For fuck's sake OP, stop trying to ascertain what's wrong with you and just put some effort into discovering what's individual about you. You'll get along much better with your peers if you know things like how you best interact with people, what you believe and how you judge, how you structure and describe and learn about your environment, what careers you might be suited to, etc. See the counselor at your high school and just ask for some help building a profile so that you can point yourself in a direction that isn't self-destructive.
