In the recent past I actually thought about using a chatroom to alleviate some of the problems stemming from severe social isolation and alienation, and possible help by triggering other biological mechanism/changes, mainly neurological, endocrine, and HPA axis. Tried Omegle at night and kept getting camwhores, which removed my tenuous desire for human contact.
http://www.theatlantic.com/features/archive/2014/10/the-new-heroin-epidemic/382020/, “the first time I did it, my brain and body said, this is what you've been missing your whole life.”
I have some money left over. X found a good vendor for LSD I'm willing to give a try, they give a very good impression. I'd like to give opium a try. If they have small amounts for sale, maybe I could even try a bit of both opium and heroin, enough doses for someone who has never tried an opiate before. It would be great to find that I respond well for them and add to my repertoire while using only often enough that I determine is optimal to avoid addiction/dependence.
There have been genes found which seem to significantly influence the pleasurable response to opioid, hopefully I will be one of the lucky ones. Maybe some of my disorders could increase the pleasure received relative to normals.
Some time ago I brought back the Hot Plate Vape after not using it since I built my heat gun setup, and felt a significant difference. A vaporization hotter and more efficient, without getting too close to a harsh combustion point, turning it over with a micro spoon and wine glass funnel. I was 100% out of the marijuana M had produced. Fortunately found that the vaporized weed I had been storing in an airtight great value container from Walmart hat has been used near the start of cannabis use seemed to be even better than fresh when used with an HPV. I can extend my addiction, which I think is beneficial if not used to excess. Before I was using every night to keep mental pain at bay at night, or for enhancing the amount of food I can consume and pleasure derived from it, hatred/anger/irritation and excess energy that could interfere with sleep. Eventually with daily usage it seems to evoke an unhealthy state of mind after a few months.
I am currently on cannabis and etizolam, my version of drunk. I don't think I took that much etiz. Spelling properly and typing can be difficult, meals take hours longer than they should have because I keep zoning out on something and in the interim it gets too cold and I have to reheat it, repeating the cycle many times; other things are also effected. Definite negatove effect on memory and mental performance. Sometimes I"m afraid I'll nod out, it's happened before. I should get a food warmer, that would be luxurious. Like these:
http://www.amazon.com/Oster-CKSTBSTW00-Buffet-Server-Stainless/dp/B002FWTOQMhttp://www.amazon.com/MaxiMatic-EWM-9933-Platinum-2-Quart-Stainless/dp/B002DUCCEWI sometimes have the bizarre impulse to play touch the stove with the hot plate. I've thought about passing out and my face landing on it. Etiz cab supposedly begin to act as a TCA after prolonged us according to wiki, but I never verified it because I never expected to use it continuously. Hopefully it doesn't occur, or if it does the effect on serotonin doesn't develop rapidly enough to cause serotonin syndrome when taken into conjunction with the MAOI I'm on. It's already over 4AM here. Causes the perception of the passage of time to be faster.
Fortunately it seems that a mescaline salt taken rectally may be 2x3 times more bioavailable than oral, resins and blended cacti seem to be much less.
I've thought of a method of trolling black bloc teenage anarchists attacking small businesses or doing other moronic things. Dress as a clown and carry a backpack with suitable paper plates with enough depth and canisters of whipped cream. You can troll them for being idiots without really doing any damage. Supplies would be light enough to be able to procure more than enough of them. You could have a vest setup for faster access and assembly. I'd like to one day take on an entire black bloc with my face disguised and wearing a neon yellow Bruce Lee like tracksuit with modern advanced fabrics and designs, bare handed with no weapons.
Imagine if eventually drug runners start sending out drones from their cars carrying the drugs to avoid getting serious charges.
I wake up every morning hoping the Ferguson verdict has been released and check reddit to see if it has. I wonder if there's a free service that will text you when it happens, and won't sell your number to advertisers or spam it. It seems possible. I could see a program that uses google voice to send a free text message using an undefined mechanism to trigger when to send it.
I'm not sure if I forgot anything.
If you made it this far, I'm just going to laugh. As a reward, if you aren't already aware of it:
http://www.reddit.com/r/60fpsporn/top/Can this be used to replace etizolam completely you think? I'm dependent on etizolam hard and desperatly want off.
Yes. It will also greatly enhance its potency, allowing an easier taper since it's increasing GABA via a much more effective mechanism, you will need much less to cover any possible deficit.
It may also be able to be used as a potent anxiolytic than can be used without significantly diminishing psychedelics, along with phenibut.