This is water.
I'll just post this in every thread where it's relevant.
This is just that obvious truth I was trying to express. And it's interesting when he claims that everyone is self-centered. That's largely true in individualistic societies, but not really the case in the more collective. Also wtf is up with that music at the end? cringe.
I was thinking about suicide again today. It's really scary. You remember what it feels like. Family members describing how they came home, to find her hanging in the garage. The confusing feelings of anger and guilt. Knowing you'll never see them again, and feeling that loneliness cut you deep. Seeing the people around you fall to pieces at their own loss, and not knowing who to reach out to for help. More guilt. Always the guilt.
It's so frightening, thinking that you might someday cause that very same pain. You don't want to. It's selfish, and so ugly. The absolute worst of you. But a part of you nonetheless. An awful, nagging piece of who you are that you're not even allowed to share with the world. You're horrified that it exists, concerned at how powerful it seems in relation to the rest of you, and very ashamed for being this way.
Sometimes I'm weak
