mayweather

[village idiot]

Unstable Matter's comprehensive guide to DoubleFucking
This is my guide for double fucking. Double fuck you if you don't appreciate it. Double fuck Unwyred, this guide requires no cooking or transportation. The only ingredients needed are vagaina(s).

What is doublefucking you may ask? Well, double fucking is busting two nuts in a girl In the same damn session! Ludicrous right? Yes, it is something Ludacris would likely do. But if he doesn't he wishes he could. If Ludacris does not possess this skill, rest assured that this guide will give you an edge over him. Should you ever meet you can teach him something and he can teach you how to swear loudly over bass driven beats you didn't create.

Why would you want to doublefuck? Why do you even ask that, faggot? Who wouldn't want extra pussy? If you don't aspire to crawl back in a vagina and one nut is enough for you, you're only half a man half the time. What if you're banging two girls At the same damn time! and aspire to bust in both of them and want to be assure your spank bank will be satisfied for later usage? What if a girls been rubbing your leg and your penis was ripping a hole through your sweatpants to the point where you're almost done by the time you've started? What if you want to show that pussy you mean business? Why am I presenting scenarios to you when you should already know these things?

1. Get girl(s)

This is the most straightforward part. How to get girl? I dunno, lol, try money. Tell her she reminds you of your ex girlfriend who just died. Explain that you can play a musical instrument with intermediate proficiency. Tell her you can drive cars quickly and safely [/b]At the Same Damn Time![/b] She will offer her flower to you and now we're at step 2.

2. Fuck this girl(s)

The initial fuck is not of utmost importance. Be as selfish as you want. Go fast, doesn't matter. Just drive it in. Be sure to keep your hips resting position back. Whatever, I'm not here to teach you how to fuck, I'm here to teach you how to doublefuck.

3. Bust

Here's where your methods start to change. For a double fuck, your first orgasm is not so important. Just fucking bust. I've never hit the actual cornea and I know my life would be complete if I did. This is why I live an unsatisfactory life. To actually get an eyelid shut is a remarkable achievement worth of getting a prosthetic arm attached to yourself so you could high five yourself in your daily activities. Hopefully this dream will become a reality someday but I digress....

In preparation of your first orgasm, try not to focus on the head of your cock so much. If she's sucking your dick, try guide it back farther into the "gorf zone" so as to stimulate the shaft as opposed to the head. When you bust, also do not focus on the head so much and dumping every last drop out. Whatever, you'll be getting it all out anyway. Now you've busted for the First Damn Time! and if this is your first time with the girl, she figures it's over like an idiot, lol n00bs.

4. Recovery

Now, this happens to everybody. Many people have their penis shrink in size relatively quickly after an orgasm and feel relatively satiated (like a bitch!) and that's fine I guess, but you've gotta strive for more. Your penis and your sperm deserve better. It hungers for more vagina. It's driven towards it like monarch butterflys migrate every year not knowing how to get to their destination. You've gotta fight this lazy, boring urge to eat a sammich and watch CSI like a bitch. You've gotta get back into it. Your mind may wander for a brief second to other shit FUCK THAT. You start finger poppin, you start licking that pussy, you spit in her mouth, pull her hair, tell her to suck the cum off do whatever it takes to get your soldier at attention. She will be confused at first but eager to see where it's going. You've gotta relax and KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN. You've gotta stay visual with it. I dunno how or why this is but the minute you forget there's a hot naked girl on your Jimmy you're fighting an uphill battle. Stay Bout that Pussy. If you want to hold her, kiss her, whatever, do it, lick the side of her face like a newborn kitten, tickle the back of her knees, write your name on her stomach with your sperm runoff, whatever you have to do to get back in the swing of things. I'm gonna assume you're not a hardcore faggot and are capable of this. Your dick will likely be a little sore but fight through that pain like a champ and we're onto step 5!!!!!

