Enjoying the finer things in life.

[splooge gook]

2mg Xanax XR, 40mg of dextroamphetamine, 300mg of epilepsy/insanity meds, and caffienated cough-syrup flavored soda. Who knew staying sober would be so easy? Fuck sleep too. I like to take my AD/HD medications daily, which leads to 2days no sleep, constant paranoia, i have an itch on my right foot right now. I want to try to be addicted to myself, not in a narcissistic way, but in a way that everything i need can come from my own internal/internet world and the few things external to it. f. weedicus is a fake, f. weedicus is the false prophet. there is no money to be made in genuine business nowadays, is there? everything is rooted in the synthetic, the fake, the cheap, the valueless. will the real annoying sounding wigger please stand up? we need to find the real weedicus. Something that means something to us. Something that just ~is~, but not ~is~ ~is~ as a self-referential/meta statement, that would be incorrect, meaningless, and would probably drive a thinking man like IWD to suicide. FWD. IWD. RWD. BMW. XTC. PCP. ABC. 123. A1!B4@C9#D16$E25%, we need to be on the real, savor every meal, let every moment be our last supper and have all the maids in the whore house suffer. while surfboarding. while snorkeling. while having Sentience. the dirty wind, it blows up my nose, there are holes in my brain, that nobody knows



note to self: google sentience, buy a self help book on introspection, get taught from a cotton picker how to read, teach a cotton picker how to floss his teeth with twine, use the grime that gets stuck on the twine to poison black plague carrying rats. that is the real life equivalent of f.weedicus, the black plague, with more guyanese people. """""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""people"""""""""""""""""""""""""''', so is it the slightly less black plague or the brown plague, one drop rule, one drop and you stop i go pop pop in your temples like you some sketch lookin' cop bout to get dropped and i don't know enough about the dynamics of bullets traveling at a velocity of 1^34547o57390475093478050 picometers per second because that's autistic. but i do iknow when it hit you, i shit you not, you wont believe it have to see it you are it you be it

You Are

Fake

Weedicus

.

.

.

170!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Vulture]

I want to try to be addicted to myself, not in a narcissistic way, but in a way that everything i need can come from my own internal/internet world and the few things external to it. f. weedicus is a fake, f. weedicus is the false prophet. there is no money to be made in genuine business nowadays, is there? everything is rooted in the synthetic, the fake, the cheap, the valueless. will the real annoying sounding wigger please stand up? we need to find the real weedicus. Something that means something to us. Something that just ~is~, but not ~is~ ~is~ as a self-referential/meta statement, that would be incorrect, meaningless, and would probably drive a thinking man like IWD to suicide.

There's actually a lot of win in there.

Shortcut/hand: Being = action, which can't be without a goal, most of those being lies in recursive circle jerk form.

Will you replace weedicus like a third world dictator or destroy the niche he occupies/d? What happens if it's destroyed?

ITT I watch sploo struggle to discover authenticity.

[splooge gook]

pots going to be legal soon enough anyway, don't wanna become an alkie like grandpappy. but that's not even the point, just like sitting in the psych hospital thinking over what's happened the past few days/weeks/months and it's all a clusterfuck of contradictions and things that dont make sense, which i guess is the point, but not keeping myself stoned 24/7 makes me realize certain things i've done really make no sense whatsoever and i can tell even now if i have some sort of mental condition it's not really something that i can do much about. if you're supposed to feel x way about y and you don't, what can you do about it? i guess i'll do what most other people do and A) practice muh instruments B) post incessantly C) listen to rap metal albums on repeat with "super bass" turned on D) i've been designing my own psychometric tests for like 3 years but nobody ever fucking takes them so i can't practice actual statistical analysis, all i'm doing is gathering data and collecting info on "good" items. i want muh research on intelligence completed.

Since most people live in the real world, unless my mental problems are so debilitating that i'll never be able to function in society, my substance abuse problems really aren't the worst. I'm not smoking pure powdered cannabinoids off foil and injecting it with canola oil into my brainstem. well, im turning 18 in 3 months, but it's been ~35 hours cannabinoid free. besides fiending, freaking the fuck out, and not remembering anything, it seems to have helped me in other ways. Taught myself how to be ambidextrous in like 4 days as a leftie. Like, lol what. I'm trying to play the bass ambidextrously to improve/equalize hand function, but a bit harder.

the thing i'm best at is literally shape puzzles. like, thank you very much God. i passed the nationwide geometry exam by like, 1 point. what good is geometry if you can't do math? engineering? architecture? i don't really know. i've been trying to find books that are geared towards people who process most of their information through graphics and shit because either my reading skills aren't as good, my ADHD enjoys teh pussles, or whatever. i want to find something where autism shape logic is the quintessential foundation, and that's about it.

are u oplus

[equanimity]

Where were you for my HB medication thread?

[RisiR]

the thing i'm best at is literally shape puzzles. like, thank you very much God.

LOL. 

are u oplus

I asked myself the same before. 

[mashleshmash]

Sploo best poster.

