so on the first day i come in on a dxm comedown and i see the kid that caused me to get kicked ouit in the first day a few years agi, i did dxm crassu eyes at him and he never came back.i was super stoned so i just walked up to some really attractive looking 13t/o and i was like sup and we talked about stuff i dont remember. also there was one kid there who was like "Nice guitar playing bro".
I walked iup ro gim and whispered in his ear "If you ever say that to me again I'll break your cunt you fucking faggot". The kid took it seriously, told the teacher, and then we had a group announcement on threats and violence. i guess because word spread around that it was me i didnt talk to the girl the second day.
i was sitting all alone too shy to talk to any body then id ride away (on my tricycle) and cry and ride back a few minutes later cuz i had nothing to do.
at one point ever time we went there while everyone was busy actually doing shit, we'd just be playing math puzzles in my notebook.i touched her hand like 100 times man, 100 TIMES! after a while when the theatre production was done and us having spent 90% of my time trying to intellectually stimulate a somewhat intelligent 13 t/o who is such a qt but i cant cuz im a year too ol.d. i just lied and told every i was a year younger than i am anyway lol.
i started smoking syncans in the church bathroom, instead of going there coming down from whatwever. when the production was almost done and we just had to rewatch it a few times over seperate days, one day as we signed up to some menial task and oncce we were done we could do whatever.
i'd always come in at just the right moment for the really dramatic scenes of cinderella 3D and it made me cry and when one character would go "all i want is you" id always be looking over 2 her and that scene still makes me tear up.
we once played runescape together.
one time when i thought she was ignoring me, i went into the storage room, and brooke a little bit of her stuff after spilling my soda all over it, i probs stole like 150$ in total from random kid's baghs (jk) over the month or so there. on the last day everyone was doing prom or somethin but we were just hangin out together sitting rly close but we still cant do anything cuz the age diff
we went inside, played 2048 on her phone so more, heard some really autistic people talking. etc, but it was nice spending time with someone your face a few inches away from theirs connecting bodies and looking at eachother.
one time i jumped on a board these kids were carrying and i broke one kid's leg by accident so i didn't get in trouble
another time a kid kept on lighting little pieces of paper on fire with a candle and then one kid was like "i dare one of you to touch the fire", all of them were scared pussies and i just stuck my whole hand in there and held it for a few seconds and it hardly even hurt. the kids started getting all pissed off at me and this one fag was like "stop fucking doing that" "it doesn't hurt" "does it look like i give a shit?" "i dunnp but do you want to get the shit beaten out of you"
i mean i havent engaged in a real fight for years, so never, but i give off sa vibe somehow. i also left without paying at some shitty resteraunt forr some other kid to pay for so they did, the administration talked to me about it the next day and i denied all of it. lol.
these things would all get spread around as rumors but i'd just lie about them or say sorry so people would stop caring. besides the girl and one or two of her friends, i was still extremely shy and talked to nobody, but developed a small reputating for doing stupid shit for no reason, and i made crazy ass puzzles, and a 13 year old girl was emotionally attached to me as was i. for retarded things, like one time i sat in a wheelchair and kicked myself down the stairs and they were laughing hysterically and i was just like "i knew it wasnt gonna hurt lol" dummies they are.
on the last day i asked her if i could give her a hug and at first she said no but then she changed her mind and asked me "do you care what the other people think?" i said...i dont remember what i said at that point because the xanax kicked in. i said not really. we hung out some more and we tried to get 2 moments alone but there were ever any opprotunities so she had to leave and just said "i'll see you next year splooge gook" smiling atme, and then i walked home crying because she didn't give me a hug. i feel like that experience really opened up my feelings n shit.
we have only played runescape once since i saw her, and i have stopped texting her
tl;dr i was a creepy guy who did nothing and eh hangs out with emerging pubescents and doesn't afraid of anything.
