lol is your sister hot malice
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malice is your sister hot bro????
She's alright looking, but I don't think it's her appearance that causes these recurrent fantasies. Pale, like my mother, white skin and big firm boobs. I pretty much went into complete seclusion from everyone, including family, around the age of 13. We literally almost never spoke, except for necessities, which weren't that common. I don't know what she was like in school, she seemed intelligent, but not maladjusted and notably eccentric like me, but I have no idea how she turned out. I'm high right now, *sigh* the worst thoughts come at this hour, ruminations on the cold nature off reality and of the possibilities and uncertainty in existence, I'd describe the aura around the period as quasi-schizophrenic and a type of mild subtle surrealist existential horror, emotionally dead. Anyway, I just the mild thought and feeling of how strange it seems that another person lived an entire life and I know none of it, experienced none of it from their perspective. Eh, I don't care. Mash, have you ever thought of your parents that way, what they're like outside of the house and way from you, like at work? How little you can really know of a person?
Anyway, I tried searching for her online along with other family members, just curious for the information it could signal about genetics and natural biological curiosity for entertainment, but couldn't find anything.
I wrote about this on Zoklet:
It's true, I still do. I have a theory that these urges may arise naturally in people that are isolated and remain virgins for an unnatural amount because it signals that you may be in a situation where incest is necessary to continue the survival of your species/genes. I imagine it arising naturally in a situation where a family group has become isolated, perhaps due to migration followed by the death of all others, or simply death of others due to some event. I call it the evolutionary failure theory, distinct from the above scenario because it arises not from lack of opportunity to mate with non-family members, but simply due to being an evolutionary failure.
I do remember that at a certain age, maybe 10-13, I can't remember exactly when, I'm pretty sure I regularly saw her masturbating via her clit and hand, a regular motion over her vagina, under a blanket or other cover, for some period of time (can't remember, probably not that long). May have been the first time she discovered masturbation and been oblivious that others could tell. Awkward sibling development moments. At that age I wasn't attracted to her, this came much later, 20+ IIRC. Once I must have wanted her to knock it off and I remember she was on the couch lying sideways and I quickly snatched off the blanket she was covering herself with. May have caught a flash of white skin and walked away without a word from either of us, stone-faced. It's a good sign that she liked it so much, would definitely use that against her if she called me a pervert, use it as an opening for attempting to seduce her. I also have some memories that makes me wonder if she would actually have some openness to this.
Fantasies don't necessarily, and often don't, mean you'd actually be interested in doing that IRL, as opposed to the simulation, usually inaccurate and idealized, that you form in your mind. There's a good chance I would have no interest or attraction to her if we ever met IRL.
There are interesting stories about the possibility of genetic attraction, observations that when siblings who weren't raised together and don't know they're related there may be a common occurrence of great sexual attraction.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Genetic_sexual_attractionIt's possible that because I ended up spending so little time with her, particularly during her pubertal period, when sexuality most develops, this may have been lessened:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Westermarck_effector there could be a shared genetic factor to predispose her to deviant behavior, incestual sexual attraction.
I am shameless and this doesn't concern me or cause me any guilt. It's not something I've ever fixated on or devoted much thought to. If presented with the opportunity and we were both receptive, horny and not afraid to go against the taboo, I would absolutely do it because that would probably be awesome sex.
Oh, and Oreimo is an awesome anime, highly recommended. Takes a few episodes to really start seeing the charm:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oreimo
