I don't have any particular desire to humiliate you, but it's certainly relevant in this thread. You clearly remember our encounters better than I do, give me an example and I'll tell you why I brought up your mental illness (as I have done in this thread). I don't really think mental illness is something you have to be embarrassed about in and of itself, although it does cast doubts on the veracity of your claims from experience.
As to your question about what it feels like to be banned from zoklet, it was nice. I was very productive in the months following. I had started working on a cool software project around that time and found I had a lot more time and energy to devote to it. I'm hoping to get an alpha of it running a few weeks.