Dad kicked me out. Fuuuuck!
Why did he kick you out? You never posted the jail story.
I'm staying with this weird old guy. I may just suicide.
Tell us more. How do you know him? Why is he letting you stay with him? Describe his eccentricity.
You should read this book:
http://www.amazon.com/The-Defining-Decade-Twenties-Matter-And/dp/0446561754My harsh words were accurate. Realistically, if you don't quickly make a turnaround, you're probably going to be beyond hope for the rest of your miserable life. By the time you're 40, it's going to be undeniable. "This is it, this is the rest of my life. I'm never going to make it."
I'd recommend a top of the line drug regimen, but you couldn't afford it.