5. The whore to end all whores

Now we're onto the serious part. Everything before was childs play, basic training, the hobbit to the lord of the rings. Here's what you do: grip your dick by BELOW THE HEAD kind of squeezing it when you put it in this time. Missionary works best. She's undoubtedly squealing in anticipation of what the master cocksmith has up his dicksleeve. The forecast: More Cock! Your fucking technique must be different. You've gotta try to keep your thrusts short. Imagine your dick is a bungee cord that's liable to break but it's fun to keep jumping. Keep your dick inside her all the time. Keep it warm and awesome. Don't pull it out unless it's necessary to switch position. Also, when switching positions, DO NOT do reverse cowgirl. She could accidentally sit on your dick and she may bounce too high and overstimulate and hurt your dick. Also, your eyes will be narrow. Girls will comment on this afterwords. You will grip your teeth like a boxer. You're fighting a battle against the pussy but this is a Shakespearean battle of trickery and subtleties. You can't let the pussy win and cave in no matter what. Looking at her face a lot I will leave up to you, it all depends on the girl and your relationship to her. Really though, you've gotta focus on the doublefuckery.

Your dick is gonna go numb then feel like it's coated in molly. This is not a pitiful single nut feeling, this is some next level shit. When your dick goes numb, FUCKING GIVE ER BUD rest assured that feeling will come back and the pain you felt initially is gone. You literally fucked the pain away like I'm sure Trent Reznor said at some point. You will likely be more comfortable with your dick inside the pussy than out (as usual, duh) but feel free to swtich. The girl will be screaming all kinds of things, calling upon dead relatives for the strength to properly satisfy such a powerful penis. Her self esteem will rapidly fluctuate, she will go through all 5 stages of grief, 3 levels of hell and 7 deadly sins. She will learn how to lose a guy in 10 days, every single cosmo tip on how to please your man and 10 things she hates about you. Do not let this distract you. If she wants to suck your dick, let her, but it's preferable after the numbness stage. Also, AND THIS IS IMPORTANT. When you pull out, smack your dick DOWN not sideways, not up (unless it's going down) so the bottom slaps the girl. I dunno why this is but it's science. It makes you go numb quicker (or if you're past this, it helps your dick keep focused) and just makes everything better. You can literally do anything now. She has fallen in love with you for the moment. When you feel a slight bit of pain that you felt initially at the beginning of the second fuck, it now feels awesome and motivates you. Your eyes may have opened a bit more, motivated by the pussy and achieving the self actualizing Double Fuck!!!

Scream whatever you want, make as much noise as possible. Make it a competition. If she keeps calling you "baby" call her fetus. If she calls you King, call her the Bilderberg Group. Give it all you've got and keep every song about having sex in your mind at all time. I forgot to mention that focusing on goals is VERY important. I hope you read down to here, which is unlikely. Keeping a goal in mind is EXTREMELY important. What is this goal? Breathing can be a simple goal, making her toes curl can be a goal etc. etc. etc. Feel free to let your mind leave you for a second BUT ALWAYS KEEP THE NAKED GIRL PARADIGM IN YOUR MIND. Think about Martha Stewart dyking it out in prison, Angelina Jolie in Gia, whatever you want, just try to include sex in it, it'll help you, then you snap back to reality and realize this shit's happening right now and you're inspired to beat it up. I've gone on about this stage for far too long but still far too short a time. I've given you some good pointers, now we're onto the busting and aftermath

6. You think you've had orgasms before?

Now we're onto the busting part. The girl will have no objection to wherever you want to bust. Bust in her dead grandmothers urn and she won't say two words about it, you've proven your superiority. You must now release all your fluid like an elephant sprays from his trunk after drinking from an oasis. Feel free to do what the fuck ever and get every last bit out. You will now collapse and your eyes will likely feel extremely heavy. If the girl wants to kiss you after swallowing your cum, do it or you're a faggot. That's a beautiful gesture on her part and shame on you for trying to make her feel like a whore. She just survived a Double Fuck! and lived to tell about it. If you bust inside her, keep part of the shaft out and use your hand as a cock ring if you understand me. It's awesome. High five. You can literally do whatever you want with your load/dick now and there will be no objections as I mentioned before.

