thats drugs for you, in a nutshell.
they are great at first, they make life different and interesting, every day so full of possibilities
not to mention the drama and intrigue of black marketeering
but then as life grinds inexorably on....the true nature of drugs reveals itself
every day is like a hamster on a wheel, forced to run by the application of pain and deprivation
the magic is gone, and there is never enough