because nobody "gets" some of these concepts or none of it has been researched t as extensively as i have
Give us an example. Unless it involves advanced mathematics, because, honestly, I lost interest after elementary school. I won't make excuses for it, that's just what happened.
i'm no good at math either, but for example, have you ever had a math idea come to you or some sort of logic game, then you get the urge to write it down, and you spend like 2 hours straight rewriting the thought in your head to try to make the formula as simple as possible with the least number of factors? i feel i can pretty much always come up with a new idea to keep myself occupied, and at a certain point it might look like gibberish to others