Anyways, in the aftermath you will fall back and feel like you died of a heroin overdose on Christmas and are still on your way to Heaven. The girl will be all "wow" and you can mumble anything you want and she'll do it. She is impressed. Nuff said. Now you can do whatever you want free from repercussion for a while. This is very true, at least in my experience. Without double fucking I'd likely never have one night stands. A double fuck can turn a one night stand with a girl in a bar who would otherwise consider you a "mistake" into a sexually fulfilling relationship. You've upgraded this girls fucking standards as well. She will forever compare future boyfriends to the guy who used to doublefuck her on the reg. Your skills are unmatched. The science of the triple fuck is very theoretical at this point and I have very little information to go on and test studies were inconclusive as to the possibility. The study group (myself) just didn't have his heart in it and it nearly killed him by a single attempt. It's possible that other variables may have been in play. It's very likely that recovery time will have to be greatly lengthened. I don't know. I do NOT have the technology at this point so do not ask me for it. NOW...

If you follow this guide you will successfully complete the fabled double fuck and all your trashy white girl dreams will come true. You're welcome. This guide is for people who aren't on drugs as hard drugs make double fucking a breeze. I believe in each of you. If you think you don't need this guide and are satisfied with a single fuck then all your kids will be born with cerebral palsy. That's terrible for you to wish that on your offspring. Read this guide and follow it in your daily sexual life. It's for the children of tomorrow that may one day have bones so strong and unbreakable they can dives into a swimming pool that's one solid diamond and walk away unscathed.

I love and believe in each and every one of you. Wu Tang Forever.

this is so lame that all the negative energy in my heart caused the newborn down the street to suddenly die

[unbreakable matter]

I never saw that before and I'm glad I did. Some people on there look cool and I would probably talk to IRL. Village idiot is not one of them, walking barefoot through water with a gay hat and a guitar what a goofy piece of shit

I have a spinal fusion between t12 and l3. I won't get into the specifics of how I got it because its so unique I've never heard of anyone else breaking their back this way. I also have a cancaneal fracture and have 13 pins in my foot upon last xray. It happened in late 2004 and when I was crippled I discovered the totse message board. I'd done dilaudid before that, was on dilaudid and other substances when I broke my back and was prescribed it after. I came off it and tried to act like it was nothing to have a spinal fusion and a foot that locks up and makes me walk funny if I walk what anyone would call a normal amount in the run of a day.

As I type this right now my back hurts and I'm sitting on a couch. Basically the 3 years after my crippledness I acted like it was nothing and definitely made my back worse through living recklessly. Eventually around 2008 I started doing opiates again and spent the majority of my life driving around with my seat so far back I'd look out my window from the back seat. When someone I know died under suspicious circumstances I wanted to believe it was just the pills that killed him so I stopped doing pills and started selling them.

Around 2008/2009 my back was getting worse and worse. I think ecstasy and coke made it worse to be honest. Also, as fucking gay and stupid and weak and shit as it is to admit it fucking hurt most of the time to have sex unless I was on opiates. So it created a viscous cycle of having to be high on pills to fuck or drive around selling drugs or doing anything really. I started to realize that the pain I experienced affected my outlook on life. You know when you are a kid and your relativity point is based on your own experiences (well it kinda is for everyone but as a kid it's more pronounced) I was in pain all the time and found it hard to imagine other people not being in pain. I think this is why it just made sense to me to sell drugs. In one capacity or another every drug is a medication. Around 2010 it became apparent I was going to prison so I decided to go to a dr to get a script so I'd have documentation and be able to get pills in jail initially. I would pretty much give away my 4's and sniff real 8's. I was always involved with girls and men who did pills because it became central to my life but not in the same capacity as they did them.

When I eventually went to prison I was getting my script of dilaudid in the county but when I went up the pen they cut me off and put me on tylonol 3's. I was fucking shocked and appalled even though I was pretty much caught trying to steal my pill so I could sniff it. I flipped out on the nurses and eventually they realized that they had to put me on something but the health staff is so incredibly useless all I got was 8 tylonol 3's a day. When I went to the hole a few months later, from lack of activity (other than pushups) and walking etc and just overall trying to be zen and mindful and shit I realized I could live successfully without opiates and I started hoarding them and was gonna stick them up my ass and take them to the pen I was being transferred to. This one guard I hated decided to destroy my cell to piss me off because I would make fun of him and they found 64 of the t3's so they cut me off them but the nurses would still stop by my cell in the hole and ask if I was alright.

