Sobriety sucks ass but its not too bad

[mark311]

That's right the apocalypse is going to happen. That's right since I got back home and had a decent party I haven't had any alcohol.

For those who don't know I'm a pretty heavy drinker and since I quit doing my traveling job I also quit hitting the bottle. My last bender was about 47 days straight of going to work and then black out drunk after work.

I fell off the rails pretty hard too on my last bender I literally lost whatever was left of my mind. Stopping wasn't as hard as I thought that it would. I have all kinds of fun stuff I can do sober. I try not to think about all the money I spent ughhh but I have achieved eemental stability.

Two weeks and no booze. I never thought I would be typing these words

[Infinityshock]

Dont be a quitter

[BallsDeep69]

That's right the apocalypse is going to happen. That's right since I got back home and had a decent party I haven't had any alcohol.

For those who don't know I'm a pretty heavy drinker and since I quit doing my traveling job I also quit hitting the bottle. My last bender was about 47 days straight of going to work and then black out drunk after work.

I fell off the rails pretty hard too on my last bender I literally lost whatever was left of my mind. Stopping wasn't as hard as I thought that it would. I have all kinds of fun stuff I can do sober. I try not to think about all the money I spent ughhh but I have achieved eemental stability.

Two weeks and no booze. I never thought I would be typing these words

Alcohol addicts everywhere salute you my friend.

[mark311]

I feel like I'm letting them down

[Tommy Lund]

Good luck man. It`s not that hard if you really want it.

I am 8 years and one month sober. Life really gets better.

[mark311]

Good luck man. It`s not that hard if you really want it.

I am 8 years and one month sober. Life really gets better.

The thing is I was a functioning alcoholic. I wouldn't goto work drunk or drink on the job I never would wake up and start drinking on my days off and it never had a negative impact on my work. I'm not a violent drunk either so I wouldn't get into fights with people and it didnt effect my friends or my family. However my wallet is a different story. I would always like to go out although I would stay in alot too it all depended on where I was at really.

It is scary how much money I have saved though in just two weeks and I'm trying not to think about how much money I have wasted over the years because its easily in the thousands. Being home and not traveling has made it easier because instead of drinking at a bar ill go to my local skatepark, go to a hockey game (at a penguins game you literally cannot afford to get drunk there unless you go full ham in the parking lot), and a bunch of my friends every weekend we all get together and have Smash Brothers/NHL 15 tournaments and marathon games like The Evil Within.

I think alot of it really had to do with me being on the road. I have friends in almost every state that I've been to that I keep in touch with but the majority of the time I'd be somewhere where I didn't know anyone and I didn't have my own ride because we drove my boss' truck everywhere so my exploring was limited to walking and paying for overpriced cab rides. I also never never EVER would drink and drive because a DUI would ruin everything I'm trying to accomplish and they are not lying to you when they say you can't afford it.

When I got home I had a welcome back party and then after that I went cold turkey. I had the shakes the first few days but they faded by the third or fourth day. I have also drastically cut back smoking I was at near a pack a day now I'm down to eight on average. I'm trying to cut down on the smoking one week at a time and no vapors and e-cigs simply don't work for me.

What I really want though is to smoke some damn weed its been years since I've been blazed but due to drug testing I can't even risk it. Yeah I know there's fake piss and all that but it's simply not worth the risk in my opinion.

[Rook]

Thats awesome man.. There are plenty of people who go their entire lives fighting with alcohol abuse.. Depending on the individual, it can be a tough road to sobriety. It wasnt hard for me.. all it took was one really really bad night, and a months worth of recovery to tell me alcohol just wasn't for me.. or getting drunk for that matter.. I'll still sip on a little something every now and then, but I really don't enjoy being "drunk" in general. I recently quit nicotine, which is a whole different ball-game.. not nearly as difficult as I assume alcohol could be to quit if you have a high dependene.. Still, it was rough, but now I'm.. I think 3 weeks without smoking and ciggs or cigars, or chewing.. lol.. And I dont even think about it either. I'm finally on a good sleep schedule.. I'm waking up and working my ass off to accomplish stuff.. I feel the most alive and efficient than I have in a pretty long time. Keep up the good work man.. hope more good things come your way.

