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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1155 on: October 05, 2014, 05:33:54 pm »
*hugs malice*

I'm fucking hungover. :(
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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1156 on: October 05, 2014, 06:15:24 pm »
All right guys. I'm out.

Cya sometime.
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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1157 on: October 05, 2014, 07:18:08 pm »
and before this realization you were oblivious to these things, weren't you? you're slowly learning to socialize through the internet and you're having your existential crisis and personal fable at 25 or something instead of 15

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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1158 on: October 05, 2014, 07:32:08 pm »
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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1159 on: October 05, 2014, 07:40:00 pm »
Since Indiana is gay as fuck and will not sell alcohol on sundays, I am forced to go to the bar.  Later.
quote author=dragqueen slayer link=topic=1184.msg35656#msg35656 date=1412632872]Cory is fucking retarded[/quote

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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1161 on: October 05, 2014, 07:57:06 pm »
Since Indiana is gay as fuck and will not sell alcohol on sundays, I am forced to go to the bar.  Later.


I'm in Indiana too!
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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1162 on: October 05, 2014, 10:06:22 pm »
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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1163 on: October 06, 2014, 04:31:54 am »
Notes on yesterday: NSI-189-10/4 took 40mg 2x, possibly hyper emotional side effect (depression, crying, thoughts of suicide, feeling of mental unwellness, mild headache in bed, upper back tooth pain), terrible insomnia (9 hours awake in bed, 4 hours of sleep). Next day felt terrible upon waking, as before, but after taking meds/sups may have felt the beginning of depression lifting. Unknown if it would have occurred without this event due to parnate.

Increased emotional response has been a reported side effect, u/MisterYouAreSoDumb described it making him "hyper-emotinal" after about a month.  Not necessarily a bad sign if you were previously emotionally numb, which is a standard symptom of severe depression. Insomnia is a common side effect of parnate, it can go away once you adjust. Going to try switching the NSI to 20mg 3x, I think it will be comparable to to 40mg 2x and more cost effective.

http://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/2i27hz/misstatement_about_efficacy_of_3_x_40_mg_dosing/cky7ga3

Interesting info, a public poll on effects/experiences: http://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/2i2i6s/nsi189_public_poll/

Went outside. Definitely a noticeable improvement. If this is what the trajectory is going to be like, it's some pretty good stuff.

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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1164 on: October 06, 2014, 05:31:30 am »
Unrelated, imagine the porn software that could be produced!

http://www.roadtovr.com/sightline-dev-creates-incredible-holographic-user-interface-powered-oculus-rift-leap-motion/
http://www.reddit.com/r/Futurology/comments/2i09p8/stateoftheart_cgi_say_hello_to_hyperrealistic_ed/
Along with a hands free masturbation device, which have been created.

Sitting in a chair while a hyper-realistic perfect ass rides you, along with automated masturbation. This is the future, soon the difference between IRL and virtual sex will be diminished, particularly once cost of acquisition is taken into account.

you'll catch something doing that.

also, gollumkip == real gollum?

The love bug? It's the real gollum.

Are you still upset about that time I showed you up? I want to know, what where you planning on saying when I got there and saw that you weren't a girl?

I made a mean post and I internet apologize for it although it did come from a good place

Malice, I suggest doing anything you can to feel "alive" likely you equate these feelings with physical activity but probably thinking of yourself in the macro human sense coupled with the physical exertion from being "alive" will do good things for you and help you have sex.

I will literally send you $200 worth of bitcoin right now if you promise you'll spent it on a prostitute

Aw, it's alright. I absolutely hate hearing people tell others to man up or get over it. Usually it's because they've been fortunate enough to never have experienced those problems themselves, or they've experienced grief and don't understand that it's different than clinical depression.

Your brain can be unhealthy, malformed, just like any other part of your body. Genetic variation effects everything, including the brain. There's so much evidence for a biological, genetic basis of disorders. For example, with anxiety, is it really so hard to imagine that someone could have a defect in their GABAergic system? Or that someone with ADD could have a defect of the dopaminergic system? You can't just "man up", "get over" that and have all your problems solved, although that's not to say you're necessarily completely helpless and shouldn't try to improve with CBT. Unfortunately the majority of people know nothing about this and insist on forming an opinion on everything, as if the world can't live without it. It's as if saying "I don't know" or "I don't have an opinion, I don't feel I've read or know enough to feel confident forming one" are the most terrifying things in the world, and instead every jackass has to pretend to be knowledgeable about everything so others will have a positive impression of them, and unfortunately it works because people are fucking idiots!

