What if you'll never be able to function well in society without them and this is the cost, the burden you'll have to bear?
Sure you outscore others, but what have you done with that ability? Look at the state of your life, the things you've done in the past. It's clear that you have significant problems that will prevent you from achieving your potential. Brush it off as this being your version of fun, not considering it a serious aspect of your life, but this is only to make you feel secure, to protect your ego from the acceptance of how little your life has amounted to.
This is harsh physical reality, cold and uncaring. You're trapped just like the rest of us. It's been easy for you to get away with the things you do due to being young, the environment you're in and the kind of parents you have, but once that's gone... You likely would have ended up very similar to Slag if you had been in his lower position; that is the future you are heading towards.