Through working out my pain became alot better. Strengthening my back (there is really nothing I can do about my heel except for inactivity) became the key. I would eat a bottle of acitamenophen pills a week but I was proud that I wasn't doing pills anymore and instead bought and sold hash which relaxed my muscles enough to take my mind off my back. When I was released to a halfway house I directly fell back in with the same crowd and basically went back to doing pills and coke out of default because I didn't know what else to do. When this kid in the halfway house ratted on me and I had a highly suspicious amount of money on me I was stuck in the halfway house for a few days, coming off pills and I couldn't get off the couch I was in so much pain it was unbelievable. I realized a while ago that pain can depend on outside sources as well, for example whenever there was a cop car behind me my back would seize up to the point where I almost couldn't drive and I'd be in so much pain I'd have to do a pill immediately afterword.

But yeah, I went back to jail, yadadadadadadada, got out, decided to eat percocet but they hurt my stomach and it still kinda hurt a bit to fuck. When I fucked this girl on MDMA when I first got out I was fucking her but my back was hurting and thought afterwords that my back and headspace prevented me from actively being in a moment that should be awesome and beautiful. Bitch is pregnant now, lol, whore. SO YEAH, had people selling dilaudid and coke for me and I believe one of them ratted on me and I went back, got out AND HERE I AM

I'm precribed 60 6's a month and this will just increase. From a medical standpoint I need the heaviest painkillers but I've got an incredible physiotherapist and simply persevering through pain helps to lessen it over time. "the mindfullness solution to pain" is a gay hippie bullshit book that actually has some very poignant and true things in amongst all the bullshit. I take 4 vitamins a day (b,c,d, o3) do chin ups and be lazy and all these things help. Having sex is less painful and my association with sex and pain will probably lead me to become a sadomasocist at the age of 40. I'm very conscious of how I sit, stand, bend over etc. I've got to be very vigilant to keep myself from experiencing pain. I take 2 or 3mg's of dilaudid a week when it's particularly bad and sometimes I feel like I'm weak for doing it but I know that I associate my pain with a lot of things and being pain free is new to me. I'm going to see a specialist in a few weeks who's apparently a genius and cost $300 a fucking hour. I am very optimistic.

I dunno, I like talking about myself but basically what I can tell you is even though your body and pain is external, how you deal with it and choose to live with it IS ENTIRELY IN YOUR HEAD. Granted, there are degrees of this but when I realized that being a 26 year old who whined about pain and LET IT CONTROL aspects of my life is pathetic I learned to try to work with it to live for a day free from this. If I go back to prison it will definitely suck, at least initially but probably 5 or 6 months in it'll be fine I'm sure.

Hope this was helpful, probably not. meth

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

the first line is me making fun of you for being a beekeeping faggot and that horribly gay picture of you. It evidently caused quite a STING because you remembered the post and were willing to go dig it up

That post covers like 2 years and is about pain/opiate use you fucking idiot.

[unbreakable matter]

Unstable Matter's comprehensive guide to DoubleFucking
This is my guide for double fucking. Double fuck you if you don't appreciate it. Double fuck Unwyred, this guide requires no cooking or transportation. The only ingredients needed are vagaina(s).

What is doublefucking you may ask? Well, double fucking is busting two nuts in a girl In the same damn session! Ludicrous right? Yes, it is something Ludacris would likely do. But if he doesn't he wishes he could. If Ludacris does not possess this skill, rest assured that this guide will give you an edge over him. Should you ever meet you can teach him something and he can teach you how to swear loudly over bass driven beats you didn't create.

