The Sanctuary
Ego => Bitch & Moan => Topic started by: equanimity on November 13, 2014, 03:53:07 am
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Not the teenaged "omg you guys won't buy me the phone that came out" angst. I mean that anxious feeling of pressure in your stomach that makes you wonder in your distressed way why you're alive and what your purpose might be. Y'know, you don't know why it's there or what purpose it's supposed to serve, but there it is anyway; eating away at your sense of contentment and well-being. It actually hurts.
I really hate that.
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Alcohol shopuld fix that real good
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Not the teenaged "omg you guys won't buy me the phone that came out" angst. I mean that anxious feeling of pressure in your stomach that makes you wonder in your distressed way why you're alive and what your purpose might be. Y'know, you don't know why it's there or what purpose it's supposed to serve, but there it is anyway; eating away at your sense of contentment and well-being. It actually hurts.
I really hate that.
I have no idea what you are typing about
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Alcohol shopuld fix that real good
I am going to get staggering, fuckfaced drunk for the second night in ar ow because fuck you
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Way ahead of you buddy, just remember to look at progiles of old friend online to make you feel extra emotional
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Sounds like you ate a bad shawarma or contracted ebola. Other than that, I have no idea what you're talking about. I think, philosophically, we are on opposite ends of the spectrum though, so theres that.
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progiles of old friend online to make you feel extra emotional
no emotion behind it, I just want to get fucked up
I do have a picture of this girl I was with in high school, but I don't look at it anymore
she looks exactly the same as she used to
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I guess I am going to go look at some pictures of harlequin babies and shit
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progiles of old friend online to make you feel extra emotional
no emotion behind it, I just want to get fucked up
I do have a picture of this girl I was with in high school, but I don't look at it anymore
she looks exactly the same as she used to
they don't look the same after 10 years. i know that for a fact.
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they don't look the same after 10 years. i know that for a fact.
It was sort of a faraway picture, but she is still in shape
she probably has facial wrinkles from sucking cocks
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she probably has facial wrinkles from sucking cocks
This better not be a thing :mad:
And really, you guys have no idea what I'm talking about? :/
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Move this god-damn thread to NIMF, because it isn't a bitch or moan instead just another version of your incessant whinefest we've all been witness to for years. Hell, you've been here only a couple of months and how many of these "boo-hoo" threads have you started? All for attention and pity, like the pathetic chump you are.
Of course you don't have any sense of "purpose", because you are a sick and selfish human being....who has never made a sacrifice for anything or anyone ever in your life. All you focus on is instant self-gratification...whether its putting whatever drug into your body, or acting out your sexual weirdness, or just trolling message boards....there is absolutely NOTHING productive in any part of your being.
Still wondering Zek, if we added up all the time you spent feeling sorry for yourself droning on about your mental and emotional instability just on Sanctuary alone, how would that measure up compared to the amount of time you spent in your kid's lives?10:1 ratio? 50:1? 100:1? I'd be willing to bet you haven't spent so much as double digit hours even just talking to them on the phone vs. all the selfish nonsense you involve yourself with on here. All about you, you, you....and then you actually "wonder" why your life hasn't amounted to anything, when all you really care about is your own pathetic and disgusting life.
Its an overused saying any more online, but if anyone out there REALLY needs to kill themselves, its you. Just do it already, because nothing has ever gotten "better" for your tattered existence....as every year goes on you become more of a toxic and worthless bag of bones burdening this world with your constant immaturity and self-centered weirdness.
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Oh my god DaGuru, go outside and yell at traffic or something.
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honestly people that talk about offing themselves constantly need to seek help or get to stepping and actually do it other wise it's just attention seeking pity parties of someone that either is too much of a coward to confront their problems and try to better themselves or even more of a bitch for not doing what they so believe is right to do and demand pity from others for their own weakness
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Oh my god DaGuru, go outside and yell at traffic or something.
Truth hurts, don't it you sick fuck un-daddy. ;D
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It's not even close to the truth.
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It's not even close to the truth.