It makes me sick when I see people make assumptions about others and reveal that they're incapable of the most basic critical thought. Someone's walking strangely and they laugh, as if they're doing it on purpose for fun or to look cool, or they're just too stupid to walk right. How are some people so goddamn stupid to not consider that they could have a disability? It's even worse with psychiatric disorders. Unfortunately this behavior may have a disgusting evolutionary basis, and even children display it. The theory is, and many other animals engage in this much more overtly, that ostracizing, driving out, the weak and deformed improved the fitness of the herd/group by driving out others that would otherwise weigh them down. Absolutely disgusting. In the wild it's been found that for twins it's unusually common for only one to survive, and the reason is because mother's neglect and abandon the weaker one to focus their efforts on the one that is most likely to survive and reproduce. Newborns will kill and eat one of their littermates if they're born malformed, disabled. I've seen a lead stallion walk up to a newborn foal showing difficulty walking well past the time they're normally able to, grab it by its neck and slam it against the ground until dead. Selfish genes. I remember when I was very young my mother telling me that she felt a lot of embarrassment/shame whenever she went out with me, and I never even did anything! Apparently my basic demeanor was enough to warrant that. What a great thing to say to a child, it did wonders for my self-confidence and image.

You're actually the third person to offer to buy me a hooker. Sometime within the last few days, for the first time, I thought "You know, maybe hiring a prostitute wouldn't be so bad."

It would have made for a good thread on Zoklet, but it's not going to change anything and would just leave me feeling empty inside. With the right one, maybe it would be a nice experience, nothing profound, but among prostitutes the chance is probably pretty low. I'm sure the profession tends to change you for the worse. It's not about sex, without any emotional connection sex is really a very simple act. Blowjobs seem pretty cool, but it probably wouldn't be worth it with a condom and I'm sure as hell not risking anything, particularly around here. Most people here probably won't believe me, and it's perfectly reasonable, but it's not about sex. Anyone could get laid! Just look at how pathetic a large percentage of the population is, and yet they still manage to have multiple relationships and eventually get married. It's a delusion to think you couldn't find someone.

It may sound silly, and I'm not romanticizing it or putting anything on a...*ahem* pedestal, but if I ever lose my virginity I want the first time to be special and with someone I have an emotional connection to, really feel something for. Casual relationships just aren't for me, and if those are what some people favor, I can see why they wouldn't understand this. First times are special, there's novelty, the first time you've experienced something. I don't want to waste it on something that doesn't mean anything and isn't even particularly enjoyable, I'm not an animal, in my normal state I have almost no sex drive and don't look at women with lust in my eyes, because there are pretty faces and bodies everywhere and there's not much to them, they're never something I remember.

*hugs malice*

I'm fucking hungover. :(

I felt like such fucking shit yesterday and when I woke up. I don't know how people deal with regular hangovers. Thank god I don't suffer from chronic pain or have a serious disease, those people have my pity for the suffering they must endure, I don't blame them if it beats them down.

a reminder to leave cheap margaritas and mexican food alone



I remember that some time ago on Zoklet you told us you had passed out on the toilet while shitting and finished on the floor. I was disappointed that you hadn't posted a picture, but, good god man, that is foul. I don't want to think about what the smell and cleanup was like. If I ever build or remodel a home/base of operations for myself I'm going to have a bathroom with tilted floors and a drain in the center so I can just hose everything down.

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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1165 on: October 06, 2014, 05:37:14 am »
quote author=dragqueen slayer link=topic=1184.msg35656#msg35656 date=1412632872]Cory is fucking retarded[/quote

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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1166 on: October 06, 2014, 05:44:30 am »
My mental breakdown occurred earlier in the year when I took a combination of drugs with shrooms, trying to create the perfect experience, and didn't show them the respect they deserved. I had mild depersonalization afterward for some time, and have wondered if I never fully came out of it. I remember taking amphetamine and it just wouldn't work, I took a dose much higher than I had before, it sent my heart rate up, but I just didn't feel it, it was nothing like before when it always worked and worked well. I thought of this recently and it made me fear that if whatever changed hasn't been fixed, the parnate will never work, and neither will anything else worth using.

Even before that, there was this trip I wrote about: http://www.zoklet.net/bbs/showthread.php?t=261029

I wonder how different things would be if I hadn't fought it. While miserable and insomniac last night I thought, something I've felt before, thought about how I've had a feeling that I might need to go back and work through unresolved issues, wondered whether this is the case. I really want to try LSD, mescaline, and DMT eventually, but not in this state. I'm going to promise myself not to until I form at least one relationship, friendship or otherwise.

Oh, and I want to start up my goal of playing through every great old game ever created that's still worth playing. I've read entire lists of games released for multiple consoles and it's amazing how few of them are. I completely forgot about the PS1 emulator I downloaded a long time ago, I want to start with that right now and make a list of games.
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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1167 on: October 06, 2014, 06:19:28 am »
Are you still upset about that time I showed you up? I want to know, what where you planning on saying when I got there and saw that you weren't a girl?

No longer upset. I was going to say hi, maybe bullshit for a bit if you didn't run in terror, and then head back to see the shitty crustpunk bands that were there.

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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1168 on: October 06, 2014, 10:03:37 am »
Damn, "The Blacklist" just keeps getting better n better.  I'd say it's like Burn Notice meets Die Hard

I also like how there are 22 episodes a season
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Re: The retarded thread: Send zok back to africa edition
« Reply #1169 on: October 06, 2014, 11:13:44 am »
300ug LSD was the most beautiful experience in my life.