suicidal than someone mean and spiteful.

I am not mean and spiteful, just volatile.  And I would much much rather be volatile than suicidal.  Cannot imagine that sort of mindset.  Sounds like hell on earth, and it is also morally wrong, because life is actually a divine miracle rather than some sort of cursed meatworld like some of you seem to dwell in.  When you kill yourself, you kill one of gods creations, and that is pretty much an evil act.

[RisiR]

I have abandoned society and live of my indescribably huge wealth which I have attained through.... things.

I've volunteered in a hospital to make up for my former lifestyle but that made me hate humanity so nowadays, as a broken man, I just hang out online, do drugs sometimes and workout a lot.

I'll maybe get a job as horticulturist, soon. Work with plants is relaxing.

Thank you for asking.

[equanimity]

That's awful.  Guess we each have our own cross to bear.  I'd much rather be suicidal than someone mean and spiteful.

I am not mean and spiteful, just volatile.  And I would much much rather be volatile than suicidal.  Cannot imagine that sort of mindset.  Sounds like hell on earth, and it is also morally wrong, because life is actually a divine miracle rather than some sort of cursed meatworld like some of you seem to dwell in.  When you kill yourself, you kill one of gods creations, and that is pretty much an evil act.

hmm.  dunno what more to say about the mean thing.  hopefully you're never truly spiteful; i've known some ugly people in my life.

You're so right about suicide being morally wrong.  It's sort of like you're torn between your own desire to end your pain and that natural survival instinct... with all this other shit thrown in all over the place.  Delusional insanity, the knowledge of what it feels like when someone close to you commits suicide, legal stuff, your life falling apart around you.  I dunno.  It's... no good.

And yeah, it is totally evil.  My life is a blessing and I try to remember that.  But here I am...

[equanimity]

I have abandoned society and live of my indescribably huge wealth which I have attained through.... things.

I've volunteered in a hospital to make up for my former lifestyle but that made me hate humanity so nowadays, as a broken man, I just hang out online, do drugs sometimes and workout a lot.

I'll maybe get a job as horticulturist, soon. Work with plants is relaxing.

Thank you for asking.

I hope that all goes well for you.  Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to become like a live-in sex slave to some depraved rich guy.

[Infinityshock]

Your entire fictitious post is ridiculous and no one that isnt cracked-out believes it. If you had abandoned society you wouldn't be shitspamposting all the fuck over the place for one thing

[RisiR]

I have abandoned society and live of my indescribably huge wealth which I have attained through.... things.

I've volunteered in a hospital to make up for my former lifestyle but that made me hate humanity so nowadays, as a broken man, I just hang out online, do drugs sometimes and workout a lot.

I'll maybe get a job as horticulturist, soon. Work with plants is relaxing.

Thank you for asking.

I hope that all goes well for you.  Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to become like a live-in sex slave to some depraved rich guy.

Thanks for the offer but I'm fine. 

[RisiR]

Your entire fictitious post is ridiculous and no one that isnt cracked-out believes it. If you had abandoned society you wouldn't be shitspamposting all the fuck over the place for one thing

It's the truth and nothing but the truth.

"indescribably huge" was an exaggaration, though.

[equanimity]

I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.

[RisiR]

I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.

I think you just need some love.

[millionsofdeadcats]

I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.

You know, lithium occurs naturally in the environment, and in groundwater.  Maybe you can find a natural source of lithium that would help ease your symptoms yet still doesn't dehumanize you.  Or whatever.  Fucking hippies.