Didn't I permaban you for something?
Either way, advisory to everyone, OP isn't shadylady from Zoklet.
As to your transexual thing, the reason why people aren't flaming you is probably because equanimity has already conditioned us (or a lot of us at least) to accept her now. (She's brainwashed us. o.o) And it sounds like you simply have a gender swapping fetish and you aren't actually trans. You're only trans if you CONSTANTLY feel your body gender is completely mismatched with who you really are.