[LegalizeSpiritualDiscovry]

2mg Xanax XR, 40mg of dextroamphetamine, 300mg of epilepsy/insanity meds, and caffienated cough-syrup flavored soda. Who knew staying sober would be so easy? Fuck sleep too. I like to take my AD/HD medications daily, which leads to 2days no sleep, constant paranoia, i have an itch on my right foot right now. I want to try to be addicted to myself, not in a narcissistic way, but in a way that everything i need can come from my own internal/internet world and the few things external to it. f. weedicus is a fake, f. weedicus is the false prophet. there is no money to be made in genuine business nowadays, is there? everything is rooted in the synthetic, the fake, the cheap, the valueless. will the real annoying sounding wigger please stand up? we need to find the real weedicus. Something that means something to us. Something that just ~is~, but not ~is~ ~is~ as a self-referential/meta statement, that would be incorrect, meaningless, and would probably drive a thinking man like IWD to suicide. FWD. IWD. RWD. BMW. XTC. PCP. ABC. 123. A1!B4@C9#D16$E25%, we need to be on the real, savor every meal, let every moment be our last supper and have all the maids in the whore house suffer. while surfboarding. while snorkeling. while having Sentience. the dirty wind, it blows up my nose, there are holes in my brain, that nobody knows



note to self: google sentience, buy a self help book on introspection, get taught from a cotton picker how to read, teach a cotton picker how to floss his teeth with twine, use the grime that gets stuck on the twine to poison black plague carrying rats. that is the real life equivalent of f.weedicus, the black plague, with more guyanese people. """""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""people"""""""""""""""""""""""""''', so is it the slightly less black plague or the brown plague, one drop rule, one drop and you stop i go pop pop in your temples like you some sketch lookin' cop bout to get dropped and i don't know enough about the dynamics of bullets traveling at a velocity of 1^34547o57390475093478050 picometers per second because that's autistic. but i do iknow when it hit you, i shit you not, you wont believe it have to see it you are it you be it

You Are

Fake

Weedicus

.

.

.

170!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You got a Xanax XR script too?  I'm assuming it's scripted to you, since first of all, I could swear I just saw you mention that elsewhere on this hurr site, but also because where the fuck else would you get it?  Most people IRL haven't even heard of the shit and almost don't want to believe it actually exists.  What's even funnier/more coincidental is the dextroamphetamine, since I actually was scripted Vyvanse in addition to 2mg Xanax XR per day as well, which while technically isn't dextroamphetamine, it is once it reacts with your stomach acids.  Interesting to see somebody else prescribed something so incredibly similar.

Only thing is the Vyvanse would've hadda been (and would've for sure with this fucking doctor) was scripted for a month and then I was supposed to go back before that month was up to have them rewrite it, discontinue it, adjust it, or whatever the case may be. which of course would've been the first option as a result of my manipulation.  But yeah, I ended up losing my job and getting away from the stress of life and my crazycrazylunaticass family for a while by buying a plane ticket to Denver, before I could make that appointment to get another script written.  But since I'm back in the city where I was seeing that doctor, I plan on going back to him as soon as possible and not only getting more Gabapentin and Xanax XR, since I only got 1 refill of each, but surely I can get the Vyvanse rewritten (or maybe even upped to 70mg) with the same effort as the snap of a finger.  Only reason I don't still have it is because I didn't make that appointment around a month ago and haven't been to one since.  But you better believe Imma get that Vyvavnse right back tacked onto this nice prescription cocktail ASAmuthafuckin'P.

[LegalizeSpiritualDiscovry]

Fucking please don't even tell me the 300mg of "epilepsy/insanity" pills are Gabapentin too.  That would just cross the line beyond insaaaaneass coincidence into Idon'tevenfuckingknow.

I'm scripted 300mg of that 3x a day but take 4-5 (after lowering myself from the 7-9 I had been taking for quite a while).

[splooge gook]

300mg is oxcarbazepine

yeah i actually switched from bars back to the XR, and from 30mg adderall to 40mg vyvanse which is way weaker but 30mg made me feel like a crackhead. at first i did this to manipulate for free dr00gs but it seemed to help/im mentally/physically dependent now

[splooge gook]

are you like a ridiculously irritable person because i think they just put some people on high dose xanax so they dont go off on a coffee tangent

[splooge gook]

isnt giving a person with bipolar stimulants like, the worst idea ever?

[LegalizeSpiritualDiscovry]

are you like a ridiculously irritable person because i think they just put some people on high dose xanax so they dont go off on a coffee tangent

Come on now, dude, we were having a perfectly decent, intelligent conversation and could actually learn a thing or two about something maybe, being prescribed the same shit and discussing it and whatnot.

[splooge gook]

I was saying that prescribing the two meds together may be a trend for some aggressive patients that aren't like 400 pound raging apes, or maybe it's the mood spectrum. or coincidence of course

[splooge gook]

do you ever wake up with lots of phlegm or throwing up? you're a polysubstance ab/user so maybe it's not as rare but it would happen to me frequently, not sure from the xans or the cans

[LegalizeSpiritualDiscovry]

isnt giving a person with bipolar stimulants like, the worst idea ever?

You'd fucking think so, huh?  But they got me down as Bipolar I on paper, among a few other things (some true, most lied or exaggerated) and still gave a nigga Vyvanse easy as hell while I was already on Gabapentin, Xanax, and briefly Ambien.  I had originally been put on the Gabapentin a long while back for anxiety, since the rehab I was in didn't prescribed benzos but claim and believe that Gabapentin works on the same receptors as benzos, which is kinda misleading, since it does a whole buncha other crazy weird shit with high-voltage gated ion channels or blahblah, that goes way over even MY head, and I'm a fucking chemistry/pharmacology Wikipedia scientist, nigga.  Lol.

But also, I'm sure it has some part to do with what kind of bipolar you are.  That sounds stupid the way I said it, but I mean like whether you're manic/ANGRY or manic/depressive, mainly.  Anyways, these motherfuckers immediately (after describing panic attacks as clearly as possible without being blatant for like 2 minutes during a single visit) put me on the Xanax XR, and after trying to put me on a couple fuckass mood stabilizers, they got me on the Xanax AND kept me on the Gabapentin but now are using that as a mood stabilizer.  So I guess if you change the wording used to describe the intended effect, it suddenly alters any danger or contraindications..?  Lol.  Definitely ain't complaining, though.  Gotta love them "off-label uses".