Why would you want to doublefuck? Why do you even ask that, faggot? Who wouldn't want extra pussy? If you don't aspire to crawl back in a vagina and one nut is enough for you, you're only half a man half the time. What if you're banging two girls At the same damn time! and aspire to bust in both of them and want to be assure your spank bank will be satisfied for later usage? What if a girls been rubbing your leg and your penis was ripping a hole through your sweatpants to the point where you're almost done by the time you've started? What if you want to show that pussy you mean business? Why am I presenting scenarios to you when you should already know these things?

1. Get girl(s)

This is the most straightforward part. How to get girl? I dunno, lol, try money. Tell her she reminds you of your ex girlfriend who just died. Explain that you can play a musical instrument with intermediate proficiency. Tell her you can drive cars quickly and safely [/b]At the Same Damn Time![/b] She will offer her flower to you and now we're at step 2.

2. Fuck this girl(s)

The initial fuck is not of utmost importance. Be as selfish as you want. Go fast, doesn't matter. Just drive it in. Be sure to keep your hips resting position back. Whatever, I'm not here to teach you how to fuck, I'm here to teach you how to doublefuck.

3. Bust

Here's where your methods start to change. For a double fuck, your first orgasm is not so important. Just fucking bust. I've never hit the actual cornea and I know my life would be complete if I did. This is why I live an unsatisfactory life. To actually get an eyelid shut is a remarkable achievement worth of getting a prosthetic arm attached to yourself so you could high five yourself in your daily activities. Hopefully this dream will become a reality someday but I digress....

In preparation of your first orgasm, try not to focus on the head of your cock so much. If she's sucking your dick, try guide it back farther into the "gorf zone" so as to stimulate the shaft as opposed to the head. When you bust, also do not focus on the head so much and dumping every last drop out. Whatever, you'll be getting it all out anyway. Now you've busted for the First Damn Time! and if this is your first time with the girl, she figures it's over like an idiot, lol n00bs.

4. Recovery

Now, this happens to everybody. Many people have their penis shrink in size relatively quickly after an orgasm and feel relatively satiated (like a bitch!) and that's fine I guess, but you've gotta strive for more. Your penis and your sperm deserve better. It hungers for more vagina. It's driven towards it like monarch butterflys migrate every year not knowing how to get to their destination. You've gotta fight this lazy, boring urge to eat a sammich and watch CSI like a bitch. You've gotta get back into it. Your mind may wander for a brief second to other shit FUCK THAT. You start finger poppin, you start licking that pussy, you spit in her mouth, pull her hair, tell her to suck the cum off do whatever it takes to get your soldier at attention. She will be confused at first but eager to see where it's going. You've gotta relax and KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN. You've gotta stay visual with it. I dunno how or why this is but the minute you forget there's a hot naked girl on your Jimmy you're fighting an uphill battle. Stay Bout that Pussy. If you want to hold her, kiss her, whatever, do it, lick the side of her face like a newborn kitten, tickle the back of her knees, write your name on her stomach with your sperm runoff, whatever you have to do to get back in the swing of things. I'm gonna assume you're not a hardcore faggot and are capable of this. Your dick will likely be a little sore but fight through that pain like a champ and we're onto step 5!!!!!

5. The whore to end all whores

Now we're onto the serious part. Everything before was childs play, basic training, the hobbit to the lord of the rings. Here's what you do: grip your dick by BELOW THE HEAD kind of squeezing it when you put it in this time. Missionary works best. She's undoubtedly squealing in anticipation of what the master cocksmith has up his dicksleeve. The forecast: More Cock! Your fucking technique must be different. You've gotta try to keep your thrusts short. Imagine your dick is a bungee cord that's liable to break but it's fun to keep jumping. Keep your dick inside her all the time. Keep it warm and awesome. Don't pull it out unless it's necessary to switch position. Also, when switching positions, DO NOT do reverse cowgirl. She could accidentally sit on your dick and she may bounce too high and overstimulate and hurt your dick. Also, your eyes will be narrow. Girls will comment on this afterwords. You will grip your teeth like a boxer. You're fighting a battle against the pussy but this is a Shakespearean battle of trickery and subtleties. You can't let the pussy win and cave in no matter what. Looking at her face a lot I will leave up to you, it all depends on the girl and your relationship to her. Really though, you've gotta focus on the doublefuckery.

