Well folks, my time on Earth has come to an end. I can no longer live with the things, the people I've lost. I tried very hard to move on but it's simply not possible. Some losses are too profound to ever come back from. Blissful memories have turned to black and are permanently etched upon my hippocampus. Every day is a struggle to come to terms with the void, the pain, but every day the anguish only intensifies. Time does not heal, there is no catharsis, but death can bring about an end. An eternity of nonexistence is all I hope for.
So on October 31, 2014, I will attach a 10kg high explosive charge to my chest, and send myself off into eternity at 20 times the speed of sound in ambient air. Goodbye, Totse, I wish you luck in future endeavors.
