Malice, do a heroic shot, like 50mg. The heroic dose talked about in The Spirit Molecule is only 0.4mg/kg, half that is still listed as "intense." What salt do you have? Fumarate or HCl?
I'm sad I didn't IV DMT when it was available to me basically for free.
I'm too scared. IV'd breakthrough dose DMT while taking an irreversible MAO inhibitor like Parnate, which could greatly extend the duration (syrian rue and b. caapi, which are reversible and less potent, have been shown to do this) is no joke. I should at least finish reading "The Spirit Molecule" and "LSD: Doorway to the Numinous". Know what to expect, visualize it, desensitize myself to the idea of doing it, setting up the area you'll be preparing to use during the trip and going through the motions of preparing the IV solution and IV there, without actually IV'ing or using DMT. Ponder problems, issues, that may arise, and how to deal with them, remember the wide variety of common experiences, so you'll better understand what is occurring.
I think I should spend a day communing with nature. Mood is very important, psychedelics are nonspecific amplifiers, they tend to augment the intensity of your emotional state, rather than educing euphoria. This is generally true for LSD and psilocybin at least, some others, like Mescaline, may tend to enhance mood. I'd have to take it when I feel it's the right day, based on my mental state, then possibly go to a location in a regional park, which doesn't necessarily take that long, there are some close by accessible by public transportation, rapid transit > bus into regional park. Hardly any non-asian minorities as well, at least the bad ones, and less people on a weekday early in the morning. Then I would take 2.5g phenibut to reduce anxiety without interfering with the trip, possibly even enhancing it, along with 2.4g piracetam.
I'm reminded of McKenna saying he recommended 5 grams with mushrooms because with lower doses you may have a chance of fighting against it. My worst trip probably would have turned out much better if I hadn't been able to. I wonder if a similar principle could apply here and once there everything will be fine once it's occurring and fascinating, awe inspiring, instead of terrifying.
What salt do you have? Fumarate or HCl?
I don't know, the vendor just lists it as high purity acacia (I think, don't want to check) extract. I don't know if the process yields freebase or a salt.