Your dick is gonna go numb then feel like it's coated in molly. This is not a pitiful single nut feeling, this is some next level shit. When your dick goes numb, FUCKING GIVE ER BUD rest assured that feeling will come back and the pain you felt initially is gone. You literally fucked the pain away like I'm sure Trent Reznor said at some point. You will likely be more comfortable with your dick inside the pussy than out (as usual, duh) but feel free to swtich. The girl will be screaming all kinds of things, calling upon dead relatives for the strength to properly satisfy such a powerful penis. Her self esteem will rapidly fluctuate, she will go through all 5 stages of grief, 3 levels of hell and 7 deadly sins. She will learn how to lose a guy in 10 days, every single cosmo tip on how to please your man and 10 things she hates about you. Do not let this distract you. If she wants to suck your dick, let her, but it's preferable after the numbness stage. Also, AND THIS IS IMPORTANT. When you pull out, smack your dick DOWN not sideways, not up (unless it's going down) so the bottom slaps the girl. I dunno why this is but it's science. It makes you go numb quicker (or if you're past this, it helps your dick keep focused) and just makes everything better. You can literally do anything now. She has fallen in love with you for the moment. When you feel a slight bit of pain that you felt initially at the beginning of the second fuck, it now feels awesome and motivates you. Your eyes may have opened a bit more, motivated by the pussy and achieving the self actualizing Double Fuck!!!

Scream whatever you want, make as much noise as possible. Make it a competition. If she keeps calling you "baby" call her fetus. If she calls you King, call her the Bilderberg Group. Give it all you've got and keep every song about having sex in your mind at all time. I forgot to mention that focusing on goals is VERY important. I hope you read down to here, which is unlikely. Keeping a goal in mind is EXTREMELY important. What is this goal? Breathing can be a simple goal, making her toes curl can be a goal etc. etc. etc. Feel free to let your mind leave you for a second BUT ALWAYS KEEP THE NAKED GIRL PARADIGM IN YOUR MIND. Think about Martha Stewart dyking it out in prison, Angelina Jolie in Gia, whatever you want, just try to include sex in it, it'll help you, then you snap back to reality and realize this shit's happening right now and you're inspired to beat it up. I've gone on about this stage for far too long but still far too short a time. I've given you some good pointers, now we're onto the busting and aftermath

6. You think you've had orgasms before?

Now we're onto the busting part. The girl will have no objection to wherever you want to bust. Bust in her dead grandmothers urn and she won't say two words about it, you've proven your superiority. You must now release all your fluid like an elephant sprays from his trunk after drinking from an oasis. Feel free to do what the fuck ever and get every last bit out. You will now collapse and your eyes will likely feel extremely heavy. If the girl wants to kiss you after swallowing your cum, do it or you're a faggot. That's a beautiful gesture on her part and shame on you for trying to make her feel like a whore. She just survived a Double Fuck! and lived to tell about it. If you bust inside her, keep part of the shaft out and use your hand as a cock ring if you understand me. It's awesome. High five. You can literally do whatever you want with your load/dick now and there will be no objections as I mentioned before.

Anyways, in the aftermath you will fall back and feel like you died of a heroin overdose on Christmas and are still on your way to Heaven. The girl will be all "wow" and you can mumble anything you want and she'll do it. She is impressed. Nuff said. Now you can do whatever you want free from repercussion for a while. This is very true, at least in my experience. Without double fucking I'd likely never have one night stands. A double fuck can turn a one night stand with a girl in a bar who would otherwise consider you a "mistake" into a sexually fulfilling relationship. You've upgraded this girls fucking standards as well. She will forever compare future boyfriends to the guy who used to doublefuck her on the reg. Your skills are unmatched. The science of the triple fuck is very theoretical at this point and I have very little information to go on and test studies were inconclusive as to the possibility. The study group (myself) just didn't have his heart in it and it nearly killed him by a single attempt. It's possible that other variables may have been in play. It's very likely that recovery time will have to be greatly lengthened. I don't know. I do NOT have the technology at this point so do not ask me for it. NOW...

