Malice does it pain you to feel like you know that nobody will ever give a shit about you? Or do you not care? Does the feeling fluctuate?
No, I genuinely don't care about that. Other things can pain me deeply. Well, I mean, I have no concern for "being known", but a lack of all intimacy and extreme alienation and isolation? I did have a mental breakdown in part due to it after a shroom trip, after all.