Its part of the reason gollum is.so fat in the first place.
I feed off energy. Before zoklet I was weak and scrawny. Now I am big and fat and can lift horses. I helped hydro move her entire herd down to their other farm carrying one horse in each arm just in complete happiness due to how far I've come. I thrive off your energies. Each time you say my name, I get just a little bit fatter.
Well apparently all the blood in your body gets sent to either your stomach or your dick, because you're a fucking moron. At least you can't ban me from tinychat anymore.
Speaking of sex and bad decisions, I could use some advice guise. Let's see if I can get the salient points without rambling on about my life and shit you don't care about...
So yesterday I was having a pretty shitty day due to my parents having another one of their usual shitfests (this one instigated because my sister is coming down to visit and hopefully take me back up with her -that might happen later but I'd rather do it asap) while I was trying to skype with my ex and talk about what happened at the party. Almost got into a fist fight with my parents, but ended up taking the advice of those more level headed than me and went for a walk instead, called my ex out and tried to ruin our relationship forever (I'm in "burning-them-bridges" mode), and went to go get a bottle of wine and get drunk in the park with some money my sister sent me.
I still had $15 after the wine and wanted to get really fucked up so I hit up a buddy for some dope, which he was already on a mission to get. Unfortunately they were walking half-way across town to get it and it was like 90 fucking degrees so I decided to hit up this cute little punker chick to see if she wanted to throw in (and drive us to get it). Now, I've known this girl for about ten years, we kinda dated in freshman year but I was an awkward nerd that was scared of girls so nothing really came of it but we both had a lot of fun and we've always kinda still been crushin' on each other. Fast forward a bit to make this story shorter and we're both in a public bathroom stall, I'm shotgunning hits of heroin to her and it turns into a pretty heavy make out session. She tells me she wants to fuck my brains out but neither of us had a condom (no way I'd touch it without one, she's been around, she uses needles, and she's dabbled in prostitution - like it seems every other girl that likes me does) so she gives me a rain check for tomorrow and says she's going to buy a fat sack for us to split and we'll fuck like rabbits.
Sounds great, right? Well then why isn't my heart in it at all? This is like a dream come true for me, she's so fucking bangin' (she's petite, purple hair, nice bubble butt, perky tits) and I thought I'd never get a chance to fuck her since she always is with some new jealous ass boyfriend. So why does the thought not make me the slightest bit hard, nor did our make out & grope session? I'm starting to think maybe I shouldn't even bother, especially since I really don't think I want to do more heroin. I smoked all of maybe .1 yesterday and I was puking ALL fucking night. I'm still fucking nauseous actually, I can't even eat.
On one hand my thoughts are that I shouldn't pass this opportunity up, I never just have casual sex. On the other hand, who the fuck cares? I'm no longer a sex starved teenager that thinks its the epitome of life. If my heart isn't really into it, I'd rather not have some half-assed mediocre sex.
inb4 "you're gay"