If you follow this guide you will successfully complete the fabled double fuck and all your trashy white girl dreams will come true. You're welcome. This guide is for people who aren't on drugs as hard drugs make double fucking a breeze. I believe in each of you. If you think you don't need this guide and are satisfied with a single fuck then all your kids will be born with cerebral palsy. That's terrible for you to wish that on your offspring. Read this guide and follow it in your daily sexual life. It's for the children of tomorrow that may one day have bones so strong and unbreakable they can dives into a swimming pool that's one solid diamond and walk away unscathed.

I love and believe in each and every one of you. Wu Tang Forever.

this is so lame that all the negative energy in my heart caused the newborn down the street to suddenly die

archive pls

[village idiot]

I never saw that before and I'm glad I did. Some people on there look cool and I would probably talk to IRL. Village idiot is not one of them, walking barefoot through water with a gay hat and a guitar what a goofy piece of shit

I have a spinal fusion between t12 and l3. I won't get into the specifics of how I got it because its so unique I've never heard of anyone else breaking their back this way. I also have a cancaneal fracture and have 13 pins in my foot upon last xray. It happened in late 2004 and when I was crippled I discovered the totse message board. I'd done dilaudid before that, was on dilaudid and other substances when I broke my back and was prescribed it after. I came off it and tried to act like it was nothing to have a spinal fusion and a foot that locks up and makes me walk funny if I walk what anyone would call a normal amount in the run of a day.

As I type this right now my back hurts and I'm sitting on a couch. Basically the 3 years after my crippledness I acted like it was nothing and definitely made my back worse through living recklessly. Eventually around 2008 I started doing opiates again and spent the majority of my life driving around with my seat so far back I'd look out my window from the back seat. When someone I know died under suspicious circumstances I wanted to believe it was just the pills that killed him so I stopped doing pills and started selling them.

Around 2008/2009 my back was getting worse and worse. I think ecstasy and coke made it worse to be honest. Also, as fucking gay and stupid and weak and shit as it is to admit it fucking hurt most of the time to have sex unless I was on opiates. So it created a viscous cycle of having to be high on pills to fuck or drive around selling drugs or doing anything really. I started to realize that the pain I experienced affected my outlook on life. You know when you are a kid and your relativity point is based on your own experiences (well it kinda is for everyone but as a kid it's more pronounced) I was in pain all the time and found it hard to imagine other people not being in pain. I think this is why it just made sense to me to sell drugs. In one capacity or another every drug is a medication. Around 2010 it became apparent I was going to prison so I decided to go to a dr to get a script so I'd have documentation and be able to get pills in jail initially. I would pretty much give away my 4's and sniff real 8's. I was always involved with girls and men who did pills because it became central to my life but not in the same capacity as they did them.

When I eventually went to prison I was getting my script of dilaudid in the county but when I went up the pen they cut me off and put me on tylonol 3's. I was fucking shocked and appalled even though I was pretty much caught trying to steal my pill so I could sniff it. I flipped out on the nurses and eventually they realized that they had to put me on something but the health staff is so incredibly useless all I got was 8 tylonol 3's a day. When I went to the hole a few months later, from lack of activity (other than pushups) and walking etc and just overall trying to be zen and mindful and shit I realized I could live successfully without opiates and I started hoarding them and was gonna stick them up my ass and take them to the pen I was being transferred to. This one guard I hated decided to destroy my cell to piss me off because I would make fun of him and they found 64 of the t3's so they cut me off them but the nurses would still stop by my cell in the hole and ask if I was alright.

Through working out my pain became alot better. Strengthening my back (there is really nothing I can do about my heel except for inactivity) became the key. I would eat a bottle of acitamenophen pills a week but I was proud that I wasn't doing pills anymore and instead bought and sold hash which relaxed my muscles enough to take my mind off my back. When I was released to a halfway house I directly fell back in with the same crowd and basically went back to doing pills and coke out of default because I didn't know what else to do. When this kid in the halfway house ratted on me and I had a highly suspicious amount of money on me I was stuck in the halfway house for a few days, coming off pills and I couldn't get off the couch I was in so much pain it was unbelievable. I realized a while ago that pain can depend on outside sources as well, for example whenever there was a cop car behind me my back would seize up to the point where I almost couldn't drive and I'd be in so much pain I'd have to do a pill immediately afterword.

