pleasure in hurting babies

[Umbrella Corp]

I've never admitted this to anyone, ever because it's really fucked up and I realise that.

Ever since I was a little kid, approximately 4-5 I get weirded out by the way babies move.  Like when they're little and chubby and have awkward movements.. especially around the time they start crawling to when they start standing up for the first times.

So when I was 4 or 5 I was alone with this kid who was just starting to stand, n I have a vivid memory of wanting to knock him back down.  So I did.. and he started crying.  I didn't like shove him hard or anything, just nudged him so he fell down.  N when he stopped crying and tryed to get back up again, I knocked him over again.  N I got like a realllllyy good feeling from this.  Better than sex, better than nostalgia..

I haven't done it since then but I think about it whenever I see babies moving all awkward.  Like I just watched this video someone posted on facebook of their baby n I just wanted to like slap it or shove it, not enough to really damage it or hurt it but enough to make it cry.

I don't know where this comes from.. it's one of those deep down secrets that you barely admit to yourself let alone admit to anyone else.  I have read up on it a little bit.. not much out there on it so I assume it's either a rare psychological thing or ppl are too embarassed to admit it.  I know I'm not the only one, yet it is a very strange thing because most people are obviously disgusted by this type of behavior and I know I should be too. 

So I guess I just wanted to get that off my chest in the only place I feel safe doing so.  Anybody else experience anything close to what I've described? 

[starvingniglet]

sometimes when I pet an animal I get this feeling like I want to squeeze it to death, but not to hurt it, just to...well I can't explain it

[Umbrella Corp]

U trolling?  I know you've talked about your dog before so that would kind of suprise me about you.  Plus you love to troll and I expected it when I made this thread.

[starvingniglet]

U trolling?  I know you've talked about your dog before so that would kind of suprise me about you.  Plus you love to troll and I expected it when I made this thread.

No, it seems like the smaller the animal, the more I want to squeeze.  My dog is big so I haven't really had the 'crush effect' with it.

It isn't out of malice or intent to injure the animal, more like I get into petting it so much that I just want to seize it up and squeeze it as hard as I can....hard to explain

[DaGuru]

On a completely different level, but still pretty whacked. And actually I've shared this story with many people IRL, and they all think I need help....

About 2 years ago I was disc golfing with around 5 or 6 other people. We were at a park where the course is laid out with a walking path that has a lot of pedestrian and bicycle traffic. So if anyone comes along you usually wait for them to pass so as not to possibly hit any one.

As we were walking up to the tee box, rounding the corner a couple hundred feet away was 3 people that would be walking right by the teebox in a minute or so. 2 of these 3 people were nuns, fully decked out in their robes like they just stepped out of a mission. As soon as I caught sight of them, I knew exactly what I had to do. I quickly ducked into the woods, at that point my friends thinking I had to take a leak or something.

Instead I pulled out my one-hitter and proceeded to blaze, even while they stopped for a few seconds to make pleasantries with my friends before they passed probably no more than 15 feet away from me. I just had the thought..."when am I EVER going to have the opportunity to get stoned in this close proximity to a nun again". When they finally walked away, I came out of the woods with the final deep exhale right at my friends with this shit eating grin on my face....and they all just shook their heads wondering and asking exactly what the fuck was wrong with me. 

[Infinityshock]

im not sure this is serious, so ill wait until it is or isnt

[Umbrella Corp]

My OP was 100% serious.  Was thinking there has to be at least one other person here as fucked up as me.  Zek?  where you at nig

[carltino]

Last yeAR when I was homeless writing a mass murder manifesto I was going into a rage thinking about killing people ando I got this euphoric feeling almost like sex but in the mind.  It was weird.  I've only told two people about it.  I guess it's called killers high.

[equanimity]

My OP was 100% serious.  Was thinking there has to be at least one other person here as fucked up as me.  Zek?  where you at nig

Yo

I never want to hurt anyone or anything like you guys, but sometimes when I'm driving I get this strong urge to hold the gas petal down and plow into something.  Usually it's parked cars, but also like trees, through glass doors (like at a business where they have huge window walls), or into a car driving the other direction.  Sometimes I veer a little bit in that direction and have to make the conscious decision to turn back away from it.

Also: garbage disposals.  I know I'm not the only one.  Want to stick my hand in there when it's running, or put my hand in and then turn it on.

[Infinityshock]

i have paragraphs and paragraphs i could type explaining the psychological motivation involved in hurting babies but ill boil it down to one simple statement:

the only thing worse than a pedophile/child molester is what the OP describes. anything (anything...not anyone) that considers hurting helpless children acceptable should die.

commit suicide.

nuff said

[starvingniglet]

Zek?  where you at nig

Yo

 

[mizled]

Babies are assholes.

They don't work, they cry and whine about everything, they constantly want attention, they totally suck on guitar, they piss and shit their pants and expect someone else to clean it up, they don't pay taxes, they never share their dope with you, they never help out with the shopping, they can't drive worth a fuck, their heads are too big for their bodies, they want their own shampoo, powder, oil, lotion, food, clothes and television programming, they talk funny, they need special car seats, they never clean their room, they throw food like a bunch of little monkeys, they're all inherently leftist and they're all friggin' gay for big purple dinosaurs.

Babies suck.

[10 gun salute]

I have to constantly try not to suckerpunch people who seem like they've lived a life devoid of pain but when I'm walking down the street smoking a cig and I see a baby carriage approaching I'll throw my cig out and light another a safe distance away

[baby raper]

Babies r for raping

[mizled]

Babies r for raping

Raping babies cures Aids.

It's a fact!