[mark311]

Thats awesome man.. There are plenty of people who go their entire lives fighting with alcohol abuse.. Depending on the individual, it can be a tough road to sobriety. It wasnt hard for me.. all it took was one really really bad night, and a months worth of recovery to tell me alcohol just wasn't for me.. or getting drunk for that matter.. I'll still sip on a little something every now and then, but I really don't enjoy being "drunk" in general. I recently quit nicotine, which is a whole different ball-game.. not nearly as difficult as I assume alcohol could be to quit if you have a high dependene.. Still, it was rough, but now I'm.. I think 3 weeks without smoking and ciggs or cigars, or chewing.. lol.. And I dont even think about it either. I'm finally on a good sleep schedule.. I'm waking up and working my ass off to accomplish stuff.. I feel the most alive and efficient than I have in a pretty long time. Keep up the good work man.. hope more good things come your way.

Good for you man and thanks for the support. It's just stuck in my head still the 47 day long binge without even one "liver day". I've probably have been on longer streaks than that. The more I read what I'm typing the more it is clear to me that it is a problem even though it doesn't seem like it is. With everything I mentioned about it not fucking up my job and my life I guess it would only be a matter of time before it does. That's usually how bad problems start - they are bad but the person doesn't realize it or is in denial. I chose to stop now before it gets worse and does have negative impacts on my work and family/friends and worse of all my health.

I obviously have a very high tolerance for alcohol I weigh about 170 I'm not sure if you ever saw a pic of me but I'm tall and lanky most people dot understand how I can drink as much as I do in a night. I say it's because I'm half Irish and a quarter German so I'm a Nazi with a drinking problem. (The other quarter of me is polish *insert wariat Poland rant*)

[Rationahl]

Didn't drink before work? Didn't drink during work? Didn't drink when you got up on the weekend? You're just a pussy, not an alcoholic. Let me know when you gotta slam some tall boys before work and then you can say your an alcoholic. You're not an addict when you only come home and get drunk after work or at night, at least not relatively as you're not even close to the only that does that. An alcoholic is someone who starts at breakfast and doesn't quit until they pass out. If you don't have to bring 3 beers just to ride down to the store to get gas and dip then you're not even close to alcoholic. No alcoholics are praising you, just the shit brained tards on here

[Rationahl]

Also nice try about getting DTs. People who won't even drive drunk certainly aren't getting any shakes. God you're a pathetic loser

[mark311]

Didn't drink before work? Didn't drink during work? Didn't drink when you got up on the weekend? You're just a pussy, not an alcoholic. Let me know when you gotta slam some tall boys before work and then you can say your an alcoholic. You're not an addict when you only come home and get drunk after work or at night, at least not relatively as you're not even close to the only that does that. An alcoholic is someone who starts at breakfast and doesn't quit until they pass out. If you don't have to bring 3 beers just to ride down to the store to get gas and dip then you're not even close to alcoholic. No alcoholics are praising you, just the shit brained tards on here

Who said I was looking for praise?

[Rationahl]

That's right the apocalypse is going to happen. That's right since I got back home and had a decent party I haven't had any alcohol.

For those who don't know I'm a pretty heavy drinker and since I quit doing my traveling job I also quit hitting the bottle. My last bender was about 47 days straight of going to work and then black out drunk after work.

I fell off the rails pretty hard too on my last bender I literally lost whatever was left of my mind. Stopping wasn't as hard as I thought that it would. I have all kinds of fun stuff I can do sober. I try not to think about all the money I spent ughhh but I have achieved eemental stability.

Two weeks and no booze. I never thought I would be typing these words

Alcohol addicts everywhere salute you my friend.

This stupid fuck face. I honestly don't understand how some fag like that could find this site. But back to the OP you gotta quit clogging up the recent posts with your bullshit threads that only highlight your faggotry. Only users like ballsdeep will applaud your "strength and determination." I just wanted to let you know how fucking stupid you look

[zok jr.]

Hmm I've been blackout drunk every night for like two years straight not a single day missed get on my level son.

I too am gainfully employed and enjoy life as much as a normal person.

[RisiR]

Congrats and good luck.

[kroz]

Also nice try about getting DTs. People who won't even drive drunk certainly aren't getting any shakes. God you're a pathetic loser

yeah he does kinda sound like he is over exaggerating.. no offense to mark though..