Bullshit, this whole forum knows exactly what you are about. Whining and self-gratification. Period. Nothing more. Look deep within yourself. There truly is ZERO purpose to your existence. What use IS your life? To suck dick and give guys cheap thrills for a few minutes? Pffffft, you can be replaced after surfing Craigslist for an hour, even that is just minimizing your life to a breathing piece of meat that can easily be discarded. You offer NOTHING to the world Zek, absolutely nothing. If you would off yourself tonight, you would be forgotten about in no time at all. MAYBE serving as the funny punchline to a weird anecdote..."yeah, remember that creepy neighbor guy.....". Beyond that you are just an insufferable do-nothing toxic presence. You said it yourself in the OP, you KNOW there is no purpose to your existence....that feeling in your gut is the self-realization of the cold hard truth staring you straight in the face.
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It's not even close to the truth.
Bullshit, this whole forum knows exactly what you are about. Whining and self-gratification. Period. Nothing more. Look deep within yourself. There truly is ZERO purpose to your existence. What use IS your life? To suck dick and give guys cheap thrills for a few minutes? Pffffft, you can be replaced after surfing Craigslist for an hour, even that is just minimizing your life to a breathing piece of meat that can easily be discarded. You offer NOTHING to the world Zek, absolutely nothing. If you would off yourself tonight, you would be forgotten about in no time at all. MAYBE serving as the funny punchline to a weird anecdote..."yeah, remember that creepy neighbor guy.....". Beyond that you are just an insufferable do-nothing toxic presence. You said it yourself in the OP, you KNOW there is no purpose to your existence....that feeling in your gut is the self-realization of the cold hard truth staring you straight in the face.
look deep within YOUR SELF clarice
LOL zek is useless
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honestly people that talk about offing themselves constantly need to seek help or get to stepping and actually do it other wise it's just attention seeking pity parties of someone that either is too much of a coward to confront their problems and try to better themselves or even more of a bitch for not doing what they so believe is right to do and demand pity from others for their own weakness
No one's talking about suicide except daguru.
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honestly people that talk about offing themselves constantly need to seek help or get to stepping and actually do it other wise it's just attention seeking pity parties of someone that either is too much of a coward to confront their problems and try to better themselves or even more of a bitch for not doing what they so believe is right to do and demand pity from others for their own weakness
No one's talking about suicide except daguru.
maybe we should be. hopefully it encourages you to do the inevitable
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That's nature shaming you because you left your kid for Clifford to raise so you could shoot up anti-androgens, grow breast, and attention whore on the internet.
Why you haven't kicked the fucking stool yet is beyond me.
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honestly people that talk about offing themselves constantly need to seek help or get to stepping and actually do it other wise it's just attention seeking pity parties
*shrugs* Sometimes people just need to talk things out. Also, OP is already getting help.
@OP: Your feelings seem par for the course if you have any sort of chronic depression (and you do), assuming what you feel is an unreasonable depression, i.e. depression that will not go away no matter how you try to think it through. I find good music is helpful to distract yourself with at least a little. Also, practice that meditation! Practice, practice, practice. Once you get good at it, you should be able to call on it regularly to clear your mind of any worry or doubt or sadness.
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*shrugs* Sometimes people just need to talk things out. Also, OP is already getting help.
then op should have posted this in the right sub-forum
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*shrugs* Sometimes people just need to talk things out. Also, OP is already getting help.
then op should have posted this in the right sub-forum
this
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*shrugs* Sometimes people just need to talk things out. Also, OP is already getting help.
then op should have posted this in the right sub-forum
infractions all around
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honestly people that talk about offing themselves constantly need to seek help or get to stepping and actually do it other wise it's just attention seeking pity parties
*shrugs* Sometimes people just need to talk things out. Also, OP is already getting help.
@OP: Your feelings seem par for the course if you have any sort of chronic depression (and you do), assuming what you feel is an unreasonable depression, i.e. depression that will not go away no matter how you try to think it through. I find good music is helpful to distract yourself with at least a little. Also, practice that meditation! Practice, practice, practice. Once you get good at it, you should be able to call on it regularly to clear your mind of any worry or doubt or sadness.
lmfao unreasonable depression. quit being a little bitch. grow the fuck up. life isn't all sunshine and rainbows you dirty niggerlover. get a real job. support yourself. if you can't do this go shoot yourself in the head and end everyone's misery for 35 cents
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honestly people that talk about offing themselves constantly need to seek help or get to stepping and actually do it other wise it's just attention seeking pity parties
*shrugs* Sometimes people just need to talk things out. Also, OP is already getting help.
