basically, i have stabbed a girl in my class with a pencil earlier today, and when she told a disciplinary faculty she also brought up my online angry rants towards her, which have included lines such as "im going to kill you you fucking lying bitch". her mother came up and cried and decided to let the police at there for the incident to have me arrested, andso i now face possible community service and a superintendents suspension of 2-90 days, after things are decided in family court.
the girl wasnt fucking bleeding or anything the picture of her stomach showed a dot-sized indent.
but what i need an analysis for is that, do you believe this girl is upset? ive tried harassing her online and have punched her and threatened to hurt her before in real life. i have also drawn pictures of her naked and cut up and cut my ankle to smear blood on a paper, and then write "i love you _____"
but whenever i see her in real life she is smiling even when i try talking to her the worst ive seen from her was a small grimace at my hits. shes said i have offended her online before but never really made much of a point of it, and just ignores the things ive been recently sending her, even when i told her i was feeling severely depressed because of her and made a large emphasis on it being because of her, and how we could try to talk it out for it to be better for both of us. she completely ignored that and was smiling holding back a laugh when i tried speaking to her right before i stabbed her.
she didnt tell the teacher i stabbed her the teacher came over because he thought something was wrong and she said what, and eventually led to confessing my harassment online which was in printouts in her bookbag.
all i want to know is if i have caused significant distress or other negative emotions on her life, and thats all i really want from this whole event.
thanks
