The Sanctuary
Ego => Head Shrinkers => Topic started by: Umbrella Corp on October 29, 2014, 12:20:39 am
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I've never admitted this to anyone, ever because it's really fucked up and I realise that.
Ever since I was a little kid, approximately 4-5 I get weirded out by the way babies move. Like when they're little and chubby and have awkward movements.. especially around the time they start crawling to when they start standing up for the first times.
So when I was 4 or 5 I was alone with this kid who was just starting to stand, n I have a vivid memory of wanting to knock him back down. So I did.. and he started crying. I didn't like shove him hard or anything, just nudged him so he fell down. N when he stopped crying and tryed to get back up again, I knocked him over again. N I got like a realllllyy good feeling from this. Better than sex, better than nostalgia..
I haven't done it since then but I think about it whenever I see babies moving all awkward. Like I just watched this video someone posted on facebook of their baby n I just wanted to like slap it or shove it, not enough to really damage it or hurt it but enough to make it cry.
I don't know where this comes from.. it's one of those deep down secrets that you barely admit to yourself let alone admit to anyone else. I have read up on it a little bit.. not much out there on it so I assume it's either a rare psychological thing or ppl are too embarassed to admit it. I know I'm not the only one, yet it is a very strange thing because most people are obviously disgusted by this type of behavior and I know I should be too.
So I guess I just wanted to get that off my chest in the only place I feel safe doing so. Anybody else experience anything close to what I've described?
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sometimes when I pet an animal I get this feeling like I want to squeeze it to death, but not to hurt it, just to...well I can't explain it
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U trolling? I know you've talked about your dog before so that would kind of suprise me about you. Plus you love to troll and I expected it when I made this thread.
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U trolling? I know you've talked about your dog before so that would kind of suprise me about you. Plus you love to troll and I expected it when I made this thread.
No, it seems like the smaller the animal, the more I want to squeeze. My dog is big so I haven't really had the 'crush effect' with it.
It isn't out of malice or intent to injure the animal, more like I get into petting it so much that I just want to seize it up and squeeze it as hard as I can....hard to explain
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On a completely different level, but still pretty whacked. And actually I've shared this story with many people IRL, and they all think I need help....
About 2 years ago I was disc golfing with around 5 or 6 other people. We were at a park where the course is laid out with a walking path that has a lot of pedestrian and bicycle traffic. So if anyone comes along you usually wait for them to pass so as not to possibly hit any one.
As we were walking up to the tee box, rounding the corner a couple hundred feet away was 3 people that would be walking right by the teebox in a minute or so. 2 of these 3 people were nuns, fully decked out in their robes like they just stepped out of a mission. As soon as I caught sight of them, I knew exactly what I had to do. I quickly ducked into the woods, at that point my friends thinking I had to take a leak or something.
Instead I pulled out my one-hitter and proceeded to blaze, even while they stopped for a few seconds to make pleasantries with my friends before they passed probably no more than 15 feet away from me. I just had the thought..."when am I EVER going to have the opportunity to get stoned in this close proximity to a nun again". When they finally walked away, I came out of the woods with the final deep exhale right at my friends with this shit eating grin on my face....and they all just shook their heads wondering and asking exactly what the fuck was wrong with me. :D
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im not sure this is serious, so ill wait until it is or isnt
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My OP was 100% serious. Was thinking there has to be at least one other person here as fucked up as me. Zek? where you at nig
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Last yeAR when I was homeless writing a mass murder manifesto I was going into a rage thinking about killing people ando I got this euphoric feeling almost like sex but in the mind. It was weird. I've only told two people about it. I guess it's called killers high.
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My OP was 100% serious. Was thinking there has to be at least one other person here as fucked up as me. Zek? where you at nig
Yo ;)
I never want to hurt anyone or anything like you guys, but sometimes when I'm driving I get this strong urge to hold the gas petal down and plow into something. Usually it's parked cars, but also like trees, through glass doors (like at a business where they have huge window walls), or into a car driving the other direction. Sometimes I veer a little bit in that direction and have to make the conscious decision to turn back away from it.
Also: garbage disposals. I know I'm not the only one. Want to stick my hand in there when it's running, or put my hand in and then turn it on.
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i have paragraphs and paragraphs i could type explaining the psychological motivation involved in hurting babies but ill boil it down to one simple statement:
the only thing worse than a pedophile/child molester is what the OP describes. anything (anything...not anyone) that considers hurting helpless children acceptable should die.
commit suicide.
nuff said
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Zek? where you at nig
Yo ;)
:tup:
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Babies are assholes.
They don't work, they cry and whine about everything, they constantly want attention, they totally suck on guitar, they piss and shit their pants and expect someone else to clean it up, they don't pay taxes, they never share their dope with you, they never help out with the shopping, they can't drive worth a fuck, their heads are too big for their bodies, they want their own shampoo, powder, oil, lotion, food, clothes and television programming, they talk funny, they need special car seats, they never clean their room, they throw food like a bunch of little monkeys, they're all inherently leftist and they're all friggin' gay for big purple dinosaurs.