@OP: Your feelings seem par for the course if you have any sort of chronic depression (and you do), assuming what you feel is an unreasonable depression, i.e. depression that will not go away no matter how you try to think it through. I find good music is helpful to distract yourself with at least a little. Also, practice that meditation! Practice, practice, practice. Once you get good at it, you should be able to call on it regularly to clear your mind of any worry or doubt or sadness.
lmfao unreasonable depression. quit being a little bitch. grow the fuck up. life isn't all sunshine and rainbows you dirty niggerlover. get a real job. support yourself. if you can't do this go shoot yourself in the head and end everyone's misery for 35 cents
unreasonable depression as a statement about someone with a depressive disorder is like saying if you're feeling too clenly to someone with OCD
unreasonable depression is a fucking symptom you mong
btw this still isn't headshrinkers or spurious generalities you fucking mooks
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honestly people that talk about offing themselves constantly need to seek help or get to stepping and actually do it other wise it's just attention seeking pity parties
*shrugs* Sometimes people just need to talk things out. Also, OP is already getting help.
@OP: Your feelings seem par for the course if you have any sort of chronic depression (and you do), assuming what you feel is an unreasonable depression, i.e. depression that will not go away no matter how you try to think it through. I find good music is helpful to distract yourself with at least a little. Also, practice that meditation! Practice, practice, practice. Once you get good at it, you should be able to call on it regularly to clear your mind of any worry or doubt or sadness.
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Yeah. Things aren't so bad. Not really. I'm just fine, in actuality. It's just those damn delusional thoughts that try to bring me down.
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honestly people that talk about offing themselves constantly need to seek help or get to stepping and actually do it other wise it's just attention seeking pity parties
*shrugs* Sometimes people just need to talk things out. Also, OP is already getting help.
@OP: Your feelings seem par for the course if you have any sort of chronic depression (and you do), assuming what you feel is an unreasonable depression, i.e. depression that will not go away no matter how you try to think it through. I find good music is helpful to distract yourself with at least a little. Also, practice that meditation! Practice, practice, practice. Once you get good at it, you should be able to call on it regularly to clear your mind of any worry or doubt or sadness.
:)
Yeah. Things aren't so bad. Not really. I'm just fine, in actuality. It's just those damn delusional thoughts that try to bring me down.
kill yourself nigger
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honestly people that talk about offing themselves constantly need to seek help or get to stepping and actually do it other wise it's just attention seeking pity parties
*shrugs* Sometimes people just need to talk things out. Also, OP is already getting help.
@OP: Your feelings seem par for the course if you have any sort of chronic depression (and you do), assuming what you feel is an unreasonable depression, i.e. depression that will not go away no matter how you try to think it through. I find good music is helpful to distract yourself with at least a little. Also, practice that meditation! Practice, practice, practice. Once you get good at it, you should be able to call on it regularly to clear your mind of any worry or doubt or sadness.
:)
Yeah. Things aren't so bad. Not really. I'm just fine, in actuality. It's just those damn delusional thoughts that try to bring me down.
kill yourself nigger
flare gun suicide go out like the sparkling unique star you are
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Honestly it would be a comfort keeping around some pentobarbital just in case. Stuff is hard to find these days.
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Honestly it would be a comfort keeping around some pentobarbital just in case. Stuff is hard to find these days.
faggot just shoot your face
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Honestly it would be a comfort keeping around some pentobarbital just in case. Stuff is hard to find these days.
only through seppuku may you truly know honor
(http://www.japanator.com/elephant/ul/22983-620x-Seppuku.jpg)
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i think you mean jigaki~
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i think you mean jigaki~
no I mean seppuku
Seppuku (切腹, "stomach-cutting", "abdomen-cutting") is a form of Japanese ritual suicide by disembowelment.
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Alcohol shopuld fix that real good
Directly into the liver too don't be a pussy.
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Y'know, you don't know why it's there or what purpose it's supposed to serve, but there it is anyway...
I look at you Equanimity and I know exactly what you mean.
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Good thread. :tup:
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(http://i.imgur.com/k9ZVQ0r.png)
Hey Zek, how old are your children now?
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Honestly it would be a comfort keeping around some pentobarbital just in case. Stuff is hard to find these days.
