If it's any comfort, I'd also say you're significantly less "broken" than users like nero, IWD, blunderstar, mayweather, zek, etc
You (try) to maintain a realistic image of yourself, which any intelligent person goes through at some point. They go through the realization that they're probably a loser, and eventually they come to terms with that and appreciate the things they can do, versus being pounded down by what you assume is the "correct" way a person can be.
You have a distinct advantage over these posters because the way you've reacted to this is viewing your situation logically (albeit misguided) and trying to improve yourself (slightly less misguided). Those other posters were never even able to get to this point. They took one look at who they really are and are now spending years stuck in grandiose egomania because they literally just aren't strong enough to accept that they're human and not unique. They may be stuck like this forever. Hopefully, you are intelligent enough not to be.