Aight just gunna reply to everyone: Liberal arts is about creating consumers. You'd have to be blind not to see that. Behind the fancy rhetoric they don't actually intend on changing anything. And more often than not they pander to an agenda. eg. Oh really, my taxes pay for hospitals, schools, and roads? Did you conveniently forget that war, prisons and police take up much more resources than any of the first ones mentioned. They are conveniently lazy enough to copy slides from the textbook rather than use their brain. Though your right that being a student myself I'm also part of the game.
Thread really doesn't have a point. I made a bunch like this on zoklet when I was feeling shitty and never really came to a good conclusion. I think my true dilemma is whether I should get a corporate job, freelance, or become a hippy/bum/monk. My problem is I am beta and complacent as fuck. I won't even pretend I'm not, it is hard for me to break out of a pattern or habit. And most of all I would rather keep to myself than network with people.
I guess another way of phrasing it is whether I should join the cluster fuck and help the world burn not participate and risk being ostracized, cold homeless, hungry. The further I go down either way the harder it will be to jump ship.
I just keep going cause I'm already in the circumstances I'm in. What really eats at me is uncertainty about the future, but I know that not only is the now more important, how I act now will dictate my future. And its shit to feel overwhelmed and like a failure in the now. I don't think my struggle is entirely unique even beyond a forum of misfits, I think most people fill it with endless consumption. So while it sucks to stop partaking in vices that is the realest experience there is. Maybe it is depression, but given everything I've said, I am grateful to be alive. I can't put my finger on why, I think lifes a bitch, but it can also be great. - the human condition lies somewhere inbetween. It isn't suffering, but it isn't bliss, its weird. The full range is whats amazing, all our feelings are relative to other feelings.
Just like what soso said, honestly I just take it a day at a time. I'm alive and thats all that matters, if I'm dead I won't care about the bullshit that I fucked up or that I accomplished.
About lance butters, no I'm murican. I found him cause he was sampled in a dubstep song.
