Damn, I'm literally writing this about 6 minutes after I pressed start on my stopwatch app. Actually seemed to be functioning better than usual, at least at first I was, although now I'm fighting the urge to get lost in daydream, like any tangential thought could cause me to become lost in thought within a few seconds, maybe less, even less than a second. Or not even a thought, just the gap between writing and there's the desire, or rather the natural impulse, to go into a state like when you're looking out a window on a train or bus, not particularly aware of what you're seeing or thinking of anything, at least at that moment.
60mg dmt on my hot plate vape. Higher than ever. Nicotine seems to possibly have helped, improved the trip, at least with eyes open; although due to personal variation this may not apply to everyone; for example, the reason schizophrenics may be so much more likely to smoke than average is because nicotine helps with sensory gating:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sensory_gating#Nicotine_and_sensory_gating. It's also one of the most powerful nootropics currently available, which I've mentioned before. Okay, "daydreaming" impulse now seems to be gone.
Strong effects on perception of time, definitely seemed to be time dilation, and after some point I had trouble keeping track of it, knowing how long had passed, even with my stopwatch going, which I couldn't see as well. I remember looking at the foil tray with the DMT and thinking/saying "Aww, you bastard." when I saw that some of the melted oily DMT had pooled into a corner and not evaporated, although now that I look at it I'm not even sure if it is DMT or impurities. Well, I'll use the same tray and find out the next time and find out. Then I thought the heat might have become too low and saw that I had set it to "off" because I thought it would stay hot long enough, when it probably should have been a bit higher and the knob left in position to maintain the temp. Ah, I'll also clean out the wine bottle I use, which is covered with cannabis resin on the inside and other gunk from the vapor, some bits of bud, just in case a significant amount of dmt vapor may stick to it. Then when I saw that it was around t+2:40, after some time of trying to read the time and figure out if I was, ah, processing it, the visual information, correctly, which seemed too late, I felt disappointed because it definitely must not have been a breakthrough, and the (possibly) leftover DMT came to mind.
Things looked fucking cool, nice open eye visuals. Nice head buzz too. Tiles, man, tiles. Fuck, I'm cutting off a branch of a nice flowering plant right outside, which currently has flowers in bloom. Makes me want to do this in nature, which I had thought before the trip. Hell, I'm rummaging through my stuff and bringing out anything that could look interesting. Ah, it's a bougainvillea:
Then I laid back on my spot and put my eye shades on, but by that time the party had already passed. I remember after a fairly short time I grabbed them and threw them off with a smile on my face and said/thought "Fuck this, I can try again later!" With a significantly higher dose, of course! Then I looked at the tiles but it was pretty much over. Disappointed that the MAOI I'm on didn't extend the trip. Plugged it timed so that the peak of the onset would be around the time the trip started, in case it needs the acute effects, or is helped by a fresh input of MAOI. Wonder if it's a sign that my parnate dose isn't high enough, the optimal level of MAO inhibition hasn't been reached.
I think at first I may have felt a bit panicky, or in a rush, maybe startled by the unfamiliar visuals and other effects, but fairly quickly it was just fun! Like enjoying a carnival. I don't feel the negative effects I did after my previous high-ish doses, the somewhat schizophrenic feeling and depression, dysfunctional behavior like staying up until _AM for no good reason and fucking up my sleep schedule. Although this time I didn't have my eyes closed during most of it, and I also enjoyed the trip. The previous times I laid back right away, put my eye shades on, and closed my eyes just in case I suddenly broke through and could have fallen. Which brings to mind the concern I had of possibly falling/faceplanting onto the hot plate, which would been terrible. The nicotine probably helped as well, or possibly the higher dose.
I need to reapply my deodorant, my pits are dripping. Tolerance shouldn't be an issue, just read about the intervals they used during a session of four .4mg/kg IV trips. Not sure how much I should take next. This was 50% higher than my previous highest dose, and I probably inhaled significantly more of the vapor. Hmm,...80, 33% more. Last note: Before this I wasted 200mg by plugging it with coconut oil (freebase). Well, I couldn't find good information and wanted a longer trip (about an hour), like a mini ayuahasca session. Shit, you know, I had given myself an enema before, what if I had excreted the oil into a container and then tried using it by heating some with my hpv? The coconut oil would be fine, although it could be a problem if becomes too hot or prevents the DMT vapor from escaping.
Experimenting is using too much, I think I'm going to need extract my own.