But yeah, I went back to jail, yadadadadadadada, got out, decided to eat percocet but they hurt my stomach and it still kinda hurt a bit to fuck. When I fucked this girl on MDMA when I first got out I was fucking her but my back was hurting and thought afterwords that my back and headspace prevented me from actively being in a moment that should be awesome and beautiful. Bitch is pregnant now, lol, whore. SO YEAH, had people selling dilaudid and coke for me and I believe one of them ratted on me and I went back, got out AND HERE I AM

I'm precribed 60 6's a month and this will just increase. From a medical standpoint I need the heaviest painkillers but I've got an incredible physiotherapist and simply persevering through pain helps to lessen it over time. "the mindfullness solution to pain" is a gay hippie bullshit book that actually has some very poignant and true things in amongst all the bullshit. I take 4 vitamins a day (b,c,d, o3) do chin ups and be lazy and all these things help. Having sex is less painful and my association with sex and pain will probably lead me to become a sadomasocist at the age of 40. I'm very conscious of how I sit, stand, bend over etc. I've got to be very vigilant to keep myself from experiencing pain. I take 2 or 3mg's of dilaudid a week when it's particularly bad and sometimes I feel like I'm weak for doing it but I know that I associate my pain with a lot of things and being pain free is new to me. I'm going to see a specialist in a few weeks who's apparently a genius and cost $300 a fucking hour. I am very optimistic.

I dunno, I like talking about myself but basically what I can tell you is even though your body and pain is external, how you deal with it and choose to live with it IS ENTIRELY IN YOUR HEAD. Granted, there are degrees of this but when I realized that being a 26 year old who whined about pain and LET IT CONTROL aspects of my life is pathetic I learned to try to work with it to live for a day free from this. If I go back to prison it will definitely suck, at least initially but probably 5 or 6 months in it'll be fine I'm sure.

Hope this was helpful, probably not. meth

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

the first line is me making fun of you for being a beekeeping faggot and that horribly gay picture of you. It evidently caused quite a STING because you remembered the post and were willing to go dig it up

That post covers like 2 years and is about pain/opiate use you fucking idiot.

do you understand how pathetic you are

[unbreakable matter]

once upon a time there was a lonely boy who wore fedoras and carried banjos in the rain. Everywhere the boy went people would bully and make fun of him. This made him feel very sad. One day a bee landed on him and the boy felt resigned to his fate, winced slightly expecting the bee to sting him. However, the bee did NOT sting him and the boy was so overjoyed he cried and came at the same time and declared himself a friend to all things bee, spending the rest of his pathetic life looking after them

[PI removed]

btw, this is a troll picture right? This soft faced doughy eyed faggot in a pretentious getup can't possibly be you, right?

right?

...

[panthrax]

That's PI and I'm going to snitch on you.

[unbreakable matter]

first time throwing up on sanctuary

[unbreakable matter]

That's PI and I'm going to snitch on you.

well SOMEONE did their time in PC....hmmmm?

I haven't even read the rules yet, I try to keep my cursor away from red typeface

[Vizier]

I told you guys he wears fedoras while sucking mayweather's dick on the internet.

[Idiosyncrasy]

Rule #4 guys, don't post PI please.

[unbreakable matter]

wow, I've posted here fow a few hours and already decimated mayweather, vizier and village idiot, at this rate there will be no one left.

I will play nice from now on

here's a heartwarming picture

[Michael Myers]

Mayweather are you reading this?

Mark, are you drinking to this?

[village idiot]

double fucked

[unbreakable matter]

double fucked

lol

I posted a picture of you and you immediately logged off out of embarrassment, only to come back, hilarious

[village idiot]

double fucked

lol

I posted a picture of you and you immediately logged off out of embarrassment, only to come back, hilarious

yes you got me
were my eyes bloodshot? send me the picture, must be from four years ago if so