That's the problem with most euphoric substances.. After a long enough period, it no longer does shit for you.. And by the time you want to turn back, you can hardly function otherwise.. That's why after I did my whole experimental phase, I decided firmly to stick to weed.. And I even take a month off from it regularly for tolerance reasons and.. Sometimes I just like my sober unaltered state.
I'm not telling you to quite your fix, but be rational. Once you start doing something, you live with it.. forever. You might not realize the weight some of those decisions may hold. Good luck no matter what.. I just hope for people to reach their highest potential.. Where are all the great men of our time? Unfortunate that many of the really good ones are huddled up somewhere with a needle and a spoon.