Satyr is right. The community killed itself by allowing itself to be divided. It's a collective failure, and as such, we don't even deserve to carry on. Whether it's this site or some other, whatever remains of Totse is now doomed.
This. I loved Totse and the ideal, but.. let it die. Destruction brings creation and what not... Times have changed, and old philosophies.. although relevant.. just aren't what they used to be.
Edit: I've finally figured out what it is exactly that makes this place and some of its members unfathomable to me. And honestly, it's my own ignorance. SN actually cleared it up for me.. I was over at Zoklet since March 09', and then he made his list of those who had came from Zoklet.. the act of the matter is, short of RustyShackleford, 1983, Malice (on occassion) and a few others.. I didn't post a lot in BC or HB.. and as I left drugs behind.. BLTC. I posted mostly in the news areas, MMM, BI, LLR, and ect.. When people started movng form Zoklet to here, I was under the assumption that the people posting here were those who were more like me.. semi-intelligent, and more interested in constructive discussion with a side of bullshitting around on occasion. When Zoklet went down.. people did move here from there.. most of you however, are just not part of the community that I associated with.. Hints, why I probably stick out like a sore thumb here. I'm not even uptight in real life, and when I write on here.. I do feel like the bitchy old hag down the street telling the teenagers to turn their loud music down..
*Sigh*.. I don't even know. It seems that a lot of the people I use to know and respect didnt make the move. Maybe they went elsewhere, maybe they dropped it. To be fair, the ones that are here.. you guys were a major part of the community at Zoklet. I had 1.6k-1.8k posts (somewhere in that region.. ) but many of you have much more.. You knew each other by name.. talked in the irc channel.. I didnt do that shit. I am the odd man out.. That said, this place was supposed to be a new beginning. There were talks of a Totse esque revival.. or.. at the very least.. a refugee camp for the zokleteers... zokletarians? Dont know what was ever decided upon..
Anyways.. The majority rules doesn't it? I'm trying not to good to off base but... I get it. I'm done bitching. And whether or not I post here regularly.. probably not.. but I'm sure I'll drop in a few days a week and stick to my favored boards. I put my head up and tried to stand out because this board was fresh and new.. I wanted to perhaps, be a more recognizable member of the community.. And, I more/less achieved that.. hehe.. even though maybe not in the light that I had expected. Shit happens.. and I have no regrets. I've been pretty spiteful the past couple of post on here.. I was being retarded.. haha.. probably autistic as you would say.. Eh, see.. even that felt in bad taste.. My moral compass is to ingrained.. Its not from upbringing, or being brought up in some religious cult.. or mental handicap (that I know of.. lol).. It's just who I am..
In short.. Do as you want.. Bitch.. moan.. complain.. I shouldnt even say that, kinda appears as if I'm acting that you "needed" my permission. I'm not as narcissistic as you may view me... passionate at times when I'm typing about something I feel strongly about.. but eh.. Sorry for being a bitch.. haha.. I admit it. Who knows maybe you guys will come to like me, maybe I'll continue to be a thorn in your side or regular nuisance.. If this place stays around, I want to try and stick around.. I just like to see this place prosper.. Might not even read this.. no skin off my back, I get paid to write 1000 word articles at a time.. nonetheless.. Truce for now. And I hope this place manages to work its shit out. Guess thats all I got.