Babies suck.
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I have to constantly try not to suckerpunch people who seem like they've lived a life devoid of pain but when I'm walking down the street smoking a cig and I see a baby carriage approaching I'll throw my cig out and light another a safe distance away
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Babies r for raping
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Babies r for raping
Raping babies cures Aids.
It's a fact!
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Try watching this video without laughing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-X-Vjj2y1A
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sometimes when I pet an animal I get this feeling like I want to squeeze it to death, but not to hurt it, just to...well I can't explain it
Yeah, I used to get that when I was younger. It's the weirdest thing, I love animals, it's just like IDK, something smaller and weaker and nice. I grew out of it so maybe it was just some like adolescent/teenaged desire to hurt things and not having an outlet or something. It wasn't even really a hurting thing though, it was just like really wanting to go all out on something physically.
That sounds super fucked up. I'm a well adjusted human, I swear.
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When I was young I was sadistic in the way described by OP. Up until about age 7 I did not too nice things to my pets and younger sister, pets just to hurt them, sister that just because mixed with jealousy from no longer being an only child attention whore. They're not pleasant memories. *random self-reflection* For whatever reason it seems as though I had no concept of the pain of others, like they were somehow inanimate and lacked the agency required to cause pain in return.... Come to think of it, I only held any level of respect for people who hurt me. Yet apparently these same others didn't anticipate any change in me, because they kept doing it.
Moral development seemed to skyrocket by 8 though. I mostly credit grandparents and teachers.
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Yes I am like that, I often think about cutting my cats ears off with sisccors
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My OP was 100% serious. Was thinking there has to be at least one other person here as fucked up as me. Zek? where you at nig
your not fucked up if you haven't did it since you was 5. I'm fucked up. Now please go and leave me and my fucked up club be.
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i have paragraphs and paragraphs i could type explaining the psychological motivation involved in hurting babies but ill boil it down to one simple statement:
the only thing worse than a pedophile/child molester is what the OP describes. anything (anything...not anyone) that considers hurting helpless children acceptable should die.
commit suicide.
nuff said
Yeah I don't act on it because I'm not sadistic like that. In fact I don't even like hurting my sexual partners, even when they like that sort of thing, it's a big turn off for me.
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I think it's interesting how you continuously link the experience to your sexuality but anyway, here's an article.
Most of us have been there: that bouncing puppy, string-chasing kitty or gurgling baby suddenly seems so overwhelming cute that we want to squeeze, pinch or shake that source of adorable to death. Don’t worry—you are not deranged, and you are not alone. This seemingly out of place aggressive behavior to the world’s most cuddly and lovable critters is actually the norm, researchers recently announced at the annual meeting of the Society for Personality and Social Psychology, LiveScience reports.
http://www.smithsonianmag.com/smart-news/why-do-cute-animals-make-us-want-to-squeeze-their-little-brains-out-7578614/?no-ist
Don't worry, though. You are still despicable, sick fucks.
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I only referenced sex once. But ya I'd totally fuck a little baby. If I had 3 wishes I'd spend all of them banging that baby.
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I only referenced sex once. But ya I'd totally fuck a little baby. If I had 3 wishes I'd spend all of them banging that baby.
N I got like a realllllyy good feeling from this. Better than sex
Yeah I don't act on it because I'm not sadistic like that. In fact I don't even like hurting my sexual partners
Twice. Also, way to get defensive and exaggerate shit. :facepalm:
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w/e
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You like hurting babies better than sex.
You are forever branded as someone who likes hurting babies better than sex by your own words.
N I got like a realllllyy good feeling from this. Better than sex
What the fuck....
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-z5FWlUN1go
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You like hurting babies better than sex.
You are forever branded as someone who likes hurting babies better than sex by your own words.
N I got like a realllllyy good feeling from this. Better than sex
What the fuck....
w/e
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Maybe you should act on it again and see how torturing babies feels as an adult. I bet it will be even better now.
N I got like a realllllyy good feeling from this. Better than sex
Fucking disgusting.
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Maybe you should act on it again and see how torturing babies feels as an adult. I bet it will be even better now.
N I got like a realllllyy good feeling from this. Better than sex
Fucking disgusting.
everything is disgusting to bradely except himself so don't take to much offense
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Try watching this video without laughing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-X-Vjj2y1A
I love how he picks it up with a Darth Vader death grip.
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Try watching this video without laughing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-X-Vjj2y1A
I would repeatedly waterboard every adult involved in the making of that video.
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why ? are you gay or what? stand up and be aman fuck my ass you pussy fucking bitch
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Try watching this video without laughing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-X-Vjj2y1A
Im-fucking-possible to not laugh at this.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-z5FWlUN1go
Hahahaha fucking kroz man, I remember that shit.
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MM, nobody gives a fuck what your backwards ass muslim brain postulates.
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WE gonna get you, Umbrella Corp