Too bad I'm not here to fix your problems.
But you do seem to love complaining about them so much.
At least you haven't denied you have problems. Maybe there's some hope for you after all. That aside Arnox, the only thing that matters is that what I say can be justified; if you can sensibly explain why it isn't then I'll have nothing left to say.
And if you don't like being the person with whom the buck stops then why did you set up a website and invite the Totse/Zoklet crowd in? If you thought the outcome was going to be just like totse2, only with you in charge, then I think by now you've realized that was a mistake.