So I went outside for a bit and realized I'm def not bipolar but I do have the propensity for destructive depression cycles, these are really just, as stupid as it sounds, based on a lack of "freedom" and how I've lived a lot of my early life feeling "trapped" which as soon as my balls dropped meant I had to go fuck shit ya Im on dat fuck shit etc. which is met with reprimands and me going "well wtf, all I was tryna do is get summadat immediate gratification I c ppl goin on aboot, wuts ur deal officer?" leading to of course, more relative, objective deprivation and the cycle continues until you decide you've gotta feel like shit for years and years in order to get where you need to go. Thank god I'm not a fiend, just an enthusiast.
Have you ever thought about a LEO having to read through your posts on here to try to get you? I know I do everytime I post on here (is it even necessary to say I've never posted on here from behind anything less than 7^n proxies and my "true" IP may just be a figment of someones imagination?) and I figure others do too. This would be the thread where he connected the dots between the five facial chakras and he tingled but reading this part would probably make him feel all kinda wayz, maybe getting a more human perspective on muh paradigm, but I dunno the extent of his knowledge. He's probably the zoklet IP log server mobile app so it doesn't help that people keep referring me to another name for some inexplicable reason. LOL, anyways I'll probably do something stupid like burn this laptop in a milk crate eventually but if I don't get in any trouble it'd be a pretty sweet way to go about it. Fuck was that tangent every tertiary ever tertiary. Fuck do you faggots ever need2marshallmclown.
Tbh I don't think anyone of you faggots even deserves to read my posts. I don't know what this says about you as a community or my fucked up brain but I'm putting my word on the line I'm willing to read any genuine over 68 responses I have to believe exist. I would even read a giant meth post by Rizzo who I believe actually may be able to articulate things better than a disclosure can. Anyways.
The point is that freedom is a completely subjective thing, that wasn't the actual point, tbh, just a fact to throw out there once in a while. The point is that freedom both exists and doesn't, it's more just a way of quantifying things but yet still subjective. You feel freer when you'z bustin dat nut all up in her gut and you can feel free by sitting and staring at the wall popping pillz. Mine has been pushed to the edge and back, force-ably imposed on me, prison/house arrest//under the watch of the state is really just an overt thing but being able to attain the small modicums of temporary freedom, likely more than most peoplez of you here, I have trained myself to breathe like an Abu Graib prisoners breathes between douses of water on the ol board. Most people can't fucking do this. I am literally 0/\/\@R KH@3r at this shit. You faggots wouldn't last, or you'd just end up like yourselves, lol.
"Lyfe is what you make of it"
"the 1 man army show"
fuck wit me
I bet if I had the patience to talk to zok on irc I could have convinced him to give me his website and mail me his license plate.
Officer, how depressed would you get if you had to deal with people like this on a regular basis?
and "0 replies" and "didn't read" can't be used because it'd be a shot in the walletballs but you're thinking that's gonna have to be the case, like whatever, I'll just drop you like that, much luv n shit but you see it namean, it's just like sometimes kickin it an shit and seeing it everywhere. It's just like whatever nahmean "myzell"
It's hard when your risk/dopamine luv/h8 reaction/response system and problems of immediate gratification and postive outcome expectancies (pigs and poes) are all screwed up from losing a few battles along the way, as any General has. Art of asalamajihad I'm getting there, not same route. This has resulted in some damage and, surprisingly, an aversion to aspects of these things, lol. Goddamn, you faggots do really have a lot to learn, I can't even believe how fucking secant your IQs are sometimes, it fucking pains me to an extent because it makes me feel a little bit ashamed for having actually read something that fucking incredibly cringey and dumb. Hence the need for all messages being unavailable to read by lurkers in order to raise the median IQ above Newfie mormon tranny but Arnox would never think of something so ever so slightly above a secant which is ultimately, quite sad how clueless and oblivious he is. It would almost be a sin not to snuff him out should you be given the opportunity to do so.
Anyways, typing about this shitty fucking website has made me bored and I've literally got a fancy math test sploo would prematurely ejaculate over if he finished in even the 70's percentile of. Man I miss dis black gurl sumtimes u bitches wouldnt eeno. Its cool tho, sux I keep seein her tho, lil awkward I guess, might tell the Dean she's in Boko Haram and sent to indoctrinate white people into Islam and turn them against western education which is literally the point of the group, she'd literally be smart enough to be able to convince a few pill poppers of it, I could see happening if she wasn't such a god damned good fucking person, like, freakily, eye openingly so. But I digest...
I'm fucking out
Guess how much fake meth I took this morning?
NOT
ENOUGH
