I ended up doing quite a bit of research on etizolam, and I believe I've found a reliable vendor. (The one I used in the past that had EVERYTHING is no longer available, and the guy didn't ship to the u.s. anymore). I'm going to give it a try, and I'll post my results whenever I end up taking care of business (its hard enough trying to take care of my family and maintain my raw habit). I'm also trying to find a psychedelic rc with the most intense visuals, etc. You can say I'm a veteran when it comes to lsd and mushrooms, but took a huge break when I had my bad trip, which caused the anxiety issues I've suffered from ever since. I've found that as long as I have a few benzos handy when I trip just in case, I'm all good. Anyways, I'm rambling. Thanks again for all of the input!
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