Betty will help you just as easily, you attention-seeking degenerate.
See below.
I'm not angry at all but I know Zek has got to go.
Agreed. Time to do it with Betty. (http://www.veoh.com/watch/v15857852SNBFDqej?h1=Doing+it+with+Betty)
I would suggest something more dramatic and honourable like seppuku (men) or jigaki (women), but seeing as clearly defining Zek as one or the other is difficult I'm at a loss as to which one to recommend.
i think you mean jigaki~
I think the Japanese would be too confused to let you dirty their fine steel with potentially improper protocol.
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Don't call me a degenerate, slave. And I'm not suicidal, but having a drink that would kill you peacefully just in case you ever needed it wouldn't be a bad thing. Messing around with helium tanks and oven bags is a serious process.
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in case you ever needed it
when would one ever need such a thing? what, are you going to be tortured by nazis and have to kill yourself before they torture the secret information out of you?
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Is Clifford a good dad?
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you do show classic signs of degenerate behavior
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Move this god-damn thread to NIMF, because it isn't a bitch or moan instead just another version of your incessant whinefest we've all been witness to for years. Hell, you've been here only a couple of months and how many of these "boo-hoo" threads have you started? All for attention and pity, like the pathetic chump you are.
Of course you don't have any sense of "purpose", because you are a sick and selfish human being....who has never made a sacrifice for anything or anyone ever in your life. All you focus on is instant self-gratification...whether its putting whatever drug into your body, or acting out your sexual weirdness, or just trolling message boards....there is absolutely NOTHING productive in any part of your being.
Still wondering Zek, if we added up all the time you spent feeling sorry for yourself droning on about your mental and emotional instability just on Sanctuary alone, how would that measure up compared to the amount of time you spent in your kid's lives?10:1 ratio? 50:1? 100:1? I'd be willing to bet you haven't spent so much as double digit hours even just talking to them on the phone vs. all the selfish nonsense you involve yourself with on here. All about you, you, you....and then you actually "wonder" why your life hasn't amounted to anything, when all you really care about is your own pathetic and disgusting life.
Its an overused saying any more online, but if anyone out there REALLY needs to kill themselves, its you. Just do it already, because nothing has ever gotten "better" for your tattered existence....as every year goes on you become more of a toxic and worthless bag of bones burdening this world with your constant immaturity and self-centered weirdness.
This, this, for the love of GOD, THIS!!
Also fun fact, no matter what gender Zek THINKS he is, he is a father not a mother.
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Also fun fact, no matter what gender Zek THINKS he is, he is a father not a mother
from what I seen it would be more appropriate to say contributor of male dna than using the term father as denoting an actual parental role
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Touche. Lol
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(https://i.imgur.com/7drHiqrh.jpg)
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Don't call me a degenerate, slave. And I'm not suicidal, but having a drink that would kill you peacefully just in case you ever needed it wouldn't be a bad thing.
Unless you have a terminal disease, severe and chronic medical problems, or some other physical pain/or disease (real ones, not the kind you make up in your head) which has permanently and significantly impaired your quality of life, or are just elderly and being bluntly pragmatic about the near(ish) future... none of which apply to you... your thinking is that of an attention-seeking mind, revelling in the twisted desires it presents to an audience.
Messing around with helium tanks and oven bags is a serious process.
But for you that would be the whole point; the appearance of a failed attempt, surrounded by all the paraphenalia of the suicide kit. Think of all that drama and concern focused just on you.
This is what makes you mentally degenerate.
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I guess I am going to go look at some pictures of harlequin babies and shit
(http://i58.tinypic.com/wrkirr.jpg)
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Think of how your kids would feel Zek.
You should definately do it.
You can talk to that asian girl you convenced to kill herself.
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I guess I am going to go look at some pictures of harlequin babies and shit
(http://i58.tinypic.com/wrkirr.jpg)
Looks like the top half to Zek's leg pic.
(http://i.imgur.com/hRhH11f.png)
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I guess I am going to go look at some pictures of harlequin babies and shit
(http://i58.tinypic.com/wrkirr.jpg)
Looks like the top half to Zek's leg pic.
(http://i.imgur.com/hRhH11f.png)
I honestly thought it was a shrunken down version of that myself at first glance