Suicidal thoughts

[equanimity]

I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.

I think you just need some love.

You know I don't understand love.

I'm trying to get back on lithium.  It stripped me of my humanity but really did stop me from having suicidal thoughts before.

This lame psychiatrist I've never seen before though was pushing risperidone and some other stuff.

You know, lithium occurs naturally in the environment, and in groundwater.  Maybe you can find a natural source of lithium that would help ease your symptoms yet still doesn't dehumanize you.  Or whatever.  Fucking hippies.

It takes massive doses to kill those thoughts.  Like nearly 2000mg each day.  With lithium they require regular blood work because therapeutic doses can be very very dangerous.

[millionsofdeadcats]

2000mg

Two. Fucking.  Grams.  Of lithium.  A day.  Your brain really is broken or something?

[RisiR]

Get some Phenibut from Amazon but be super careful. It's addictive as fuck. Helped me a lot with social anxiety and depression, though.

[Tokolosh]

I've been spending my days on like mental health themed forums trying to convince other depressed and possibly suicidal people that they've got a lot to live for.

These words of support you're supplying to other people, do you not believe you can apply the same advice to yourself?

I bet you're setting this groundwork for other people but not making your own foundation from it. It makes you feel good helping other people, and whilst that's swell and shit, a more fulfilling venture would be sitting yourself down and conforming to your own guidance.

[equanimity]

2000mg

Two. Fucking.  Grams.  Of lithium.  A day.  Your brain really is broken or something?

Actually just 1.8g a day, but yeah.  If you want to end serious thoughts of suicide this totally worked for me in the past.

Get some Phenibut from Amazon but be super careful. It's addictive as fuck. Helped me a lot with social anxiety and depression, though.

I really want to believe in that shit.  Supplement with all kinda of stuff, or did before all of this happened.

now idk.  i just want to cry in bed and hate myself.

[RisiR]

I've been spending my days on like mental health themed forums trying to convince other depressed and possibly suicidal people that they've got a lot to live for.

These words of support you're supplying to other people, do you not believe you can apply the same advice to yourself?

I bet you're setting this groundwork for other people but not making your own foundation from it. It makes you feel good helping other people, and whilst that's swell and shit, a more fulfilling venture would be sitting yourself down and conforming to your own guidance.

+1

Good advice.

[equanimity]

I've been spending my days on like mental health themed forums trying to convince other depressed and possibly suicidal people that they've got a lot to live for.

These words of support you're supplying to other people, do you not believe you can apply the same advice to yourself?

I bet you're setting this groundwork for other people but not making your own foundation from it. It makes you feel good helping other people, and whilst that's swell and shit, a more fulfilling venture would be sitting yourself down and conforming to your own guidance.

:/

I don't think I was helping anyone at all, except maybe to masturbate.  I'm cynically depressed.

lol

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[RisiR]

just want to cry in bed and hate myself

Then do that for a while and when you feel a little better take some goddamn drugs.

[RisiR]

Another good advice: Stop that victim shit ASAP. Let a God dance within you.

[Soso0]

I can't go a day without having suicidal thoughts... I guess the only way to deal with it is to keep your mind occupied. I guess whats mainly kept me from just killing myself is that I am already on this earth so I might as well stay here since I might not get another chance.

[millionsofdeadcats]

Let a God dance within you

Your sig line indicates that you let a gay dance within you.

[equanimity]

yeah.  i guess.

im going back to bed.

[RisiR]

Let a God dance within you

Your sig line indicates that you let a gay dance within you.

You sig is a Tacho quote......

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[RisiR]

yeah.  i guess.

im going back to bed.

Sweet dreams, babe. 

[millionsofdeadcats]

You sig is a Tacho quote..........

Yeah I harassed the fuck out of that nigger, and caught him plagiarizing and other underhanded shit.  The quote is directed to me, after he was irritated that I made him look like the jabbering monkey he is in front of the whole zoklet clique.